Hi ill start with a background of SWIMS drug use. i am now 19. from the age of 11-12 SWIM starting using cannabis heavily also around that time extacy and amphetamines and had many strong profound experiences from a very young age short after i tried MDMA cocaine magic mushrooms (liberty caps,equadorians,coloumbians,etc) ketamine LSD (tabs,liquid,microdots) opium NN,DMT nitrous and subutex. as the years progressed crack cocaine 2C-i 2C-b and 2-ce and ayahuasca. my drug useage was mainly on weekends and i classed my self as a enthuasist exploring my self with chemicals. this was all to change as when i was 18 i split with my ex girlfriend of 4 years and was kicked out of our flat where i was living with her and my 4 year old daughter. my drug use spiraled out of control as i became a feindish abuser of stimulants. this was as RCs became popular in my area (mephedrone methylone MDPV and MDAI) i quickly became a diffrent person i lost 2 stone or there abouts and was consuming up to 5 grams of mephedrone along with other RCs cocaine and cannabis a day, i was sleeping sometimes only 2-3 days a week and was eating barely anything. losing my grip to reality and convinced my friends were talking about me and had stolen from me i went from bad to worse. also my current girlfriend and i went through quite a difficult misscarridge at the time wich as you could probably guess was a monumental time of my life. my use of RC's went on for a few months when i decided i needed to kick the habbit it was difficult for me as most of my friends still used RC's regullarly. i rarely use RC's any more and am a much better person for it. currently i mainly use ketamine regularly and occasionaly DMT and other hallucinogens.
i have had many strong trips with LSD a few examples would be washing a used bottle of liquid LSD out with water and drinking the remaining LSD in the bottle with the water and consuming a gram or so of ketamine experiencing profound hallucinations and what i thought was pretty much as much as LSD had to offer. while on my mephedrone binge i consumed a red microdot after taking a 2C-i and 2C-e and had a very strong 14-16 hour trip. basically i thought i had seen all it all with LSD as far as mental state and visions where concerned but this was not the case.
Right onto last nights events. It is quite difficult for me to share this as i had quite a daunting and scary glimpse into my own mind but im wrighting this to try and find comfort in what was a very hard trip mentaly phsyically and emotionally.
Thursday night i went out quite late and consumed 3-4 grams of ketamine over a 9 hour or so period. at around 12 AM i returned home with my girlfriend. for the next few hours we both chilled and finished the rest of our k. i cant really remember the time but think it was at around 4-5 PM i took 2 tabs of LSD (one of the tabs where blue with a picture of a brown monkey on it the other was a smiling condom with arms) i had had these tabs in my draw for quite some time in a sealed bag in a metal tin at room temprature. i wasnt sure if they would be very potent as they were quite old. I COULDNT HAVE BEEN MORE WRONG! what followed was a extremly intense trip like no other i have experienced before!
after consuming the tabs which had a immensly strong taste of LSD unlike any i had done before i went downstairs to listen to some music with my girlfriend. i pretty much forgot about the fact i had taken them thinking they were to old and probably wouldnt have much effect on me if any at all. times in the trip report will be vague as my perception of time was heavily impared!
4-5 PM- after taking the tabs i waited for them to take effect listing to music
5-6 PM- vision was blurry music sounded very intense lyrics where making more sence to me and had a beautiful flow (i realized at this point the tabs where going to take effect but i had no idea of the intesity i was soon to experience)
6-7 PM- vision became majourly impared walls where breathing my tummy had the usual butterflies and i felt very fuzzy inside nothing out of the ordinary all these feelings/hallucinations i had expreienced many times before with LSD and other hallicinogens.
maybe 7-8 PM- had gone upstairs and layed on my bed with my girlfriend everything from here on is a blur i started experiencing very strong visons they came on fast and built in intesity over the rest of the experience i layed staring at my ceiling as it changed colour and merged in and out of its self there were strong tracers present and my vision had a constant blur following every moving object. i was looking at my main celing light and the light bulb was filling with smoke and moving. i cant really remember that much for a wile i do remember closing my eyes and seeing some intense CEV's of snake skin like patterns with language and numbers in some of which i had seen similar on DMT and mushrooms. me and my girlfreind chatted and spoke to each other constantly she had no idea i was actually pretty scared and having a bit of a scary time.
8.30-10M- extreme OEV's i could see beams of light like rays of sunshine infront of my face and around the room in these beams where crystal clear liquid patterns vividley like they where really there. i kept saying to my girlfriend can you see them? can you see them i can feel it its real. can you feel it? of course she could not but i expected her to able to. i realize now this is ludicrouse but at the time it was not i really thought we both could. the room started to spin i felt the wind and the sounds of the wind where moving with me a buzzing was flowing through my body like i was connected to some force i was able to see hear and touch. sound were breaking down into single notes and flicking off of each other i could feel them and see them in my mind. as this progressed i could see small hairs every where strangely like pubic hair covering everything my hands were covered in tiny purple green and blue hairs like small throns raised off of my skin. i could feel tingling in my fingers and hands like pins and needles to me it was where these "hairs" were touching me where i was in contact with "this force" whatever it was. i was pretty scared having disturbing thought patters and hearing strange humming and ohm noises frequently all the while these walls of patterns hairs and various over hallucinations stayed present!
we decided to go downstairs where we sat and watched some tv i calmed down a bit wacthing youve been framed and finding it extreamly hillarious and laughing intently at every clip they showed. i was telling my girlfriend about the patterns i could see and she was really intrested and wondered if i could draw them to try and show her. she gave me a pen and paper and i TRIED to draw them as you can imagine this was nigh on impossible while so intoxicated by the LSD. but what happened next was something unlike any trip i have experienced on any drug including DMT! as i was trying to draw the patters i could place the paper directly underneath the patterns i was seeing in beams of light and was tracing them so i thought. the pen nib was merging with these patterns and the lines i had drew on the page where morphing spinning rising off the page like a 3D hologram image! it was unreal and quite shocking these images continued to do so for quite some time looking like i was drawing in a paint pen and my drawings where poping out of the page and coming to life. i could see these creatures and could here the ever present OHM noice in my ears. i had a image in my head of a eye ball twisting like the infinaty sign and eating itself infinate times. it was quite disturbing. a tin of quality streets sat next to me with the white brand name on top, this lit up giving off a bright like and was beaming in the air with the glass like patterns of language consistant through my trip. beams of light were flooding the room and i could hear screaming and shouting like my girlfriend was in pain, i knew she was sat watching tv in the front room but i could hear her in the kitchen screaming i was very concerned and constantly asked her if she was ok.
10.20PM -
soon after i went to the bathroom on my way upstairs i could see what i can only describe as plants blue purple and red string like threads coming off of a ball of joining threads. while going to the toilet my urine at first appeared blood red i thought i was pissing blood this soon changed to bright purple and then a blue colour it was very strange. from then on i dont remember much. i sat on the computer trying to read some lyrics i had wrote the day before and my girlfriend went to bed. i sat for some time on the computer struggling to understand what was going on i felt very unaware of myself who i was and what was happening. the hairs all were still all around me i could see them constantly and disturbingly all over the palms of my hands. it really did worry me and i felt like i was insain completely mad and didnt feel at the time i would ever return to normaity.
i had a can of beer then decided to go upstairs where my girlfreind was sleeping i had to wake her up as i didnt feel comfortable sitting alone. i told her i was having a bad trip and needed comphort. we sat and watched some stand up comedy for a while i found it funny and started to feel calm again but still tripping quite hard. after a while i felt ok to let my girlfriend rest and go to sleep as we had no sleep the night before. most of the visions had died down and i thought i was coming down. the hairs were still present and after a while i starting looking at my white wall near my light there was lots of hairs hanging from the ceiling as i focused on them they multiplyed time and time again until my hold vision was flooded with them one ontop of the other in a atom like formation they gained in size and got closer to my face, i was intreiged and focused on these patters until they suddenly joined together and the thorn like hairs i saw on my hands returned i realized now that the thorns were these bubbles in the air touching my hands and thats what the tingling i experienced was i thought they where touching me and brushing me. the pattern was 3 dimensional i could look inside it and the language appeared again and this carried on for sometime. soon after they turned into some sort of spider creature like the spindly ones you get near fields with a tiny ball of a body and long very thin legs, these had no body and were just 4 joining legs. as i stared at my hands i could see them crawling on my skin tingling as they went across me.
shortly after i dont remember anything im not sure but i must have fell asleep i awoke in the same possition needing the toilet. on waking up i realized i had what must have been a dream in the short time i was asleep of being insain and contacting spirits (earlier in the night i had been watching a program on spirits and the spirit world which could have played a large role in this. that was around 7.30AM when i woke up.
so thats it
i hope you can take something back from my trip report i really felt i needed to share it to maybe understand from other peoples point of view and experinces and to assure my self i can take something good from my trip. i feel ok now slightly shook up and a bit disturbed by the whole experience. i think for now this is it for me and LSD possibly for ever but i am glad to have had the experience. thanks for reading and please comment id like to hear of similar experiences and know what you have to say. also if any one was consumed 2 diffrent types of tabs in one sitting. Thanks for reading.
"And then came me the destructive teen with a handfull of bars and a mind full of dreams"