I have been having trips that contradict themselves. This has only recently happened. It is so strange. Just when i think i can start to predict "more or less" where(not how) my trip will go, i am surprised with something/someplace new. It really has become difficult to know what is "real"(making the decision that is correct, for example believing or not believing) or what is an illusion(a false picture put in place to trick me for whatever reason). But it seems like all is necessary, and could all be real even though it cant or didn't happen.(but maybe it did in an alternate dimension or time). I think the most important thing i have learned lately is that i should be prepared for change of thinking, viewing, acting, appearance, interpretation....etc. A change at an extreme strange speed(s), but again unpredictable at least for me, because i have slowed my spiritual growth a little bit lately(this summer there was an evolution of spirit and body that occurred at an incredible rate. It was a 30 steps forward, 2 steps back. Now its 3/2 or 3/3. I guess i am just waiting for another amazing cycle to take place. i feel i have integrated my dmt/life experiences quite well and that shouldn't be holding me back. Only time will tell.
And also, i think the reaction that each person has with dmt can be completely different due to an incredible amount of hidden variables. And since people change, the interaction of dmt at one time can be different at a later date.
Also I feel (due to experience) a person builds up a tolerance (of sorts) to dmt. I dont think a physical tolerance, but a mental/spiritual tolerance, where the strength of mind/conciousness becomes harder to dent with the addition of dmt. (this is just wild speculation, but it happens to be my feeling....dmt(and tryptamines) in general are the reason that we see, hear, feal and think. I feel like they help create the projection that comes out.)) So i think if you are having trouble going as far as you used to, it is probably because you need a higher dosage of dmt because your conciousness is harder to be changed without your control. In other words i think we have more control the stronger we get, and because(supposedly) dmt is the reason for experiencing everything, we should have more control over what we see and how we feel it. ...........This will be a fun experiment that i will be undertaking(possibly forever) to see if i can start to create my reality the way i want it.
Believe