One really amazing thing I wanted to share, was a few weeks ago on Saturday, we (my fiance and I) went out to the field and smoked some changa. My experience was profound and I learned how to will my mind clear, hers was more personal... Her whole life she has been treated like shit by most all her family and peers. She has lots of issues/baggage, and she never really felt connected to her mother. Anyways, she was telling me about her trip, and how there were angels sitting at 4 tables in the sky, and in the middle of them all was a big glowing feminine figure who basically told her it would be ok, that she is being watched over.


I told you that story to tell you this one:
About two weeks ago, my fiance and I found out that shes pregnant. One of the happiest moments of my life. Knowing that I'm going to be a dad, it's almost unreal. I used to always, I dunno shrug?, off when people said that it really does change your life as just something people say.... but it really does, or at least it did for me. I can honestly say that I feel as if my life has meaning now. Not that it 'didn't' before, I just didn't really care about life to much... but now its like omg I have to look after my fiance, so the pregnancy doesn't go to hard, I have to look after the baby, which I'm so unready for its crazy, and then I also have to look after myself more, because I have to look after the other two... definitely gave my life a firm kick in the head and said 'get on track!'. (Edit): Now after finding out that shes pregnant, she was pregnant when she smoked the changa, and now she thinks that that is what the trip was about: her being a mother.

The day we found out she was pregnant, my boss fired me for no reason (serious he said he doesn't think it's working out, although he praised me everyday at how well I was doing -.-), and so now I am moving back in with my father until November, with which I can go over to Europe and stay with her until the babies born, and fly back with them.... after that.... well we have a couple plans, but nothing set in stone yet.


Anyways, I just wanted to share with my second family that I am going to be a father, and I can't be more happy!

Also, anyone in Europe know of any good places to hang out? I'll be in Wallasey? I think it is. Anyways, if anyone would like to PM me or talk feel free!

Thanks for reading <3 much love.

LSDMT

Congratulations on the new addition!

I'm sure you will make a wonderful father and I wish all 3 of you the best of luck wherever you may end up finally landing.

Brightest of blessings upon your little family.

♥

Congratulations on this massive step, and best of luck, may you find prosperity and happiness

So sorry about the loss of your job but so very happy to read this wonderful news Ellis D'Empty! Get ready to change your username to Ellis Overfull! Think everything's changed? Just you wait! I don't have kids but I've watched it happen countless times. It is amazing. You are no longer just living for you in a way that is visceral. Quite the singularity moment, eh? Nothing ever the same again. Much love to you, your family, your future child and even your boss.

Thanks for the replies guys! Yes, I've been working hard at my other 'part time' job that I do. Trying to make ends meet. Aye Pandora, I cannot wait till I can hold my little one in my arms. First smile, first word, first tantrum, first everything... and it's half of me! No, nothing will ever be the same again, my life has taken a new meaning...

Anyways, I won't be on much as I'm trying to make this paper dollar -.-

But I'll check on every now and then

Much love everyone <3 Good vibes

Being a father definitely shifts one's perspective in a lot of different ways. There are the ones at first that you are experiencing. Then there are a lot of mixed ones as your kids and you grow up during the process. I have had great joys and disappointments in the process, but that is life. My favorite years with my kids were the ones when they were just out of their diapers and were still pretty innocent (3-12 or so). They always seemed so eager to please for the most part. The most challenging years occurred about the same years that I was a pain in the ass for my parents (13-1 especially with my son. My daughter was a lot easier because she seemed pretty focused. I love them both a lot and damn where did the time go? They are in their very early 20's now.

Enjoy and Grow!

Yea, I keep thinking back to when I gave my father a hard time, he was a single dad and around 10-13 I wasn't very nice... I remember he used to always say "I hope when you grow up you have a son and he says that [those things] to you! And see how you feel!" and... well now I'm scared that it's going to happen, but yes that is life.

I'll share some pics of some outfits that I got for him sometime, we already found some mushroom shoes and a cute panda outfit! Some panda clothes n stuffs xD

We realllly want a mushroom moses basket but it appears we just can't find one

Anyways, I'm off to a festival to sell some bread Take care

Much love <3