Hey Matukuul
Nice intro... would say welcome, but you're not really fresh off the boat here.
Still, thought I'd toss you some love. Can't speak for everyone else, but I feel you.
Follow that divine love my friend. Most of what people think is their life is just illusion and bullshit. If you can touch something heavenly, and grow in the process, what else do you want?
"Curiouser and curiouser..." ~ Alice
"Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it." ~ Buddha