Just in case the next trip is of more sustenance…. For the record it did want to shake my essence apart, however, I could care less if it did, which made it easy to go further. But I have no recollection of where further was….

Next guess timation 50+mg jungle? Who knows?
Exp= final depression due to my own inability to cope with DMT. To be certain it was not grad or lifechanging. It was just massive. And it depressed me. Can anyone relate???
I am trying to recollect right now. Not hard but just saddening…

-G7

I'm not really sure exactly what your expressing. I will however say that it is not always simple. I have experienced very complex emotions in my collective experience with this stuff. Many times its difficult to let go of the bonds that hold us to our comfortable misery. I remember a specific moment where i was confronted with quite spectacular and beautiful visuals . I would have described it as a wonderful trip going on yet, I was overwrought with a strange anxiety that would not relent. I put the question openly to the hyperspace "thing" as it were." What is the problem here? " I asked

after a few minutes an answer arrived ..................... " your the problem..... " I was shocked at the answer.

DMT operates in very strange and mysterious ways .
It seems to take many journeys to assemble a functional relationship with it in my opinion. There are ups and downs in the process. The ups and downs seem mostly regulated by our state of mind. Cultivating an inner focus and strength both mental and physical is important.

most important is sincere intention.

It is, I agree, but that in itself can be difficult to define and something I struggle with.

I don't know if I should be asking myself questions, like what is my intent before I launch. Sometimes after I launch I am asked that question by ( me?) "Why are you doing this??" and sometimes it appears as a roadblock to going any further. How to cope with this? I dont know, but I have been spending some time well before my journeys asking myself that question and trying to firm up an answer for myself so that I (try to) feel that I'm past that bit before I go. I think that helps some, but not always.

I think there are just so many variables and it is such a powerful experience that all one can really do is try to attain a good set and setting, a good mood, and try to clear the mind. Maybe try to feel the love in life, smile, then hit and go with the rest and hope for the best.