I think SWIM did not express what he meant correctly, so I will try to explain his thoughts as clear as possible.
SWIM has been traveling to hyperspace for few years now. At some point during the experimental stage SWIM decided to go to infinity and beyond. SWIM loaded a bong with first hit of approximately 50mg proceeded to inhale, loaded second hit of slightly bigger dose. The effects started to kick in after first toke, so you can imagine how difficult it was to load a 3rd hit and take a long deep breath of vapor.
SWIM had been sitting in lotus position during this whole process, lights in the room were dimmed, mindset - positive, quiet music in the background (the track was Easily Embarrased - Ancient Technology. First as usual was the physical weightlessness, followed by a transformation of SWIM's room into a whole new reality. The walls started jumping with vibrant colors and geometric shapes. The third toke was transformational in itself. As SWIM was inhaling the smoke, time was moving slower and slower until the point of complete standstill and it was at that point SWIM realized he no longer was on his bed, in his room, in the house on earth in this universe.
This was experience like no other. SWIM saw himself grow millions of sizes bigger than out known universe and engulfed within everything that exists. It was the time before beginning of time, it was a place and point of creation of all we know. SWIM has been suspended in heavenly harmony sitting right next to the creator. There was no pain, no worries, no memories, just a pure energy and 2 forces.
One force was absolute. It was the giver of all. the shining light, the warm sensation and all that is good and pleasant. The other force was a complete opposite, it was created to take in the pleasure, light, warmth from the absolute. These were the only things that existed and SWIM was meant to be there to witness, learn, comprehend.
The place that all this took place is as real as any other place anyone has ever been to. It exist just outside the realms of physical world and matter. These two forces dependent on each other to survive exist and power the engine of life. SWIM felt the presence of the creator, but couldn't comprehend that realm of existence. SWIM started heading back to physical world and on the way back took part in creation, transformation and evolution of all that exist, in order from matter (non animate objects) to plants, to animals, and people. Lastly the was a faint voice that hovered above my head and at first i couldn't make out what it said, but then it came to me. The voice kept repeating softly, "breathe"...."breathe" as the effects were wearing off.
SWIM tried to take a deep breath but couldn't. it was as if the mouth and nose were blocked off. SWIM tried to open his eyes but it was still as dark as they were closed. From the panic of suffocation SWIM tried to move his body and felt extreme pressure that was pressing him against the floor. SWIM turned his head to the side and took a breath as of for the first time in his life. Coming to consciousness SWIM opened his eyes to find 4 police officer holding SWIM down to the floor, hands are behind SWIM's back handcuffed, there are 7 more police officers in SWIM's room all with eyes the size of a quarter trying to understand what has happened to SWIM.
SWIM was still in shock/awe from what he just experienced in hyperspace and what IS happening in his room. SWIM remembers being really confused because as he went to hyperspace everything was quiet, and everyone was asleep, and once he came out there are 6 squad cars flashing light and 3 ambulances on front of his house, dozens of cops in his room and no one has a clue to what happened. The police escorted SWIM outside to the ambulance since they were baffled to what has happened to SWIM. And SWIM the whole time kept repeating; "this is not real, i am not gonna remember this". At the hospital still handcuffed to a bed, SWIM underwent a series of drug tests by the physicians in the hospital, the officer that was first on the scene stayed with SWIM to file a report. The psychiatrist was invited to briefly interview SWIM. After all possible tests including MRI, SWIM was discharged from the hospital on the account of "nightmares/terrors"
Still baffled by the series of events that took place withing 2hrs or so, SWIM began to ask the young officer that stayed with him on the hospital room. The officer said there has been an anonymous call from the bystander regarding "domestic violence" (keep in mind SWIM lives on a 6th floor of a building). As the police arrived, they discovered SWIM in his room with nothing but a t-shirt on, drenched in sweat, walking in circles around the room holding head with both hands and repeating "Holy shit! this is fucking crazy!". The police then tried to slap SWIM to consciousness but SWIM proceeded to fight back that's when police was forced to pin SWIM down to the floor. Since no illegal substances have been found lurking in SWIMs blood he was released, but nothing will ever be the same. SWIM feels that with experience a small part of him died and a new part of him was born.
After that hell of a night, SWIM has great respect for the spirit molecule. It will punish those who are careless and it will be a great guidance to those who are humble. That experience has opened a door, a direct path that SWIM is now walking on. Recently SWIM has spend many days, weeks, months studying the science of Kabballah. To SWIM's astonishment he is discovering a structure of nature, that has been taught by Kabballists over 5000 years ago, and it carries almost identical properties, qualities, etc as what SWIM has seen. smelled, tasted, touched, felt that night.
Sorry for this long post, I feel that story is a necessary prerequisite to the question originally posted.
Ever since that experience SWIM has this fear and an equivalent desire to go back. The even described above happened a little over a year ago, and SWIM noticed a particular pattern that lead him back to hyperspace gradually but with peculiar detail that stand out to make this intangible how should I say...sensation / understanding / observation possible. (Please excuse my inability to express with correct terms, due to the nature of the subject.)
To sum up the revelation/wisdom/knowledge received from the above experience, it's a sort of sensation of self with the world as a whole plus an addition of other realms that exist beyond our understanding such as before and after death or other higher world experiences. It is understanding of one and only law governing all that exists. It is the harmony of opposites depending on each other's existence for the sake of own survival. It is the awakening force that paints a picture of reality as a self portrait of the observer. Also the has been a development in perception of reality on a fundamental level subjective to oneself. Just to touch base as to what am i referencing all this information of, here is my background in knowledge that extends from basic to advanced sciences (physics, chem, quantum, micro/macro) as well as extensive knowledge in human behavior and psyche, also I have a rich hands on background with various religious/spiritual beliefs.
...to be continued
I think I'm blessed to have my endless curiosity pave the road to uncharted territories in ever changing, and unfolding reality.
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