Welcome new Member glad to have you, you have for sure stumbled into the right place.
As for your spice experience, you very well could of broken through, but from what you wrote idk if you were fully through, but have patients my friend your time will come.
If you have a breakthrough YOU will know, but for now that's all i can give you.
Goodluck New traveler and be safe and use responsible, if you happen to find the guy ۩, in his signature you will find the best methods for administration. But also feel to ask whatever you need, withing the attitude section of course. The nexus is your new Bible Enjoy
"You are an explorer, and you represent our species, and the greatest good you can do is to bring back a new idea, because our world is endangered by the absence of good ideas. Our world is in crisis because of the absence of consciousness."
— Terence McKenna
"They Say It helps when you close yours eyes cowboy"