I'd like to share my first experience with dmt just out of the potential others can learn from it. Unfortunately, I learned of this substance at the ripe age of seventeen. Previously my experiences with psychedelics involved only mushrooms and salvia. I was also an avid pot smoker and of course being the high school "weekend warrior" type I battered my body with alcohol often. Being a relatively intelligent kid (but misguided) I did a lot of research and extracted from phalaris arundinacea as it grew copiously in my back yard as well as down the street from my home. My first attempt was a success and I'm happy to at least be able to say I purified the product as best I could being putting it into my body. I would like to mention right now to young readers that what I did was horrible irresponsible and dangerous. I obtained a fair amount of material which I compiled over a few different extractions using different methods in order to test results (mainly yields vs. volumes of materials needs to complete the tek). I remember waiting for the perfect day when I had privacy to sit out on my back deck with a friend and take my first tentative steps into a whole new world. The scale I had my hands on was fairly accurate so I was able to weight out a 70mg dose, figuring the inefficient "sandwich" method which I was using would destroy some of my product and bring it down to a 50mg level that actually entered my lungs which I had read to be what was required for a breakthrough dose. The flash terrified me, and the trip sent me catapulting through a dark region of space, spinning my presence down lines of gases that seemed be lit from the very nucleus of their atoms. I don't really need to go into detail about my trip as it's mainly the effects afterwards I want to talk about. Both I and my friend (surprisingly) enjoyed our journeys that day very much and agreed not to do it again till we had another opportunity of serenity. Over the course of a few months I partook in the spice perhaps twenty-thirty times. My friend stopped very early in experimentation after having an experience that really scared him. This eventually happened to me as well. I threw out the rest of my spice and for the next six months experienced horrible self isolation as I struggled to understand the information dmt had rammed into my skull. I felt as if I had knowledge that no one else around me did and that my ingestion of these drug had changed who I was into something so radically different than my peers that I could no long function normally amongst them. It took me a long time away from all psychedelics as well as marijuana to come to grips with all I had experienced. The friend that I first dosed with never touched dmt again and our friendship ended in shambles. For a long while I experienced minor psychological disturbances even after I felt I had found closure on this "new me" that had formed so suddenly. When I finally did go back to the spice years later I made sure that I was ready and mature enough to handle the experience. I hope this helps someone out there because I suffered terribly for my disrespect to spice and my ignorance. Peace to all and good luck in your lives !

After reading psychedelia boards for a year, I think there are definitely differences between an adolescent mind and a middle-age mind jumping into psychedelics. Any amount of introspection and self-awareness one has will benefit, and the more the better.

If I have learned anything it's that all beliefs of a new me get destroyed in the end as they are not sustainable as the real me who is constant ever present when awake, recognize what you are see it as reality as you are always seeing reality through it.

Remember that all psychological disturbances are only a passing thing keep your attention towards you(seeing,awareness the non-thing that precedes thought and feelings) then these disturbances will slowly stop coming as you stop feeding them with attention.(This I have been doing to much effect as I never understood how I manifested the nasty thoughts to my space never wondered that it's my attention that brings out thoughts within my mind and pretty much everything else I do is done by applying my attention towards doing it.)

Don't worry about functioning normally just what you want to do and let nothing stop you in your path to self realization as it's very important for everyone.

Friendship is rarely lost as our connection towards each other is always there so don't fret as I now say good friends always come back even through the thickest of shambles.

Don't linger or hold onto beliefs of anything that defines you as it can't paint the whole picture of you, ideas about yourself are never true they only hinder you in your expression find the constant you the one who isn't subject to change then stillness will come and peace general well being will come.

Hope I helped you in any way as this recognition has helped me greatly.

Have a good one