random root
Posts: 97 Joined: 02-Jan-2011 Last visit: 01-Feb-2014 Location: with~in
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so i AM under the spice influence as i type and having just had my baby 2 weeks ago today... the truth comes crashing in.... TAKE A FUCKING BREAK!!! i need to focus on whats important. my family. not shrooms or acid or dmt or..... i need to clean my fucking house. no wonder im depressed. so stupid to ignore what is the only thing that matters in the end fuck all of u. in the most loving way of couse... i might be back i might not.... thanks to all who have helped me. most wont know it.... the traveler for keepin it real when i would not. im sorry. i was wrong. and thank you. i really needed the time to think. peace, love and most of all gratitude.. if u made it this far you are a champ, and although we may never meet you are also my friend.
S.R.
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Posts: 4733 Joined: 30-May-2008 Last visit: 13-Jan-2019 Location: inside moon caverns
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Sometimes the most simple realizations are the most profound ones.  I've had these with mushrooms (no wonder you're sick if you eat only tiny amounts of vegetables!). Take care man and spend as much time with your baby as possible 
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Posts: 1892 Joined: 05-Oct-2010 Last visit: 02-Oct-2024
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Glad to see people knocking sense into themselves for once instead of others trying (and failing) to beat it into them. Do what you have to, enjoy the time spent DOING. Peace <3 Art Van D'lay wrote:Smoalk. It. And. See.
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Posts: 681 Joined: 11-Sep-2010 Last visit: 24-Dec-2011
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One must first be young and stupid to become old and wise.
Much love <3
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it's just a dream
Posts: 96 Joined: 12-Jun-2010 Last visit: 11-Oct-2018
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Take care of your family first, self realization is better when your life is in order! There's lots of time for introspection, life is a journey. 
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Posts: 283 Joined: 30-Jan-2011 Last visit: 22-Jun-2012 Location: Above The Hidden Surface
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13bells wrote:Take care of your family first, self realization is better when your life is in order! I agree, you can't be happy with yourself without being happy with youre environment. Self realization can begin this way Much love and Sincerity, Perceptual Reality We are perceptions, we can all change. Everything Perceptual Reality posts is hypothetical or fictional.
Perceptual Reality is an outer-space inhabitant with the capability to send messages through channeled thoughts and consciousness, therefore, earthly laws and regulations do not apply. "It" Is a student studying, learning, and passing these teaching onto other students.
Unconditional love to the great beyond!
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Posts: 2854 Joined: 16-Mar-2010 Last visit: 01-Dec-2023 Location: montreal
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Get your ducks in line before ya fucks the ducks.  WORDZAWIZDUMB JBArk JBArk is a Mandelthought; a non-fiction character in a drama of his own design he calls "LIFE" who partakes in consciousness expanding activities and substances; he should in no way be confused with SWIM, who is an eminently data-mineable and prolific character who has somehow convinced himself the target he wears on his forehead is actually a shield.
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Got Naloxone?
Posts: 3240 Joined: 03-Aug-2009 Last visit: 24-Feb-2025 Location: United Police States of America
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Nice revelation! Now comes the truly hard part - 18 to 50 years of consistency, unconditional love and follow-through in your role of father and mentor to your baby. Spending the rest of your usable and workable youth devoted to the growth and well-being of another soul. Wow, adulthood. What a trip. Fuck us all indeed. But, you are now facing the hard part. You can seek help, understanding and a diverse sounding board in this community while at the same time not taking entheogens AND ensuring that you spend all the quality time you can with your family. I wish you peace, love and growth on your path. "But even if nothing lasts and everything is lost, there is still the intrinsic value of the moment. The present moment, ultimately, is more than enough, a gift of grace and unfathomable value, which our friend and lover death paints in stark relief."-Rick Doblin, Ph.D. MAPS President, MAPS Bulletin Vol. XX, No. 1, pg. 2Hyperspace LOVES YOU
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Posts: 190 Joined: 24-Jan-2011 Last visit: 21-Mar-2013 Location: My body for now
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I definitely get where you are coming from. It is easy to get lost in the Air, at least for me, and lose sight of the Earth, the Fire, and the Water; well Water always seems to be a little closer than the rest, when I really get going. Take a break, get your house in order, hell rearrange the furniture. Get yourself that fresh and clean feeling, and then ask yourself why, and what you are looking for? The purpose and vision will come, if it is not already there, and in all likely hood it will shift and/or take on a wider angle. Peace upon you and yours. Maybe we will see you around. Fior The truth is not for all men, but only for those who seek it.
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random root
Posts: 97 Joined: 02-Jan-2011 Last visit: 01-Feb-2014 Location: with~in
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thank you all so much for your kind words and stiff reminders. i do know the overwhelminbg responsibility i now face as a father. my wife reminded me that a break is fine and to take from the realazation what i must but dont tell people to fuck off.... thats just rude so i must humbly apoligize. also my break achieved much and i was very surprized when i found myself peacef8ully holding the spice. i now recognize that i was in a sorty of spice mania. smoking like a half gram at a time just hit after hit... not good. i also finaly found an elf on a tricycle..???? it showed me the most incredible things and "told" me to keep it to once a week and one trip at a time... its harder to explain than i thought but there it is.... thank you nexus. peace. if u made it this far you are a champ, and although we may never meet you are also my friend.
S.R.
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Posts: 77 Joined: 31-Jul-2010 Last visit: 06-Jul-2015
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Congrats on your baby, he will become the light of your life. Don't be worried if you find at first that you don't always feel how you "should" feel, or something like that. Many fathers for the first year or so feel lingering guilt because they think they don't love their babies as entirely and all-encompassing as they should, especially compared to their wives. The truth is though, that as a father spends time caring for the child and mother, his love grows and grows, and eventually, the smell of baby poop isn't so bad. I'm happy for you and your wife. The above is for entertainment purposes only.
"A caged community of chimpanzees reacts very sensitively if a member of the tribe has received LSD. Even though no changes appear in this single animal, the whole cage gets in an uproar because the LSD chimpanzee no longer observes the laws of its finely coordinated hierarchic tribal order."
From LSD: My Problem Child
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