Hi

Almost two months ago, I decided that I want to try DMT, after I watched the movie "DMT - The Spirit Molecule".
Since that day, I was reading all kinds of sources about DMT, every day. Soon I realized, that one probably cannot prepare oneself for such a trip, but I was so curious and excited, that I wanted to be prepared as good as possible. I ordered and started to read several books on the topic, and was reading as many trip reports as I could handle. Some of them seemed glorious and marvellous, some of them fearful and terrifying.
3 weeks ago, I finally got hold of a good bunch of very good spice, and I was longing for the right time and circumstances to give it a try. It was hard for me, but I could resist in just trying it for myself alone at the next best occasion...

Today was the day where everything was perfect. No expected visitors, all relatives except my girlfriend out of reach, and a big bunch of time ahead, for whatever could possibly happen.

I had bought a GVG especially for the DMT. And I am glad, that I did!
My first try were 30mg pure spice, melted on an inset of steel wool (like the one recommended for the Machine )

The smoke was almost unnoticeable and very smooth. What I had read about the smell being like burnt plastic and coughing when inhaling being normal, I expected the worst with dread. Lucky, it wasn't, and I was able to inhale the whole bunch nicely in one toke. My girlfriend was sitting next to me, and I gave her my GVG after I got all, or most, out of it. Then I lay down and closed my eyes, clearly feeling some effects coming up a few seconds later.
At that point I must have had a blackout, because a few minutes later, when I realized that I am still lying on my mattress having smoked DMT, I was thinking that this wasn't a break trough at all. I thought that I had never been away, but maybe that was wrong, which I only got aware of after my second toke one hour later....
In fact I had a really nice wobbling of the surface of the ceiling and some nice color shifts of the light which was coming though the stripes of the shutter. It was sunny outside. The color was like glowing and it was very intense.
But that was it. I thought that there should be more. I asked my girlfriend how long it was since I had smoked. She said 4 to 5 minutes. Hmm... ok... maybe I should ingest some MAOI next time, I thought.

Nevertheless I was in very good mood, and I was ready to give it a second try. I measured 45mg this time and melted it to the steel wool in my GVG.
This time I let some calm music run (Liquid Minds), and then was doing some breath exercises again. It helped me to calm down, because my heart beat was quite high, even for the second time... While meditating I had some doubts about it, because I felt such a great calm and peace, without smoking anything. I thought, it would be a real pity to loose this inner peace by smoking the second toke now. And this time it would be 150% the amount of the first time... But I felt some confidence, and then I started the lighter, took another three deep breaths, and started to inhale. It was a real lot more this time... but I could do it and keep it down without coughing (it was slightly harsher this time). I passed the pipe over to my girlfriend and lied down. By that time, I felt, that this could possibly be a full hit, as the effects started immediately and got stronger very fast.

Now I got overwhelmed, I lost the conscious of where I was. At the same time, I heard a voice telling me: "my dear, did you forget, that you have been here an hour ago?" And then I remembered: I was there during my first trip already. My mind erased everything from it after my first trip. But now, I knew it. I was aware of the fact, that this part of the trip is hard to remember, because it is dealing with topics, that I normally do not have access to, and they could possibly confuse me. This is all I can remember from the rising on the second trip. After the peak, it must have been 6 or 7 minutes later (I asked my GF about the time 8 minutes after takeoff), I felt some quieting and I suddenly became aware of where I am, and what I was doing. I felt comfortable because I knew that I was on a DMT trip and that it would last some more time. Then a voice told me to calm down and close my eyes, which I did. It wanted to show me some insights about consciousness, which I immediately could see everywhere (I opened my eyes again). It showed me some symbols and then finally gave me an insight of the ordering of the dimensions of consciousness. I saw our common dimension of awareness to shift down, and above of it, I could peak a glance of another dimension, hosting other entities, which I could somehow feel and see that they were there. Retrospective they were like "asylum seeking souls". I felt like it would be important to understand the facts, that the voice wanted me to see, in order to help these souls to find entrance (into our dimension, or what? I have no idea).
I felt that I was unprepared for this task, and I wished the trip to be ending soon. Then I asked my GF about the elapsed time. I was surprised that I could talk to her with no effort, and she could obviously understand me clearly, as she gave me the current time. I wasn't able to calculate the time which had passed thou, and I asked her how long I was on the trip. She said it was 8 minutes. Then I felt another rush coming over me. My tongue was making strange noises and I had to surrender again.
I got another two glances to that dimension above the one we normally live in, and again, I had this feeling of importance to get the message. Nonetheless I couldn't clearly get it, and I wished again, that the trip might be over soon. I asked my GF again about the time after 12 and 18 minutes again. Between them, I lifted off again, remembering almost nothing. After a while, I suddenly was so grateful, that I started to weep. I was so happy to be here (on earth)...
After 20 minutes, I was sitting upright, talking with my GF about what happened and was enjoying the afterglow. The ceiling was still wobbling nicely and the colors were really wonderful, this lasted for another 10 minutes.

That's it for the first day. I could clearly feel during the trip, that I shouldn't force it too much. I need a break now. I am very happy, that it was all so peaceful and that I was never terrified at all.

45 minutes later, I made Pizza (food) with my GF and we ate together. I am still feeling happy now (3 hours later), and I am really satisfied with the day!

I wonder if I can get some input from others about keeping more memories of DMT trips. Will it be easier to remember after repeated experiences, or must it be accepted to be short time peek visions?

Thanks for letting me share my experiences with you. I am grateful!

Runes

The more you practice working with the spice, especially if you focus on bringing the memories back, the more you will be able to. It really is an exercise just like anything else.

remembering a trip is about as easy as remembering a dream, easy when u 1st wake up but harder the longer u wait. Writing it down after(what u remember) or having a recorder handy can help, but nothing is quite as effective as compounding experiences.

In terms of the spice tasting like burnt plastic and all, I seem to only get that smell from combustion smoking, but with the GVG it has a much more pure taste. In terms of remembering, try meditating before hand. While you're in a part of the trip that you'd really like to remember, try to divert all your attention to grabbing and labeling details as best you can. Even if your labels are crude and innaccurate, try labeling anyway because having some kind of verbal way of describing it makes it easier to recall. Also music helps with memory for me. I often avoid music because I feel I cannot go as deep, but on the other hand, I have gone pretty deep with music and when you see something indescribable and hear a detail within the music that can be remembered, I find that the brain can use that sound as a unique verbal (or nonverbal) label to file away the memory under.

Ok, I will try with labeling.


Or as hard. In fact I cannot remember most of my dreams either. They're gone almost the moment I wake up.

Just curious but how did you come across the movie and was that movie your first insight linking you to spice?

Yes that movie was my first link. I bought the DVD from a member of another forum.
I wonder why it took so many years until I got aware of the presence of DMT. Maybe I wasn't ready before now. It rather feels like spice found me, and not the other way round.

For the sake of completeness:


PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: peaceful, balanced, having great respect for the event
(physical condition) Set: been doing gardening a few hours before which gave me a good body feeling
Setting (location): at home, living room on a mattress
time of day: afternoon, sunny outside, shutters closed, enlightend by stripes of incoming sunlight
recent drug use: won't list them here, nothing during the last 48h
last meal: some cheese and bread 4 hours ago

PARTICIPANT
Gender: m
body weight: 65kg
known sensitivities: sensitive to mild psychedelics like mushrooms
history of use: first time

BIOASSAY
Substance(s): DMT Freebase (from an unknown extract, probably mimosa)
Dose(s): DMT 30mg + 45mg
Method of administration: vaporized within GVG


EFFECTS
Administration time: T=0:00
Duration: 20 minutes
First effects: strong lift off into fractals, hearing voices, but remembering almost nothing
Peak: T=0:02-0:05 almost no memories at all, T=0:06 someone wants to show me important insights, seeing symbols passing my vision, feeling the presence of entities. Everything passed by too quickly to be kept. Being showed several glances into other dimensions (with eyes open)
Come down: T=0:08-0:18 wobbling ceiling and surroundings, wonderful coloring of the light. Temporarily leaving to a world in between, coming back soon after it. This happened several times.
Baseline: T=0:20 talking to my girlfriend about the impossibility to describe these worlds. Feeling grateful to be here.

Intensity (overall): 3-4

Evaluation / notes: This was just the beginning. Need to learn to keep more things in memory.

OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: 4
Implesantness: 1
Visual Intensity: 4


AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: 0
Afterglow: 4, happyness, satisfaction


REPORT
see report on the intro post.

I kind of feel that way too. It's like it was brought to me and not discovered by me.