hi, (tap tap, is this on?)
like most cautious and curious creatures i've lurked into existence here. it's been a couple of months of getting to know the general vibe of the community and seeing if it was going to be the right fit before i joined as a member. thank you for the framework and guidance to begin exploration into the unknown. i respect the overall 'attitude' and discourse here and feel comfortable joining in the community. i'll skip the formalities of relating the depth and breadth of my experiences right now and save some mystery for later.
i'm typically shy and humble. i already have a small circle of dear friends that i can share my interests into the respectful and also recreational use of entheogens. respectful in the sense that it's not something we advertise or represent publicly. recreational in that we do venture into the far reaches of irreverent and hilarity at times... other times solemnity and infinite gratitude. you guys already know what i mean i'm sure...
a bit about me in the 'real' world. I'm just a john doe. i blend in. i dress plainly. i don't broadcast my music or unique tastes for all to see. i'm hard to get to know and while i probably seem typical and generic to most people, most people seem overtly 'normal' to me. i'm just different in my interests, which not a lot of people share. i'm a medical professional, and i keep my professional and personal life separate. i'm not into sports, network tv, gaming, whatever most people are discussing as the current trendy event. don't care about celebrities. I'm informed on political issues but am not an activist. i lean toward the left, but agree with the philosophy of the right occasionally. i don't like discussing politics, religion, or measuring dicks. i'm self educated beyond my 'station in life', which i'm comfortable with. i don't care what you think about me, but i'm very concerned with personal integrity whether you understand where i come from or not. (sorry for all the negative form there)
i'm a very musical soul. i'm not a musician, but appreciate and spend countless hours seeking out 'good' music. i say 'good' in quotes because i repect individual difference of what constitutes good. for myself, i love downtempo world fusion/electronica foremost. ancient and modern technologies blending... my favorite authors are jorge luis borges and robert anton wilson. i live in the desert and i'm nocturnal. a good strategy for living here...
i'm in my early 40's and have been exploring entheogens for more than half my life. age is just a number to me, i'm not an old soul or a young one. surely i'm hard to pin down, but maybe you'll figure out who i am before i do
on spirituality... i'm definitely an agnostic in the truest sense. my mantra is 'i don't know'. i hesitate to say what something 'is'... but won't hesitate to offer possible explanations for phenomenon i find interesting, with the disclaimer that 'i don't know' beyond my own experience. your mileage may vary...
i tend to be an observer first, a deep thinker next, and a sage rarely. i will reply to posts more often than i will start them myself, i have a tendency to mirror others. i will offer opinions but i'm not married to them, my interpretation is always subject to revision. don't be afraid to challenge me, reply sarcastically, slice and dice me witfully with humor, correct my facts or spelling. i actually welcome this as part of the growth process.
until the next post...
in lak'ech
If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude.
Maya Angelou