That is a really beautiful story Apoc. I read this last night and I didn't know how to respond. But then I thought about it again at work today. A snapshot, with a flash of light, as frozen memory of your peak experience of life. That is effing beautiful man. So unique and very well described. My work with the spice has been very meditative if not annihilating. It's still a surprise to me that I come back from that place sometimes.
But the most similar experience I can remember was when I had this complete acid epiphany; although I felt like the acid only here acted as a lever allowing the experience. My girl and I were tripping together at this festie but we both couldn't seem to find our niche that night. So we wandered back to our tent to talk. We chat in and out of zoning out on things and thinking. During this time, I had already been having these internal dialogues about commitment, fidelity, marriage etc. I mean I had been seeing this girl for 3 years I wanted to know internally how I felt about things. But bringing up those subjects brought together a hold melange of acid tunnel thoughts: "why marry/commit anyway we're just sophisticated animals after all?" "it's natural for males to roam" These thoughts continue on, magnifying in and out and all around the subject.
Finally, I reconcile my mind and clear it. In first moments of internal silence, I beckon an internal dialogue to "the greater powers" or what have you; why marry, what's the importance, is it really that significant? Suddenly as if all the puzzle pieces magically come together, it all clicked perfectly in my head. BAM! My vision completely flashes white my body shakes and I'm in tears. My girlfriend shot a glance a me, "what was that? I saw a light!" I respond through awe strucken tears, "That was easily as strong as my first breakthrough (DMT)"
What I believe had happened was the acid, perhaps combined with some melatonin overload (it was near 4 or 5am) and ultimately my complete Will to answer this cosmic puzzle for myself; I was giving a flash of divine enlightenment. The peak experience. The whole of the answer was gifted to me in milliseconds during the flash. To marry or commit deeply to someone means you can stop searching because you are Home; at least that was the significance I felt it gave to me. It was bliss, shock and awe as I realized all at once, I was Home.
~Peace and Love
Nothing lasts...nothing lasts...everything is changing into something else...nothing is wrong...nothing is wrong...everything is on the right track
In an interstellar burst
I'm back to save the Universe