Thoughts references everything you said including Tool and DMT I assume. Tool seems to have symbolism in their music and videos that reminded me of methamphetamine addiction, or self inflicted mental denigration, suffering, and turmoil however somebody posted a you-tube video with Joe Rogan's audio transcript played over top of a tool song, and allot of first timers who Google DMT and switch to "Videos" come across that video so I've heard from people in real life.
"Very keen to do some more for pure cosmic (inner and outer) research."
Check out my trip report for my insights:
https://www.dmt-nexus.me...;t=23550&find=unreadPerhaps my report resonates with you. Everyone's different.
"I have been on some kind of seeking/spiritual path for as long as i can remember."
So have I, and DMT has kind of caused me to re-examine things completely. I think it is a stepping stone in that if you have to be x high to ride (18 years old or older j/k) & when you do, you realize there's a whole other world waiting right inside your brain.
"From the intense research i've been doing on DMT since my first DMT experience i just cannot wait to get back inside it and zoom down that out-of-this-world worm hole."
Now the question is: How will you go about doing that?
I would recommend explore more. Learn extraction. =) I wonder how much of the trip can be used for things other than shifting / exploring consciousness.
There was a brief moment where I thought I was going to die, and then I realized this feeling that conveyed the message that somehow my mind is invincible. That did it for me as far as the fear and doubt stuff. If it weren't for the fact I knew what I was putting in my body before hand with tons of research, I wouldn't have been so calm about the whole thing. The fact that my friends just proposed me one day kind of knocked me back! & What got me more was that I accepted unhesitatingly & am glad that I did!
I= SWIM = Not Me. The I AM I Does Not Exist, and is Referenced to SWIM Who Is Not A Friend I Never Met, Nor Hallucinated While Imagining The Is-ness of Suchness That Is SWIM Who Is Not Me, Myself, Nor I As The Expression Of Non Dual Aspect of Non-Dual Reality Subjectively Denied By Swim, or accompanying Me-Anti-ness'es. =) All Credit Goes To The ANTI-SWIM'ness of SWIM's cousin's room-mate's uncle's deceased cat's in-law's second removed nephew's aunt WHOM authored SWIM's 2000 Year Old Desert Scribblings from a drunk rabbit in the Serengeti desert found in an insane asylum under water, on Easter eggs, crucified by the on fire pagan music listening christian maniac from India running around believing he was Jesus repenting this bush he called the Acacia tree; So I Heard from a bum who claims to be SWIM, But I Forgot... And Again, "I" Refers To Someone Who Is Not Me.