Back in November I learned how to set free the amazing molecule that brought all of us together here, the one that nature had so carefully tucked away in the bark of the mimosa hostilis (as well as many other places) for safekeeping.
My first three words while coming down from my initial experience were, "This is important." It was all I could manage to say for twenty minutes thereafter. My first few experiences were flavored by apprehension of the unknown, but I knew every time that this was something different, something special, something just so inherently true that further exploration was going to be imperative.
Getting past the point of simply being in awe of the OEV's, and getting to that place where everything dissolves, YOU are turned inside out, time no longer exists, and you're looking deep into the very center of your own essence and out to the farthest reaches of the universe all at once and suddenly you realize that it's really the same thing, that everything is everything and it's always right now... it can be overwhelming. The visions, not sight but VISIONS are something that defy comparison to anything I have witnessed on the linear plane of day to day existence, anything I possess the language to describe.
There is so much knowledge and TRUTH to absorb. There is a powerful feeling of KNOWING that isn't easily articulated.
The first true breakthrough I had, I felt as though I was being shown something that I've been immersed in all along, though I just needed a new perspective, a new lens of perception.
I knew deep in my heart that I had been welcomed home.
I've been exploring these spaces for nearly a year now and I can say that I have a lot more work to do.
I've had a robust and productive relationship with psychedelics for over two decades and I am certain that my journey will never end. Maybe I was ready for DMT when I was younger, maybe I wasn't. I'll never know and it doesn't matter. It came into my life when I needed it to and I've only just begun to explore what I know will be a beautiful, life-long relationship.