Yeah this quote doesn't sound good, you seem to be saying it like a mantra or something... this is not a drug that forgives that kind of behaviour- unless you want to get sectioned, a lot of people consider themselves "wreckless" with their drug use, but reckless use with PCP analogues is like playing Russian roulette with less bullets.. that's not even a good analogy because there are worse things than dying. "I would have treated any new substance in the same manner" - that's not smart at all - I don't understand how you can have such an attitude whilst reading self help books. I'm surprised you thrown yourself into something so dangerous... that whole second paragraph sounds like a manic episode by the way... people need to realise that even if you're feeling really good, things can be going very badly in your brain and at those levels you can "snap" and wake up in an asylum.... I'm surprised as well that you're speaking of the quality of alcohol in the mix, did you ever do the drug without alcohol? because MXE is widely reported to have negative interactions with it, it tends to make people feel sick, also increases the chances of blackouts... I've read several TR's that don't enjoy it and most of the negative MXE reports involve getting drunk.

I wouldn't recommend using alcohol and MXE together... and for all the thread readers, again, daily usage/or finishing your bag all in one go is just foolish, we know what happens to people when they abuse these drugs.