Unintentional Breakthrough was a pleasant surprise tonight.
I took a GVG hit and realized the changa bowl was exausted. Lay back a few mins, then sat up and re-loaded. Repeat procedures. I got a good, thick, white hit. I was immediately confused in some way. Something wasn't what I had planned or expected. I was even coughing a big. Yet so mentally comfortable during all of this. Clearly absolutely nothing to do but let go and surrender, not try to figure out my immediate confusion. Somehow got the pipe and torch down safely and lay peacefully back with eyes closed.
For some reason I immediately feel my teeth grit together. I am breathing and the visions are building. I am in a city filled with slightly blurry, giant pink entities that I am at a loss to describe. Not at all anthropomorphic. Maybe more like lumpy pink donuts of various sizes and diameters stacked together. Difficult to describe. They were HUGE. They were also the buildings in this place and there were infrequent occasions of other, smaller more anthropomorphic entities.
The music changed and these gorgeous, rainbow patterned with heavy emphasis on red, ultra-polished floating, synaesthetic marquis lines started weaving in three dimensions. Also, the smaller entities had these things and were using them as ropes against the pink buildings. I could see English and arabic letters on these marquies lines.
These marquis lines and ropes began to widen and expand and fill the space. The pink entity/buildings were crowded out and the space was now made of the texture of those previous lines, everywhere was this super-shiny/polished rainbow with heavy red emphasis,
stuff.
Really beautiful and small entities sitting and dancing on various stationary pieces of 3-D geometry such as cubes spheres, polyhedrons, etc.
All of a sudden something happens. I'm starting to get walled in. The walls are super shiny and kind of a silver color with brown tones. As the walls build around me I am cut off from the rainbow realm. I take a deep, breath. I feel so calm. I feel so surrendered. I feel like I might be dying but I know it is okay. A tear comes to my eye - I will be reunited with those I love. In one way or another. So easy to let go this time.
Soon, I'm walled in, except for weird little geometric slices that let me peak out at the rainbow realm. I start to meld with the exquisite beauty of the shiny silver walls of this place. It is breathtakingly beautiful in its' own right.
After awhile this fades back and instead of being in a room, I am suddenly outside of it seeing it move as a cube in 3-d space and the silver walls aren't so shiny/polished anymore. Crazy, pastel shapes are flittering hither and yon. Soon even this level of vision fades back and my eyes open.
I take a deep breath. I am smiling and there are tears in my eyes. Typical. Wow, unintentional breakthrough. I love DMT and I love my GVG.
Last Sunday for the first time in my life I did an LSD (200 mikes) and harmala (200 mgs) combo. Ever since I have felt very warm and comfortable. Can't help but wonder if this played into tonight's experience.
Peace and Love
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