I preface by saying that this journey was completely un-planned and was brought on by some recent troubles occurring in my life.
Firstly my apartment was broken into yesterday, nothing was missing from my room at the time, but several of my room mates things were stolen. Fortunately he had insurance and used the break-in as the catalyst for his moving out. He left today and I find myself in an empty apartment.
Secondly whoever broke in came back today(our front door is broken, and was open) while I was in class and took my Volcano Vaporizer
and a small LCD tv from my room, apparently he also took something from my room mate as well.
Now, I can't go into too much detail on this, but I suspect that my room mate may have planned the break-in, as he was looking for an excuse to exit his contract. I think he may have some idea who did this, including the where-about's of my Volcano at present.
To top things off I'm coming into some serious thinking about my future, inlcuding my current state as a student. Again I won't go into too much detail.
Just know these are the reasons I took this trip
I had an unknown quanitity of spice that a friend had given me, and I was saving this for the 11:11 SHE, but I was in a bad spot and needed wisdom. I sat outside with a warm jacket and hat, and played Divne Moments of Truth by Shpongle on my laptop speakers, no headphones for this I said.
I realized it would be my last trip for a while so I did my best to remember everything, even though it happened SO faast.
It started with me hitting out of a small bong, very pure spice with just a little grass underneath(ABV, and just a pinch), this was the purest hit I've ever taken.
I felt the effects very soon, a creeping feeling in my body, red and green outlines surrounding everything and tracers of these colors. I sat back and looked at the world as I broke through, I saw the trees, the lake, and they descended into hyperspace textures. Letters, Colors and shapes. Many patterns, I could only see the outlines of these trees, the rest were filled with patterns.
I felt the presence of many entities, I sat back and closed my eyes. Immediately I was submerged in hyperspace, its a dark place at first, there is this object in the center, its a diamond-sphere 4-D combo.
It pulsates and shifts, words in hyperspace language surround it. This object shifts and can be anything, I realize it responds to your thoughts and can reflect your feelings. The shapes and patterns surrounding it look like entities, in fact they are. The entites sit on the top part of the frame and are watching me, based on my reactions to this info they respond differently. I remember at times feeling a sense of confusion and submission, one raises its hand at me, correcting like a teacher I realize. At one point I just look at the object and imprint it into my memory, at that, one female entity reached across my chest and did something. Perhaps this is what McKenna described as them jumping into your body. It felt sort of like part of her entered me.
There is another shift, and I'm in that pure space, the first hyperspace I went to when I brokethrough the first time, I hadn't been here in forever, it seemed like only the spice I used to have could get me there.
But here I was again, it's golden and the walls are literally made of the entities, they crawl out and move along this room. I see this space but its so difficult to comprehend, its like the mind forgets the most deep part of the journey.
I see this Golden room for a while, and then I fade out. My sense perception is distorted, I'm sitting outside this time so my body feels like it's inside a room. I always get these shifts, as if inside and outside are just two perceptions of the mind, and the feeling of each can be switched relatively easily.
As I come down, I see patterns, shapes, symbols and letters arranged in circular patterns, I open my eyes again and look at the sky. I feel the final grasp of the entities, they reach out and shake my hand, something they hadn't done in months. They are all embracing me and bidding me farewell like they used to do. I enjoyed these old trips so much, my recent excursions were nothing like this.
As I return back I feel as if I understand DMT, its nature and what it does. I feel like I have experimented enough with this for now, and I'm going to take a looooooong break. The next time(if any), will be with my own extraction, or maybe some other form like ayahuasca.
At any rate I was glad to be down, and realized DMT is not like any other drug, other drugs are taken to escape from your problems, this one makes you face them head on.
I came seeking wisdom and I found it, I need to relax, don't be so high-strung, don't get distracted and focus on the current state of things, do your best in all your endeavors and you will find the right path one day at a time.
Each day is a footstep on the path of life, you can veer in many directions, but each day is a new footstep. If I keep taking steps, I'll find my own path. I'm new to the trail still and have time to find it.
Thank you friends, I hope you enjoyed that.