Syrian Rue: 4g oral
Mimosa: 500mg oral
unmeasured amount of secret ingredient smoked from an oil burner, and a candle, 1 toke. I estimate 20mg was smoked.

Tonight I smoked some tobacco at home. What a thick smoke it made. I knew it was going to be good because I could feel my throat tightening in response to a large volume of smoke. After the first toke, I became so dizzy that I realized another hit would not be necessary, so I put the bulb down, and I knew this was going to be a fun ride. I was like, "oooooh, that was a good one". Hyperspace surrounded me and communicated with me. It said all is well in the universe, and it's ok if you die. Thanks for existing. You are life, life is good, here you go, take in all it has to offer, you were born for this.

Near the end of the trip I experienced an interesting phenomenon that happens every so often, but is not the norm. Tonight, it happened more intensely than ever before. Normally for me, the trip peaks in the middle, and subsides. But sometimes, near the end of the smoke, it gets stronger and stronger, as if building to an impossible level. This building of something is an intense ecstasy. The carrier wave was getting stronger and stronger. Normally, at this point it becomes so ecstatic that it's scary, and I'll open my eyes and shake it off. But tonight, I was like, "no, I'm just going to ride this and see how far it can go". But you see, it's so intensely ecstatic that it feels like my brain is going to burst. It feels like my brain turns in to a light bulb that is going to shine so bright that it will pop. Everything illuminates in my head. The visions become an intense white light that gets brighter and brighter. The carrier wave goes up and up.... and up, while I'm thinking "what's going to happen next? Will I die?"

The light and carrier wave, and ecstasy became so intense that I went beyond myself, seemingly beyond the limits of what is physically possible to experience as ecstasy. It was like a cascade effect. Once it reached a certain level of intensity, it just exploded and took me beyond my limits, whether I wanted it or not. When it reached the absolute limit of ecstasy, rather than popping like a light bulb, the trip, and my body seemed to just ooze out everywhere. The carrier wave suddenly slowed, the sound went from a super high pitch, to low pitch, "WHOOOooooooooo". The image in my head was like ripples created by a drop of water. Everything just released in utter satisfaction and contentment, rather than violently explode.

Wow.... I guess I could take it after all, I thought. My consciousness felt malleable beyond belief. The whole time I just taking in very long, grateful breaths, sighing on the way out, bobbing my head around slowly, giving thanks, and feeling the energy of life all around. When the most intense part subsided, I spent a few minutes just breathing and wiping away the tears of joy. It was a good time. Good way to spend an otherwise uneventful half hour or so. I doubt I will look back when I die and say, "man..... I wish I didn't smoke..... tobacco". I wrote this coming down from the tobacco high. Cigarettes are good after all.

NO WAY!!!! The first thing I saw after posting this was that this was post# 1000! I didn't even realize that was coming. I did want my 1000th post to be something interesting, this was a pretty good one. Good way to celebrate post# 1000 for me here. That might have been the single most intense moment of ecstasy I have experienced.

Wow man intense experience. You like explained exactly how i felt one time during my first pharma. I was getting the same communication telling me that It is okay if I die because their will just be another reality waiting for me on the other side, and that this world we live in as humans is just a fabrication of my mind.. And then it would hit me.. like a jolt of electricity shooting up my spine into my head and my head would literally vibrate rapidly shaking almost seizure like behavior but only my head.. like it was gonna explode into a million pieces and that is precisely what I kept imagining would happen.. my head exploding. And I kept asking back the question "Why, why me? why do I have to die?".. and then I would soon after respond with "Okay I understand what must be done".. like as if I was part of a story and the end would be my death via head explosion. It was very dramatic and its hard to explain that feeling you get when you know that your whole life would build up to this moment in time where you had to make a choice of staying human or letting go.. Let's just say not a very pleasant experience.

wow, great report apoc and happy thousandth post .

Wow, I need some of this 'tobacco'! Sounds like a hell of a ride! I had similar yesrerday, but at no point thought my head would pop, I just wasn't aware of where my body ended and my surroundings began by the end of it. Very blissful, relaxing and contemplative as well

Happy 1K post man! I've had similar experiences on ruemosa brews when smoking tobacco... it's like psychic-electrical-interference-MDMA. Was this some mapacho? What's your history with tobacco? I've heard that after high dosage mapacho brews, smoking becomes very different.

Sounds pretty intense, a bit like my acid pharma intensity. I guess you also had the big relief when it finally subsided?

btw, to make sure the #1000th post of you is staying real, also in the future, I attached a screenshot of it.


Kind regards,

The Traveler

Awesome stuff, Apoc! Thanks for sharing bro

Congrats on your thousandth post and the Amazing experience that comprises it.

I hope I can have such an epic-apoc exprience for my 1,000 post , should I ever get there.

amazing trip report Apoc , it must have been intense and beautiful
and congrats on your 1000'th post

Thanks ya'll. I feel like this whole post 1000 was a nexus version of a birthday party or something. That ecstatic trip was my present, and ya'll are singing happy birthday here.



lol, nah man.