Well, there I was sitting alone at the kitchen table in quite the quandary ... my first ever batch of
Acacia confusa tea sitting on the left, and a "don't ever do this at home until reading this
https://www.dmt-nexus.me/forum/d...aspx?g=posts&t=20781 batch of 4aco-dmt, which I've researched deeply, sitting on the right. Sitting squarely in the middle was a vial of THH powder (the new, improved THH). What's one to do? Hmmmm.
Despite my learning all I could about
A. confusa and interest in taking a few well-potentiated sips, I'm still a creature of habit, I guess, and so after carefully reviewing this
https://www.dmt-nexus.me/forum/d...aspx?g=posts&t=20781 one more time, I leaned towards the right and began my first-ever experiment with a kind of semi-pharma-huasca.
It was a very good decision. (plus, I still have the formosahuasca to look forward to soon).
4aco-dmt, very similar to the DMT molecule, is perfectly active on its own, so any special it has in combo with THH should be related to the "potentiation" of the tryptamine by the harmala, as well as to whatever might develop symbiotically in a mixture of two, active-on-their-own substances. The concentrated harmala would also presumably introduce little or even no nausea to the trip, compared to what caapi brew would do (and that is precisely what happened).
Because the experiment went so well, I've actually got two such journeys to report on. The first was with 21mg of liquid THH taken sublingually 30 minutes prior to orally ingesting 35mg of 4aco-dmt. The second was with 60mg THH powder taken orally 5 minutes prior to 25mg 4aco-dmt. The sublingual THH journey was more energetic and spiritually awesome (as well as a higher level of tryptamine), while the powdered version was quite a bit dreamier and more relaxed feeling.
The two versions of this journey shared a couple of things that really stand out. One, the colors. It's one thing to say the colors were heightened, or objects were surrounded by colorful auras. That gets about the first .001% of what happened....every cubic millimeter of space was packed with the most intense hues floating in space, illuminated from within ... as if the redness of an apple, for example, bled into the space around it that was 1000 times larger than the apple itself, in 3D yet. At the peak, it was difficult to pay attention to the underlying objects because of the overwhelming competition from these vibrant color fields.
The second thing that stands out in the two journeys was - particularly during the 3 hour mellow comedown/afterglow period - the sense of not being any different than the "world"...which at 2am on cold, rainy nights consisted of my living room and bedroom. The effect was a slowing down or turning off of the sense of "I" so that there was a merger between the space I was in with myself. It's a state I aim for while meditating (and not all that successfully). But here it was just there for the taking. It was just beautiful walking around the house, or simply lying in bed, and not having the constant mental chatter going on. That switch had been shut off, and something like pure awareness is left. In retrospect, the period felt strangely like it lasted for hours on end, yet also as if it was over in a few minutes.
However, the sublingual THH journey, which again had more tryptamine in it, stood out for a couple of overpowering reasons that I will never be able to forget. One, just as the peak was hitting, my wife got home from work and came in the front door. I was not "so far gone" that I couldn't realize what was going on - this is to me a nice feature to 4aco-dmt, and I was happy to go and meet her at the door. But it wasn't exactly who I expected. I would have to call the person the entered the house a goddess, or a dakini: she was glowing with gold radiance I could actually see, and her skin was made of tiny shining blue, gold and green jewels. She was smaller than in real life, as if she'd dropped a few inches and 40 pounds. At first it was almost too much to look at her, until I got used to it maybe 20 minutes later, when I realized, "well, this is what my wife really is, I'm grateful to be able to see her this way". It reminded me of pictures you might see in Indian or Tibetan art. (I did spend some time during the next week studying the concept of the dakini ... time well spent). It was beautiful to be next to her for the reminder of the evening.
She has a way of dropping off to sleep really quick, and when she did I was content to just lie in bed and look at the ceiling, or semi-meditate. What happened next was unforgettable. There were a couple of entities physically present in the room with me, entities I could somehow recognize as from past incarnations, I remembered them, could see them and speak with them mentally, what they looked like and what they were wearing. They were encouraging me to go deeper, they insisted that I knew who or what I really was. And then the consciousness of one of them started expanding in a wave until it reached me and, with a kind of click, there was just one consciousness between us.
Half of me says, most COOL!. And the other half is infinitely grateful the the experience and the opportunity to share it here.
WHOA!