Hello Nexus, I'm glad to have come across a community that praises individuality rather than ostracizing it. I have never quite fit in with my environment. Growing up I was surrounded by hate and ignorance. My home town was one of the few cities which time seemed to surpass. I grew up around racism, sexism, and an overall disregard to other cultures. Eventually I found a group of friends who knew the idiocy we were surrounded by. At the age of 16 we started smoking and tripping together. We were a small group but we were a family. Little did I know at the time that we would soon be torn apart. My little rural town fell victim to the dark side of drugs. By 17 I was the only one who hadn't given in to heroin. One by one my friends lives fell apart. Although it was heart breaking to do I knew I had to cut off all contact with them. My life of solidarity passed by slowly. I spent most of my time reading. Senior year of high school my life collapsed. My parents found out I frequently used and cultivated shrooms. After being kicked out of the house I lived from relative to relative. I continued going to school but my grades began to drop as a result. For a month and a half my tent was the closest thing I had to a home. Eventually I moved in with my girl friend, who I'm still with to this day. I can't be me more grateful for her, without her encouragement I never would have graduated and be where I am today. After finding out my sister had been caught with smack I decided my town was a black hole which devoured all hints of beauty and innocence. My girl friend and I moved cross state and have been living together for more than a year These days I spend my time working, reading, writing poetry, and tripping when I have the time. When I look back at my childhood and overall upbringing I realize I've never had a steady relationship with other people. My friends abandoned me in a dash of self-destruction, my parents banished me from the house and still resent me, and my relatives just passed me off from house to house until there was no one left in the family chain. I don't regret anything I've done, if not for my mistakes I wouldn't be where I am today.

Welcome :]

Hey buddy it can only get better :]. Whaddya mean never had a stable relationship look at your girlfriend :]. Seen you in chat a bit always a pleasure.

peace

You've got a fine head on your shoulders, what a wonderful tale of strength, courage and love (and shrooms!).

Wishing you warmest welcome possible with open arms!

If we're all lucky the devil, you and I just might actually get the sleep we need tonight...

It's all good now, I'm happy with my life. Yeah that's a good point. She's always been there for me when no one else was. Thanks man, I enjoy our conversations.



Thanks man, that's a really nice thing to say. Lol shrooms have gotten me into a lot of trouble but they are definitely worth it.



Thanks for the welcome man. I <3 the dead.

hail satan.

Good for you E-Z. I'm glad you made it here. My story is similar but I made the best of it with friends I love and trust. I hope you find as much peace and trust as you deserve. I'm new on he boards but everyone here has been really cool to me, so I thought I'd pass it along. Welcome
iamtheowl

welcome to the nexus brother ,
my ride in life has been fucked too , however i have swam the ocean and i think i am on the other side now and life looks good , hopefully you have too and it will only get better

but i learned a lot from this fucked up ride , i learnt

when the storm descends on man some will stand strong
when the oceans rise in the air some will just hit a bong and go on
and when death comes to the door some will welcome it and make friends
and go on to sing the eternal song ,

and yes i learned that i am strong , hell yeah
hail satan

Welcome aboard, mate! I have a question: what does the Franz Kafka quote mean to you? It puzzles me very much.