so i havent had pharma in awhile and iv been kinda runnin outta things to write about lately... had a dose it helped alot heres some of the words i played with hope you enjoy <3

that hole that we fill always to find we need more when its ourself we need find to refill the hole with love to respect the life not shove away those that love us embrace the change that will become us realize that we may all be one anyone may become the change they wish to see if they let be realize realize realize realize realize realize


drownin me in colours i see the truth to be the lives we lead oh truth majestic mystery faded by obscurity as time causes the rise from the mire as well as the funeral pyre as all things grow so to dust to dust when its all been said before the question thats begged is why say more but practice makes perfect and the sheer fun it is keeps the wheels turning rhyming for the sake of words with the right timing all lining up to show something of meaning in a life so fleeting a reason to give form to the formless a reason to discover to look inside for the truth that hides answers must be within the minds designed to find them in time we just have to keep asking why its when we dont care anymore we must worry till then there is no hurry


at drift again wandering backwards through the mind pondering wondering what of all the seasons ebb and flow guess it must be that way tolerance gives reason for light of day as darkness is break from the light to give it the brilliance of god given light over and over cycles like the change of the seasons one to the next the waves upon the rocks our peaks riding the crest the rocks lay in wait till its our time we may partake fancy another go round the wheel bound to keep rolling forever we reel oh if only enlightenment was universally attained then from wrong doing we all may refrain if we all understood thered be no cause for sorrow just loving through tomorrow no matter what happens today or in the past tomorrow and our dreams is all that needs to last its whatever we make it so choose now and make it your own dont feel like its not your truth to be shown claim it to be what ever will be


Ne'er do tell i wish you well my brain my breath my walls they recede they swell over and over within without me all to see before me as it is as it was as should be as will be perhaps if not never maybe then ill know better knowing this i do decide to let it go and reach inside as before so too to come its already begun and isnt it nice just another day with the spice of life after all in a life so fleeting why not appreciate its leaving appreciate the swirl as it goes down the drain just like the twirl within without my brain.. minds insane? nah not really see just freed to think clearly words and thoughts at most times at my command maybe not always but getting better at withstanding the chaos and finding sense of the storm maybe for that i was born its sure been a crazy ride to get here thats why i hold life dear to of made it this far is something to admire thats why i continue to aspire i have will i have desire i have made mistakes but iv learned its make or break reality we live im lucky i have anything left to give thankful always just no other way to say it we are so gifted it takes sheer faith to admit it

so i sat down to pray and i had nothing to say so thankful for today finding reason always fleeting no sense mourning its leaving farewell it peacefully with calm openness face the world to explore because we deserve as much finding such whatever will be shall be no stopping it see thats just how life is giving what you got to give cant give anymore then that and you cant keep what you got not for very long you wont always be strong time wears us down and we cant take a thing where we are heading so no use sweating the leaving of anything but oh appreciation is paramount as despite the constant forces which try to surmount your faith there is truth lies cant replace and there will always be questions thats where we allow or omit suggestions its all up to us after all whos to say they know better just like you and i another scattered seed to decide

stars on fire world of desire outside neighbors scream lone wolf howl atrocity the city that still sleeps dreaming of greed and jewels and needs lustful envy the wanting of more with no rhyme or reason lack of appreciation loving all thats pleasing give away the stone before the weight ties you down dont want to tip toe around the landmines i creep through sneak through try to lay low you never do know which way they will go which way they will come out of the sun your lifes main purpose to prove to thyself that you are not worthless its all with great meaning isnt it ISNT IT well what of it enough of it its just life and life only so enough asking just love it all what else can you do surrender the self embrace the one wealth