I was a heroin addict for about 9 years, I am 100% free of it now & DMT did help, but not in any kind of direct way!!
It helped create a fresh mindset for me that allowed me to look at who I was & what I was doing, from outside of doing it.
I realized how I was being manipulated by a fucking chemical & how much money & more importantly how much love I threw away & spit at, just to make sure I didn't feel like shit!! How goddamn stupid is that!
But DMT nor Salvia solved anything!
All revelations about my condition where on me...usually days/weeks/months after have the actual experience.
You already seem to be aware of your problem enough to deal with it. Just don't let yourself think you don't have a problem, or that its not bigger than what you can handle...because that is a sure fire way to let it spiral out of control before you know it!
Caen is absolutely correct in his posts!!There is no other substance, there is no other quick way out & there is surely no other person who is going to get you clean except you & your desire to not be caught under the thumb of that
dirty, dirty shit!!!There is really no difference between a hard core street junkie (I'm assuming that is what you meant by "raging addict" ) who shoots heroin a few times a day & someone who takes a few pills, or downs a few cups of poppy tea everyday...except maybe the fact that the street junkie has a much harder time convincing himself that he is not an addict.
But the two are filling the same need & both are in for the same physical & mental anguish when they run out.
Another difference is that most people taking opiate pills, have the money to continue taking more & more as the tolerance grows & destroys the person!
A street junkie can't do that, so although it may seem backwards, they usually do not have as large of a habit as the person getting prescriptions from a doctor. Although they have given into the addiction 100% and are usually prepared to just deal with it, till it kills them in one way or another.
Same addiction...just different clothes on the addict.
BTW, being a "
dependent" of opiates is just another term for being an addict!!
And a rationalization!! (be careful of rationalizing this)
If you are experiencing pain & mental nagging from it when you don't have any in your system...
I'm here to inform you that
yes, you are an addict.
Sorry.
But once you are aware of this & have come to terms with it, you are now able to begin digging your way out!!
Please remember though, that is no other substance out there that is going to fix you, there is no magic switch...
not even Iboga...only you are going to fix you, nothing else!
Or your not....
Iboga might help out,
for a moment, but this is something you are going to be dealing with for years to come, probably the rest of your life.
So to put your hopes in some other chemical substance showing you the reasons why you have addictive tendencies buried inside you & expecting that to magically turn off an addiction switch, is very naive!! And dangerous!
Fact is you already know what your doing is bad for you physically & mentally, & you apparently feel there are emotions/past experiences that you are attempting to dull with this, or you wouldn't have posted the things you did. You don't need any other drug to do this for you, it would only nudge you a bit anyway!
The work is on you alone so carry that!
There are a number of meds out there to help with the physical pain, methadone, Suboxone,
but these only deal with the physical pain!! The deep seeded reason behind why you have these tendencies is gonna take time to sort out.
But first, you will need to get your head clear so you can actually think about these things & deal with them, without running to cover them back up with more opiates, once they begin to show themselves! I say all of this with the hopes that you will get straight with yourself, this is not an easy thing, you have to steel yourself & just do it!!! And it may not work the first time...people have relapses 5-10 years after "defeating" an opiate addiction. Keep trying!
The physical pain is probably the most horrible thing I have ever experienced in my life, but it's that long lasting, nagging mental need that will cause you to forget all about the pain you suffered through & think "oh I haven't done any opiates in a few weeks, I can try just a little tonight....I'm not an addict,
I'm not even "dependent" on it anymore." ...Just another rationalization!
It will keep coming back to see if you'll give in, for years to come....trust me on that one!
Opiates are a money making miracle product for those who sell them...nothing more!!!poppy pods, Oxycontin, Oxycodone, Herion, Morphine, they are all the same thing...a dirty fucking opiate habit, bleeding money!
Good luck to you Praline, if you have any questions, if you want any advice, or just need a cheering section feel free to PM me...don't do this alone! Trust me, it only makes it harder!
Each time you do more opiates, your just starting over again!! Don't let that keep happening.
Get started today!!
WS
All posts are fictional short stories depicting the adventures of WSaged!! None of these events have actually happened and any resemblance to any real persons or incidents is totally coincidence!!!!!!!!!!!!