A report from a trip which occurred on the 21st of March 2011
This experience, I am still coming to terms with completely. Nothing can satisfy the regret I feel with the fact that I experienced this event and have no proof to back it up.
What the title is about essentially is the questioning of whether or not I’ve discovered the philosophers stone. I’ve experienced many synchronicities around this topic now.
During the first high dose, ecstatic mushroom trip I’ve experienced (September 2010) – I realised I had found the philosophers stone (so to speak) when found how by using my hands with the shroomy saliva I could move the visual-overlaying produced by the shrooms.
HBWR experiences have always revolved around astrology for me – and a trip this February spurred thoughts on a person’s ‘birth stone’ is their birth right and simultaneously the philosophers stone. I fantasized that the stone came out from the mouth and it was ‘the wisdom tooth’ (my wisdom tooth was coming in at the time). I dreamed that ergot alkaloids were once used in initiation ceremonies when the initiatives last wisdom tooth was coming in and this is what our society has lost. Alcohol is the opposite of the ergot alkaloids (LSD is effective in treating alcoholism, afterglow vs hangover, clarity vs nonclarity, sooths pain & has positive blood flow effects vs worsens pain & delirium tremors). Also, alcohol makes sleep worthless – hbwr seems to make sleep unwanted and unnecessary for the day after.
I was also obsessed with bananas for some reason and thought that vitamin b12 and serotonin like compounds may be involved in some process of making a banana psycho-active (psychedelic-tryptamine).
I also had various thoughts on how HBWR is indeed soma and the ‘world-tree’ through which youth and fertility is granted to the eaters of its fruit. It’s as if god made the 60’s and quickly rubbed it out in order for better planning... the mass use of these seeds over LSD would lead to generally healthier individuals. The plant has been used in Ayurvedic medicine for various ailments.
Somehow it became habit to eat a banana in my meal after a hbwr session. There was always... always 1 absolutely perfect, ripened banana in my kitchen.
Basically what happened on the 21st of March: A purple see-through stone appeared in my mattress (intuition or false memory tells me it came out my anus). I smoked the stone and got an ecstatic tryptamine type effects from it (either this or it was just the hbwr high amplified – which for me itself has a tryptamine phase). I also chewed a banana, and turned it to liquid in my mouth by straining it repeatedly through my teeth – this had an interesting effect – solid particles started to form (unable to get through my teeth). I spat this out, quite solid crystal. It touched the table and I lost concentration for however long – I looked back and it had ‘melted’ into a multicoloured plastic layer which formed bright red on top.
Awfully confused by these events and I’m gutted that I didn’t keep either the plastic or the rock... the temptation to smoke them both was too strong.
The past 2 days before I had been eating only bread, shredded wheat and 1 piece of fruit (if any) and had a Syrian rue trip one of the nights and a caapi/chaliponga another of them.
As for the trip itself – it was mostly my usual scenario – although this time I think I’ve further perfected my method.
15 seeds finely powdered ( December harvest – Superior Indian strain). 1000mg vitamin C (ascorbic acid) an hour before eating the seeds (wrapped in skins) read on I am Shaman that the vitamin C really helps with the tired bodily effects which are possible. I also drank peppermint tea during the come-up to aid the digestion of the seeds and thus help nausea. Also smoked cannabis throughout for the same reasons and to potentiate the experience.
Here’s a brief list of effects from my experience with 15 HBWR.
1st hour – Discomfort, lots of moving around, heart beat adjusting to suit blood vessels seemingly expanding and contracting.
2 hour – discomfort fully diminished or diminishing, begin to feel cat like, sensory feeling much like mdma but more natural. In psychedelic thought about life in general – considering relationships.
The cat is the archetype which seizes me during hbwr. The saliva is changed to some degree under the influence of HBWR – I think the fluid serves as an anti-inflammatory – and excessive saliva is formed (cannabis helps) or you can do what I do and just drool, wiping it over my whole body (the cat thing is very true). I find myself doing tantric yoga and ecstatically breathing. The saliva may also play a role in this banana phenomenon if it happened. If the purple stone indeed did come out my arse then I reckon the seeds... actually I don’t know... must repeat the experiment.
Time dilation is nuts under these seeds. But I can say there is definitely a tryptamine like stage – the same ‘HD-ness’ of a mushroom or ayahausca trip is experienced but with different overlaying patterns and a different manner of headfuck & ecstasy. I theorize that all these plants raise DMT production levels and this is why perceived ‘hdness’ is raised the next day (someone here referred to it as having their eyeballs cleaned: P).
Another interesting effect is the audio hallucinations. I’ve had experiences in the past where the wind would rage to my revelations, worries or ecstatic movements or where I’d hear my sisters crying over my mother’s (cognitively hallucinated) death. These audio hallucinations are strange... very clear – it makes one think he is a digital masterpiece and ergot alkaloids allow for playback of symbolic audio recordings. Birds tweeting, dogs barking (outraged at my eccentric cat-like egotism of the trip), my sisters arguing, doors slamming, taps running. Each one I could control with movements of my hands and each one inspired emotional reactions which made me want to sit still. They calmed my cat-side and thus my ego – making me want to relate more to the animals of my Babylonian-astrological sign – the bird.
People liken b.caapi to the power, dmt to the light. I believe hbwr are the strength. They’ve improved my digestive health, memory, muscles, blood flow and indeed, my psychic capacities.
I find I cannot do these seeds too often as I tend to have a ‘ranting and raving, eccentric, egotistical, pleasure seeking egonaut’ phase whenever I do.
So, have I discovered/rediscovered something profound? Was it a delirium-state which made me think I’d done this, rather like datura?
I’ll keep this updated... see if I can verify it all, get it on video and send some of this compound to a science man.
Think what you will of it
Your depth is your integrity