Namaste fellow space cadets.
Now some of you may know, i am in the midst of a sort of reboot. Since returning from India (very very ill) Yoga meditation and various other things have dropped off my schedule.
Up until about 2 years ago i was riding bicycles professionally and competing. After a serious injury that had to stop.
I have not really been exercising as much as i should. I get angry at silly things. Sometimes my temper blows up uncontrollably and i get destructive urges to destroy. Its mindless rage and i know that is no good.
I was checking out nootropics recently but decided that it would be foolish to look at taking them without starting at the start. I know my situation better then that. So i want to get back into yoga (and meditation) on a committed level. As well as exercise which i have started doing again. Finally i am getting my sleep in order, i haven't had a proper sleep pattern since puberty.
The yoga i was doing in the past was Hatha Yoga, which as i understand is part of Raja Yoga or Yoga of the Mind.
This is great, i have a beautiful book called 'the anatomy of Hatha yoga' written by a doctor with anatomical drawings on how each pose affects each muscle, tendon and ligament. So for me starting with Hatha yoga makes much sense because i can refer to my book on which body part i feel needs work.
The reason i am posting is because i wanted to ask the Yoga fans on nexus about what they feel is a good path and to open up some discussion on various asanas, methods, styles ect.
When i was reading the wiki on Raja Yoga, it mentions this:
Quote:Rāja Yoga ("royal yoga", "royal union", also known as Classical Yoga) is concerned principally with the cultivation of the mind using meditation (dhyana) to further one's acquaintance with reality and finally achieve liberation.
Quote:Humans have all sorts of addictions and obsessions and these preclude the attainment of tranquil abiding (meditation). Through restraint (yama) such as celibacy, abstaining from intoxicants, and careful attention to one's actions of body, speech and mind, the human being becomes fit to practice meditation. This yoke that one puts upon oneself (discipline) is another meaning of the word yoga.
Now i wonder, is Raja Yoga such a good path for me to follow, as i plan to continue the use of entheogens as part of my practice and spiritual exploration and awakening. Would these be considered intoxicants? Does pot fall into that category? Should i quit Pot?
I doubt celibacy is something i will be doing, as a young man in a healthy loving relationship.
Is this Raja Yoga for me? I want the benefit of asanas, and the guidance of a path with specific targets (Raja Yoga's 8 limbs) yet celibacy and no intoxicants does not fall in line with my current path.
Meditation is something i am very much about, but i wonder if i also need guidance here. Up until now my meditation has just been emptying the mind. No more, is concentration needed? I think it might be needed.
I do not consider myself a Hindu, Buddhist or anything else. But i would like to draw upon the long history of wisdom, spiritually, physically or other wise.
Sorry if this spiraled off. I guess what i want is to get right back into yoga, meditation and i am also interested in the spiritual wealth, philosophy and interesting views/explanations ect that are contained within the texts/sutras ect.
But every path i look at seems not for me. I know i am the kind of guy that always talks about being independent, free spirited ect, but part of me is saying its time to grow up, and admit that other people have achieved great things, and i should pay attention.
There is a Buddhist centre near by that allows me to visit when ever i want to meditate, which is brilliant. But im hesitant to start going there more often because they are Mahayana school, which i understand is more modern the Theravada. I am an elitist, purist, perfectionist. perhaps this is why i am struggling to choose a direction.
This is possibly why i am struggling to find a path. I like knowing that i have everything in check. Perfection, all killer no filler. I enjoy the storys in Buddhism, but i dont want to be tied to some late school full of offerings (food is better given to the hungry then offered to a non material being)
Zen is interesting.
Perhaps i should look at Zen or zazen, combined with asanas.
I just need some gentle guidance, a whisper of encouragement, or a point in the right direction.
“Right here and now, one quanta away, there is raging a universe of active intelligence that is transhuman, hyperdimensional, and extremely alien... What is driving religious feeling today is a wish for contact with this other universe.”
― Terence McKenna