Thank you, Polytrip for creating this thread. It was what my soul needed to read today.
Thank you, Rooftop for your statement. It seems I have an infinite gas tank of rage at times, and it is more beneficial for me to look at this as fuel to facilitate positive changes in my environment, than to feel guilty for failing to eliminate the negative energy yet again.
Sometimes I just want to shake people and scream rational thoughts into their heads. However, I am finally training
my thick skull to understand that people are more likely to listen to someone who speaks calmly, intelligently, and takes no part in hateful or destructive activities. I want to change the world for good, but I will not be able to if people are tuning me out because my delivery rubs them the wrong way.
Lately, I'm working on meditating for short periods every time I can feel the anger/hate overwhelming me. I close my eyes, breathe in my nose, out my mouth, and focus on the empathy and overwhelming love I feel when I have just exited hyperspace. I can't even count how many times I've come out of a breakthrough like "AHA! I got it, no more anger/depression/anxiety/fear because I'm flooded with love and empathy!!!"... then some lady cuts me off the following work day, and I start swearing and giving her the finger... WTF happened to being enlightened??
I am no where near conquering my anger/hate. It is a daily struggle. However, this life is a journey and I shouldn't get bored considering how much I have to improve on. With threads like this and you Nexians by my side, I hope to continue improving as a human so I can work to be that change I hope to see.
Peace and happy journeys
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