The space cracked open, I was emerging from a translucent chamber, a high technology coffin but the purpose was to sustain energy and the dream. I briefly looked down at what I knew to be my body as I floated backward and away. The intention was strong, I'm going out for a look around and I want their help. He is a bit startled. A Grey, much shorter than I moves backward guiding me quickly toward a door which has just opened. He didn't expect this but knows the protocol. He needs to hand me off. Somehow I feel in charge. Grateful to him for his work - but now I am getting up to see what is outside.

Two taller slender beings who are imaged as of best-friend sisters in my family receive me beyond the doors. Unlike the more sterile Grey they emit joy and love. They show me the spiral. They indicate this is what I awoke to see. It is a shaft of pure white light. I understand it is the conduit for all existence. Around the shaft of light a spiral which is to be traveled not unlike a road to a mountain top by spirits on a journey.
Now I am being filled. I am unsure of this, I was enjoying my emptiness - I wonder what is this I'm being filled with. A face is shown with a finger over the lips as if to say 'shhh'. As I try to analyze the fluid filling my being the entire experience flip-flops between love and horror several times. It is pure loving light - now it is nuclear waste from an invading alien race. Then it is clear. This is the doubt of a logical mind which so wants to understand but is born of and can only be a servant to the light. This mind must surrender. "See I am full of light", it is love, it has always been this way. Now it is clear. This is duality manifesting. Conceptualize, make dual, identify, project fear. I smile, it's so simple. This is knowing is Peace.

My attention draws back to the spire, my filling rises my perspective up the winding road. My awe is getting to out of control. I am shown a sitting Buddha and understand to hold my balance. I must not get lost in the awe - I would surely spiral out of control. With focused attention the space widens and the vibration stabilizes. I take an off ramp, and for the first time, it is clear I am revisiting a past life. I am being carried - sitting up or perhaps in a wheelchair. I am old but content. This is a party which could be in my honor. But it is I who am so grateful. The space is strong with Buddhist themes and colors. This is my family. I stop moving and am seated in a prepared place. Small chairs are brought and circled around me. My love goes out as the children circle around. They are so full of life movement and joy. I understand they are grand children or great grandchildren. This is indeed a blessing. Somehow I think, "this is me also". But then "also to whom", "who said that".

My earth eyes open. I resist the urge to focus them. It is clear ... again ... this is a dream. I am shown supporting hands in the clouds. This world is to learn. To see the nature of desire, fear, the false self and source of my own suffering. What a gift.

As I try to analyze the fluid filling my being the entire experience flip-flops between love and horror several times. It is pure loving light - now it is nuclear waste from an invading alien race. Then it is clear. This is the doubt of a logical mind which so wants to understand but is born of and can only be a servant to the light. This mind must surrender. "See I am full of light", it is love, it has always been this way. Now it is clear. This is duality manifesting. Conceptualize, make dual, identify, project fear. I smile, it's so simple. This is knowing is Peace.

Yes it's simple afterwards, when you find that firm rock behind the illusion... but it's so tragic that one cannot dispel it from inside the matrix. it's truly like a prison.