This forum has been great for me personally.
It has taught me several things in several different ways:
Brewing and simple extractions of psychedelic and non-psychedelic plants/materials
Those which have psychedelic effect have allowed me to understand my feelings, personality and consciousness in an incredible way.
Posting and chatting in the community has increased my ability to read and write socially much much better.
Through reading and writing I've observed vast differences and more often ridiculous similarities in experiences from person to person.

Though this community has given me a lot, I feel that I have to take a step back. Just like many people get addicted to Facebook, Twitter, Myspace, I feel in a way I've got addicted to the Nexus.
While the information here is great and the community too, in real life I am still lacking largely in "getting out" and social interactions which can be somewhat substituted by online communities.

So hopefully after taking a step back I will move forward. Removed myself from my computer chair and get out to the world. Meet new people and share my knowledge to those who seem ready to receive it.

I may return, I may not. For now though I'm going cold turkey and blocking the site.

Much love,
Q21Q21

Farewell! It is important to dedicate to 'normal' life too! It's all about balance. Everything we learn with psychedelics and in the nexus has to be applied, integrated, so we can really move forward with our progress. I understand your feelings and wish you well in your future path.

Adios Adam!

Hey q21,

I don't know you at all but from reading your post it feels genuine. It does seem like you need to take a break. However, don't feel like you can't come back to the nexus any time soon because the doors are always open.

Congratulations to the next step.
I hope you return soon to the dmt-nexus.
Good luck and have a good life.

Peace and Love

Mr_DMT

Go get 'em q21.

Good luck.

funny because ive been thinking about this all damn day..how my real life(only socially I still have to work and stuff) has become less real to me than my life here..which is not "bad" persay but just makes me feel kinda sad and ripped off...I feel like I connect with faceless people i may nevr ever meet on a more fundamental level than people out in the "real world"...

There are a few people out there I do connect with but I dont see them too often anymore..and lots of psychedelic people I know seriousily always bitch at me about how I need to start selling DMT or want me to extract for them so they can sell DMT..Its EXTREMELY annoying and discouraging how many psychedelic people I meet and know think this..they dont seem to be able to relate to me not selling DMT if I can extract it.

It's not that I dont see people out in the world and stuff either..just that I dont feel the same connection to them I do to people here..I have all these things I want to talk about and say and noone seems to think on that level or be interested..I could sit in some old teahouse downtown for hours and hours and talk to people about interesting things if only they cared!

Anyway, goodluck q21

Best of luck, q21. I've always felt a great energy off of you and am glad you feel ready to make this transition. Hope you'll check in every so often to let us know how you are.

Goodluck Q21!! Hopefully this isn't goodbye for good just until next time.

Take care

~peace, love, light

Thanks for all of your contributions and your presence. Blessings in your endeavors, and perhaps one day we will see you again.

Cheers to respecting the balance!

Love and light!

I never had the chance to talk to you but from your experiments and experience you've already helped me a great deal and I'm sure I'm not the only one. Godspeed in your journey and sure footing in your next step. Hope to see you back but not loitering one day.

Good luck, mate! Your tek helped to change my life!

The world is yours also, may you accomplish what you desire!

Much love to u L

I (and I suspect many others) know what you mean Fractal.

I find it strange, and a little frustrating, that I will almost certainly never get to meet any of the characters from the Nexus, whose thoughts I have spent so much time reading, and who have moved me in so many ways. There are many people here I genuinely admire. On one level I feel I know these people well, having followed their posts with interest. They can, at times, be revealing. You could even argue I know them better than many of my "real" friends, since most people here are so open and honest about how they feel...

But of course I don't really know any of you at all, and I must admit that makes me a little sad.

I have met people in person, through work, after spending months talking with them, but only on the phone. It is always a strange experience, and they have never been as I imagined them! I wonder how many of us would become friends should we happen to meet, independent of this place?

Sometimes we have to lose something we love to gain. I wish you all the happiness in whatever you do and hopefully will see you around the forum in the future.

Have fun

The best farewell message i have read in a while.. I am happy coz u have seen the right path for urself in making ur decisions. I also feel that this place is more real than my own reality. I didnt stop my soccial relations but i can tell i love this society more than any other relations i have outside... I agree with u up to a point and wish u the best of luck in ur new path.

I still hope you come around chatroom once in a while after you recover and get things in an order in ur soccial life...

Farewell friend.

beautifully put adam my brother. i understand your feelings and decision completely. i myself have leaned toward befriending nexus members on facebook and have met many in person at this point. my very first nexian encounter was my dear brother WSaged whom i wound up helping to find a place right here in my neighborhood!

though i know it to be 'risky' in one sense, my desire to create a community in 'the real world' that is as fulfilling and enriching as the online reality of the nexus has led me to such decisions. i regret none of them and am deeply grateful for every nexian i have had the true honor of sitting down and chatting with.

....and let me tell you...those 'chats' have been AWESOME!!!

best of luck to you dear brother. getting out of the computer chair and into the real sunshine can only do you good. we are ALWAYS here with open arms should you decide to return.

with the deepest love and gratitude!!