Hey Folks,I am now just back to a point where I can recognize which keys to type and how to form word structures; navigate within the English language, again (I truly hope). I just smoked a robust bowl of leaf and 20X extract around 2:30PM this afternoon and it's not 4:15PM. Yes, my ears are still ringing and I am still undulating in the pulsating waves of the potent Salvia Divinorum experience.
I must say I am quite peaceful and effervescent, after having my subjectivity dissolved in the bubbling light dots of my preceptory field (of inner vision). I was totally engulfed in the light today. I believe I know that in a certain way, on some level,
I always am... but I am very conscious of this 'reality' within this last hour. Salvia Space has washed my head clean of much of my accustomed propensity for labeling, calculating and qualifying my perceptions as factual and cohesive.
While in the past, I have stated that Salvinorin A does not have the capacity to activate the higher centers of the brain, like the
singular eye or the pinnacle of our organism, the
Crown (our body-soul's own Grid receptor)... but what do you know, during the last two Salvia Space voyages, the mind splintering power of Lady Salvia has proven to me, within the laboratory of my own bio-system, that this is completely untrue! I have seen the light in the eye of the Salvinorin Spirit. I had a total
whiteout breakthrough experience today and I was shattered into an infinity of throbbing and dancing light particles.
I was completely swept-away into the
Salvinorin Seas, into a sizzling expansion of exponentially unrecognizable, degrees of once familiar windows of perception/
my self awareness, looping into an echoing endlessness of intersecting lines of sheer waves of spiritual energy. Cosmic light dots, flashing and pulsing in the spiralling tornado of my endlessly-folding, layers of perceptual vision (the plasticine fabric of potentiality). Obviously, this experience is beyond the scope of words but I feel sincerely compelled to try and detail as much of this revelation, as I can still vividly recall.
Even now, I am experiencing a shimmering rhythm of light energy, pulsating within my self and echoed in the beating of my heart. I will be going back to
Dixipuss' thread about Salvia Experiences to finish up the empty descriptions within my previously composed list, the 10 most distinguishable effects I have felt, seen and lived through... in the looping expansion and contraction of
Salvia Space.
I just wanted to post a quick statement about
REALITY. Both, as what we agree about collectively and as that which we interpret personally, through our own direct sensibilities. Essentially, I do agree with
burningmouth about our fabrication of what we choose to accept as 'reality' and the paradoxical nature of this seeming contradiction within our dual perceptions. By 'dual perceptions', I simply imply that our collective conditioning, by which we accept
normal reality as a definitive condition of finiteness, is but merely one of many masks by which the Universal Force of the Divine Spirit acts out it's existence.
Yes, the material plane is a figment of our collective minds. Quantum physics shows this principle to be self evident and the presumed finite nature of matter, as most insubstantial. Within matter is an empty expanse of subatomic space and within said space are IMHO/hypothetically, an interior fabric of interwoven waves of singular energized light pulses and within these vibrating points of light/energy... another empty expanse of space. And within the stillness of this void?
Mystery. At moments like this one, now, I believe the
Divine dances in and out of existence, quite playfully!
We all have our particular preferences and interpretive spins on the nature of this reality but it is something we can all tap into as a point of interaction with the rest of the universe of form. Pulsing deep within the intricate cross-sections of sonic vibration, which substantiates this material plane... exists an unbound field of unfathomable complexity and radiating brilliance. As it is both, the interior and exterior force which sparks the ignition of manifested being, it is a reality within this physical reality (which lies within yet another reality, within yet another reality, add infinitum... ).
IMHO,
gibran2 is most correct on this point. There is no ultimate reality, nor is one more real or illusory than the other. Physical, mental, spiritual, causative, insubstantial, void... are all equally real and simultaneously, illusory. A magnificent synthesis of contradictions!!! We as individual reference points, give it reality or negate it as an utter mirage, within our mind's mental processing. How do we know, beyond the shadow of a doubt and for an absolute certainty, that our perception of reality is not some mirrored image of an alternate reality, in which mind operates in ways quite alien to our sense of reason and order? Makes me wonder...
The seeming truth is this... apparently,
it is I, myself, who is unreal. How can unreal self dictate which reality is, or is not, the most
REAL of alternate realities? I would have to blindly maintain a degree of absolute certainty and so, hold onto my self fabricated, symbolically-organized thought structures, by which I might maintain any constant commitment to all the cognitive lines and boundaries, within individuated human awareness. For based on my own illusory interpretations of reality, which my senses and rationale translate as substantial, I err in judgement if I emphatically declare any ultimate truths or ultimate reality.
The 'truth' I see, is one tailored for my personal subjectivity, by myself; seen as the ultimate of all truths, the plane of Indivisibility, the Divine Being. Still, my reference is based on illusory modes of perception and I know nothing outside of my relative cognition of human ideas. God exists freely, beyond the minuscule nature of human thought.
When I silence my thinking self and look deeply into the fabric of what I perceive as real, I see through it's appearance and fully intuit it's essence. That which is unbroken and unbound; completely limitless, yet, immanent in all of the cycle of creation and dissolution. :idea:
From a universal standpoint, it hardly even matters if I notice
God's living presence or not, for I an the embodiment of non-reality. Still, I have merged with this blinding force and abandoned the lines of ego boundary and self definition, which have formed my picture of sentient existence. By full immersion and soul saturation within this bubbling pulse of light consciousness, I am dissolved by the light and shaken loose of my individuated fixations.
I go so very deep... that I am incrementally erased from myself. I have no self? I am nothing and still exist within everything. I am all selves and yet, no self at all. I do not know myself. Who am I? I know nothing. Or have I unknown something else, which is now forgotten? I am the eye of the unified vision of the
Godhead, while simultaneously, I am the sight within the eyes of the many myriads souls. I am zero. I am becoming that which I have always been. I am... unborn intention, infinite potentiality, forever turning within the void of an unknowable emptiness. Looping effortlessly into the multidimensional expanse of unindividuated Spirit, forevermore.
Hence, I come to realize that this empty force which I am, within the core of my being, is the opposite of my self-nature. It is a great mystery and within the folds of it's embrace, is the undoing of finite mind. Salvinorin A causes my thought process to cease it's habitual patterning and surrender to the rushing force of my own biochemistry. As this occurs, I am rocketed into these waves of pure manifesting energy surges. Crackling with rocketing electricity and fluidly, undulating to the drumming rhythm of the
Universal Being. This great expansion of energy has distinguishable characteristics and attributes, which I perceive as beyond the standard definitions of my trained vocabulary and it's reference points and basis of logical, deductive reasoning.
When completely immersed in the larger frequency of the Indivisible Light Spirit, my recognition of any discernible mode is severely challenged. I have long trained myself to focus my intention on a single point of awareness, for some time now. This has been a daily and nightly practice and an objective of Rising Spirit's, for over 34 years now. Ever since that first great breakthrough with LSD. This concentrated focus is the measuring rod by which I have come to envision the nature of all the variations of
reality which I am privy to (which is merely a tiny drop in the Cosmic bucket).
When I am this high, I must admit, I cannot find any reality within the grasp of my rationale. All I know about reality is that it is supposed to be the container, within which we hold the universe of possibilities we seek know. To learn to recognize, integrate and harmonize with such a consensus of mentality and sensory data. It does not really exist. We birth reality with every beat of our heart and every breath we take but it might only actually be real when we give it existence with our subjectively and so, believe the appearance of our experience. Is our belief enough to justify our assumptions? How can we be so certain of any presumed
reality? Can we truly believe reality is a plasticine potentiality, which can be shaped by our wills and limited vantage points? Delusion walk s hand-n'-hand with discovery.
Therefore, it's existence is subject to a witness, with the capacity to affix solidity to it's appearance. Sacred Medicines erase the lines by which we delineate our vision of reality from illusion. I cannot truly say if I ever knew anything.
My knowledge is the dictionary of my own personal illusion. What I fell most now is a pure fascination with my illusion. I am most intrigued by my solitary existence. I suspect it is yet another mirage in the realm of possibility? All that is relative and temporal, falls before the spinning wheel of time and circumstance. We are forever more approaching the edges of the eternal.
Since I have an innate sense that I do not really exist, in terms of any conceivable constant, the contradiction of having this sensation is that I do exist. I exist without thought of specified identification to form. I exist without a concept of non existence. i believe I exist on multiple planes of consciousness, for I witness them as a parade of phantoms and illusory projections and yet... I am nothing.
Therein lies the Grand Riddle of existance.Peace, love & light There is no self to which I cling, for I am one with everything.