Tonight has been the most important time I've had with the deems.

I have just experienced the most beautiful, amazing, euphoric part of my life to date. Ever since I woke up this morning I had an urge to breakthrough. The only thing was that I was to nervous, to scared, to even give it a try. Through out the day I would pack small bowls and smoke them slowly being very very careful on how much I put in. Personally I never thought that a dmt trip could be so euphoric. Near the end of the day I was tired and emotionally down, my best friend wasn't answering his phone and I basically stayed home all day. I was tired of being scared and tired of the small doses. The fear of breaking through was so intense that I shook every time I hit the bowls. I knew that I had to over come this. When I finally made it to beds I watched a south park episode, putting the smoking off until later. When I went for it I had all the lights off and I only packed a little more than I usually do. This did not provide anything spectacular and I was only slightly buzzed. Something really strange that I never experienced before was the feeling of not knowing if I was tripping or not this was such a strong feeling that I decided that I wasn't going to be such a pussy any more and go for it.

I packed the bowl with more than I've ever packed before. I was nervous and had to really concentrate on relaxing. I brought the dmt to a boil, the smoke started rolling and twisting inside my little dmt light bulb. As it grew thicker I inhaled fast and it cleared. The smoke didnt even fill the bulb any more it went strait into the tube. I cannot recall how many hits I took but I know that it was hitting me harder than it ever has before after the first hit. To my supprise I did not have the "OH SHIT" feeling. Even when it was first coming on it was welcoming me I could feel it. The feeling was so warm. The hallucinations that I saw engulfed the entire room. I don't really remember what happend. But I do remember the feeling of total euphoria. One of the coolest things about the trip was all the different entities that I came in contact with. I saw people, aliens, animals, and uknown creatures. These creatures and beings were so welcoming and happy I was smiling the whole way through. I really wish that the trip wasn't so fast paced and full of confusion. I just want to be able to have an experience centered around one entity or one scene or one anything. I want to be able to have some kind of enlightenment from a trip but I am content with what I received. The most funny thing about this trip is when I was smoking my lighter died. I don't believe that this was an accident I think the spirit of dmt planned this. The trip was not too intense and wasn't too weak It was perfect.

I just want to say thank you to everybody at dmt nexus. I love this forum. I love every last bit of it. Thank you so very much

Darkbb.

PS. how many people here really enjoy the picture section of this website?

good to hear you had a awsome trip, usually there is no reason to fear anything.

I'd recommend getting a maoi inhibitor, unless you can get lsd to make your next breakthrough last longer & less confusion
good luck

nice. I remember I had the same feeling that you mentioned about not knowing whether you were tripping or not. I remember I tried to smoke it in the day for the first time and it was sooo weird.. the hallucinations don't engulf you like at night. Instead of the dmt reality been layered over actual reality, its the dmt and actual reality exactly intwined so you cant tell them apart. Around 2min into it I was totally confused cause I had forgotten that i had smoked it and why I was sitting out on my mates balcony, I knew I was supposed to be doing something but couldn't remember what it was. About 30 seconds later I was like owww yee.. trip on dmt, thats what Im supposed to do.

Mate, I think we had the pretty much the same trip last night, right down to the lighter malfunction! The god of crap lighters must have been out gunning for us last night.

I don't know you, have never met you, didn't meet any animals or entities that I recall but otherwise I think we had pretty much the exact same experience and feelings in the buildup to it. What a headmincer!

lol awesome. I plan on getting a rue extract probably order it tonight. Only problem is I don't have a scale so I dont want to have to eyeball doses

Just as I was reading your awesome report on my 18 year old MAC IIFX, contemplating tripping... It's Jumbo, 70lb, equally as ancient, 21" apple color CRT fizzled out. It gave an extremely wierd swirling melting exploding hyperjump like visual That looked almost like the Millenium Falcon going to hyperdrive right before the image blipped out... It was very remeniscent of... something... It came back on when I flipped the power switch tho...