First few times i messed up extractions without knowing. Tried to smoke what i had out of light bulb (bad idea). Had some slight hearing effects. Lost track of expierences for a while then started writing everything down.
How dmt found me, i was researching stuff about 2012, mayans, sumerians, mathmatics, sacred geometry, herbs, brain, mind, consciousness, religons, quatum physics, metaphysics, and many other things and i just happen to stumble upon dmt and wondered what it was. I had smoked a lot of weed, done meth a few times, but that was the extent of "drugs" i did. Weed was only psychedelic i had done before finding dmt. I researched and found out quite a bit about dmt and ayahuasca, but not too much. I did not want to learn to much about individual expierences at the time cause i didnt want to be effected by others thoughts and opinions on things. I read bits and pieces of books like, DMT: The Spirit Molecule, The Void, Psychonauts Guide to Invisible Landscape, The Mayan Factor (not really anything to do with this but i read around the time i was reading other books), and a book about kundalini and chakras. First extraction i did i found on erowid.com didnt work out good at all, but i tried it. Soon after tried salvia 20x (not standardized). The was my first out of body expierence and expierence of "The Void State", and first thing i can call a psychedelic expierence. I also was praciticing meditation, lucid dreaming, and astral projection (no luck with that) prior to even finding dmt. I also began to keep track of mayan calendar and stop following gregorian calendar, so all dates for things i did date are in mayan, and I have think I have found a connection between the mayan calendar and hyperspace(if thats what it was called). The day I was born in mayan calendar was 12.18.13.13.16 9Pax 11Cib, and i found this thing called the dreamspell by Jose Argulles, which he got from the mayan calendar(although I cant figure out how he got it from the calendar) he wrote the book, The Mayan Factor, but my dreamspell tells about my conscious self, subconscious self, and higher conscious self, and other parts of me. My dreamspell things is 13Oc. Which means my subconscious would be 13Chuen, conscious self would be 13Oc, and higher conscious self would be 13Ix. I tried not to keep track of mayan calendar during all these expierences and then only finding out what day it was when I decided to do dmt. Each time I did I found that the day would fall on one of my days of my conscious forms and I would do a lot of work on myself and remember more and more. And days I would go when it wasnt one of my days I always saw beings or places. I would like some other peoples information about these or test it yourself and let me know how it goes.
http://www.astrodreamadv...free_mayan_readings.html go here to find out about yours. I think its really accurate, and it seems to work on other levels than just here. (List of days I kept track off doing dmt, 12.19.17.0.14 12Moan 4Ix, 12.19.17.1.0 18Moan 10Ahau, 12.19.17.1.7 5Pax 4Manik, 12.19.17.2.2 0Kayab 6Ik, 12.19.17.4.10 3Pop 2Oc, 12.19.17.4.11 4Pop 3Chuen, 12.19.17.5.9 2Uo 8Muluc, 12.19.17.5.10 3Uo 9Oc, 12.19.17.5.12 5Uo 11Eb, 12.19.17.5.14 7Uo 13Ix(most intense expierence ive ever had), 12.19.17.6.7 1Zip 1Lamat, 12.19.17.6.17 11Zip 11Etznab) Back to the expierences.
Everything that im typing is exactly how i wrote it.
DMT Expierence
A few expierences have past, im not sure how many. This is what i can remember, it showed me what this world really looks like without limitations and it looks like a mathmatic pattern of chaos and randomness called mandlebrot. All this world is, is patterns, everything is a pattern. Even a random pattern is still a pattern. The real pattern of the world or this reality is mandlebrot.
I saw golden/white lights and snakes moving through and around everything, then a being came through the snakes reaching out to me, try to guide or comfort me, gicing me feelings of love and compassion that ive never expierenced.
First close-eyed expierence, as soon as my eyes were close i saw this dark blue/green and black (or color i cant comprehend) pattern surround and engulf me, i could clearly see all my surroundings and myself as it was happening.
I tried it through a pipe a few times, still only got mild low dose effects. Tried it through a bong, very effective (found out later it actually wasnt, pipe worked best). I took very deep fast hit, as soon as i cleared the smoke from it everything started shaking extremely violently then my vision streched out, at the same time I heard something so deeply that it shook me down to the depths of my heart. I saw a black hole come into my vision, which instantly surrounded me with golden and pure white geometric designs and patterns, that were constantly changing and moving through everything. Then i noticed one of my dreads hanging in front of my face but decided not to mess with it, right after i had that thought i heard a voice say, "Dont worry we can help" and then my hands moved up and started moving my hair back for me and as it was doing this, there were hands coming from everywhere then i noticed that all the hands were mine and connected to me, thousands of arms and all i could see were billions of fingers waving like water or like something waving in the wind. After this i noticed that i was in some type of planes that the lower half of my body interconnected to along with my head (didnt make much sense but they were like a plane above and below me that is kinda how you would think of if you turned a torus tube inside out). The entire time this was going on there were 2 beings standing over me just looking down on me like how you would look down on a new born baby. As soon as I came Came out of it, my memory started fading of what i saw. It felt like an instant, like someone snapped there fingers and it was over and made me wonder if something actually happened or if i imagined it.
(This was around the time i found dmt-nexus.me, and started looking around at different things here, and found out how to do the extraction the right way)
A couple days or weeks after that I did it again but this time I did it alone in pitchblack. I started seeing things before I took of dmt, after I hit it I heard noises and then went back to the planes I was in, but this time I looked up into the plane above me and got shot through another tunnel, stargate looking tunnel. I cant explain in writing what happened. I was showed many things and taught many things. I was brought back to this world/dimension/reality (i dont know what to call this anymore) and shown many things here and in space, and how to travel from here to hyperspace and how to guide others to hyperspace. I was showed a conscious being being born, living, and death of a conscious being. It was so beautiful and loving.
Since this my reality has been getting torn apart, i cant believe or understand all the confusion, curruption, hate, differences, dependencies, and ignorance in this world. Everyone lives on selfish desires, abuse of the world, and things that just dont make sense. Im losing touch with people around me cause I am choosing a better way to live and expierence the full extent of life. Psychedelics are a gift of this world not to be abused or mistreated, but society has turned them into "drugs" that effect you in negitive ways. But look at the drugs and addictions imposed on society today, caffine, alcohol, tabbacco, sugar, animals, and animal products, technology, and greed. If psychedelics are so negitive then what are the positives of the drugs that are incorperated and "allowed" in society? Society is dependent on itself but for what purpose? This world has become backwards and society calls it normal. No one questions what is on the tv, no one questions schools/education, information, government, teachers, doctors, history, science, the list is endless. But the second someone comes up with a new idea, theory, or truth of something they are shunned, ridiculed, called crazy, or have things that dont make sense pushed into there faces. Society is like a disease or virus that is eating away at people without them even knowing or trying to get away from it. I think everyone just needs to step back, look around, think, question, and be free, happy, loving, and respectfull. I have broken free from my ego, which is literally my mind. My mistake I have not broken away from my ego (at the time i had no idea what this actually meant).
Had some different dmt expierences that i did not write about, did not seem of much importance. Saw random things, connected to a cube once, saw beings with sharp edges (very geometric), could not make out a definite place or anything. Most of effects and things i thought dmt was doing wore off. Took a vaction and didnt do it for a while. I did dmt once more when I got back before trying pharmayhuasca. The dmt trip was just like falling through a tunnel the whole time, and my girlfriend allison was going through the tunnel with me then she got taken by reptilian begins and expierimented on, I dont remember what happened but I dont remember being there when that happened to her.
Pharmayhusca Expierence (12.19.17.4.11 4Pop 3Chuen)
Dose: Couldnt measure dose, so just guessed (maybe around 100mg dmt per cap). First i took 100mg harmala crystals in pill(wasnt sure if it would work so also drank half ayahuasca brew i tried, that only contained maoi no dmt), waited about an hour took first dmt pill then waited about 10-15min and took other dmt pill (total about 200mg dmt, maybe). Then me and my girlfriend (allison), went and layed down in bed and began to wait.
The wait for it to come on made me kinda nervous, axieous, excited, and doubtfull (was doubting it would even work the way i did it). When the patterns finally started forming I thought maybe I was just seeing the usual stuff in the dark. So I sat up and my body felt almost alien and every thing in my vision started flowing. So I knew it was finally working. I layed back down slowly just watching everthing. As I was laying down me and allison started pointing things out we saw. Everything she pointed out I saw and she saw everything I pointed out. As we started going deeper we kept pointing things out until we finally stopped talking outloud and started talking without speech or voice. As I got farther she got stuck behind some where and I kept going (only way I can think to describe where she went is that she didnt break through the tunnel. As I got deeper my body got aroused, but soon after I left my body completly. After that everything was just moving through, around, and a part of me, i was like an eye that had no need for senses and could see everything. I came across the Hive Mind shortly after that and was looking down into these interdimensional/hyperdimensional hexagon shaped honeycombs. They were many different colors but the colors around me were darker and hive was more colorful with tunnels, golden tunnels that were also translesent, branched off the hive to every where, maybe memories, or my life playing out from my eyes inside them. As I kept going i just saw the hive everywhere until i hit nothing. When I hit this nothingness, referred to as, "The Void", I knew at that moment that the void, is actual nothingness but in this nothingness is everything. Everything is nothing and nothing is everything. Out of this nothingness then came several body's and then as I saw these bodies clearer I realized they were all me. I was able to see all the bodies and and parts of them at the same time while it felt like I was above them and they were around me in a circle pattern. I dont remember how many there were but 12 seems to stick in my head. As I inspect these other me's, I notice that they were all a different emotion. Like each emotion that people have is an entirely different person that is a part of you, living the same life with you but maybe not same ideals.
After a little time with myselves (felt like years had gone by), I got pulled back by pukeing and allison pulling on me, then told me she had to go to the bathroom now. So instantly I built reality around me (something I was taught how to do from previous dmt expierence), and started going with her to the bathroom. As I was going I was seeing my entire body from up higher, my point of viewwas from looking down at the back of my head. As I was going with her I noticed that as I was building reality it was dispersing into cubes then smaller and smaller all the way back into the void. As we were in the bathroom after that i just started have after effects, mild halucinations, that lasted about an hour or so. Time I spent on trip about 4 hours peaked.
Changa Expierence (12.19.17.5.9 2Uo 8Muluc)
Dose: 300mg maoi (syrian rue 10:1 extract), 75mg dmt on top. Got 2 really good hits.
Amazing Expierence. Started going into it wanting to be outside hit it twice really good, then had to set the pipe down fast I felt like, a rushing expierence then gazed at the moon. Right after the buzzing came and I glanced into the darkness a few times then started seeing things form in the dark more so i started staring at it and went into these planes then I cant remember what happened. I do remember just being amazed and astounded by everything. After a while I saw what looked like the inner workings of some kind of floating liquid shock pump looking things. I was not a part of my body at this time and the pumps started moving in different ways and then my body would move and when I would move my body they would move too (like there were hydralic looking pumps floating in liquid attached to me). This whole time this place was filled with watery gel type of liquid. My thoughts then started to divide, still part of me but what felt like I was more than one person at once, kinda shocked me at first when I realized it but then that became another self too. It felt soon after as though I was questioning everything and each self was to and we were contemplating everything. After a little while of doing this the selves started to sync up and have similar thoughts until, eventually they all became one thought. All thought is part of the same thought. Dont remember what happened next. As I was coming out of it, I felt like I was started to figure out tons of stuff, then stopped myself and opened my eyes (dont remember closing my eyes) and saw the moon and after effects started, left me speechless and amazed when I was done. Duration 20 - 30min.
DMT Expierence (12.19.17.5.12 5Uo 11Eb)
Dose: 75mg DMT
What are all the patterns? Why am I being shown all these patterns? Even away from dmt state I still see patterns. 11:11, 11, mandlebrot, people, reactions, everything is a pattern. Even randomness and chaos still sit in the pattern. I went into a low dose dmt trip (only hit twice), and I saw patterns, first it was what looked like fruit/food in pills/capsules type things (they were huge though). After thatit was just a round bubbly looking pattern everywhere. I wanted to go farther but couldnt. Me and 2 others were communicating while I was seeing this pattern, but it was just like talking to a friend that you see everyday. During this trip though I just started wonderingmore about these patterns. I just dont understand the true meaning behind this and every pattern. I have a feeling like I should do another pharmayhuasca dose soon.
Pharmayhuasca Expierence (12.19.17.5.14 7Uo 13Ix)
Dose: 100mg Harmala crystals, about 300 - 400mg dmt. I did so much dmt cause people were talking about it being dangerous and I know its not so I did a really high dose to show some people it wasnt dangerous, and also I just wanted to do a really high dose. I just packed 2 caps full of dmt, didnt measure them. But I measured one later that looked about like how much I had put in and it weighed out to 200mg.
This is what I wrote when I came out of it.
This day has been the day of rememberance, awakening, understanding, dedication and everything else forever. I exist in time(physical reality) cause I want to. I want to expierence love and live life to its fullest extents. If this is the last time I do dmt, then I am ok with that because I am the everything and the everything is me. I have just came back from my trip and those were a few of my thoughts.
The day started different from a normal day somehow. As if this day had been a day to remember the rest of my life. I woke up, couldnt sleep good cause of the night before me and my girlfriend had an arguement. I just wish she knew how hard it was when she left. When she was around she could always make me happy, even doing nothing with her was amazing (I wish it wouldnt have taken me so long to realize, but I believe there is a reason for everything. I had to let go of her for a short time to realize how much I loved and cared for her and did not want to lose or leave her.)
The day seemed really long and drawn out, cause I was really excited and anxious to go on my pharamayhuasca expierence. Smoked some bud to ease my mind for a little hung out with a few of my friends. They all knew I was going today also. After I had breakfast I fasted for the rest of the day (only drank water, lots of it), and only got about 4 hours of sleep prior.
Starting my trip, at 1:00am I took maoi. Then tried to kill time by watching movie. Then took first dmt pill at 1:45am, then 2nd dmt pill at 2:00am and went and layed down and got ready.
The trip started with mild things which soon became intense things. Had many thoughts of fear and doubt, regret and discomfort. But everytime a bad thought would come in, I would analyze it and it would be alright. I expierenced my life in one instant, being born into a conscious being (when i was still a fetus), until the time is ready for me to depart the physical shell. (I saw everything little moment of my life happen in that instant). I witnessed my own death (I got some kind of illness or sickness, everyone was with me giving me love and support), and then I was dead.
Engulfed in the darkness, the void of everything. Every thought, idea, question, anything imaginable was here and being asseted. I started to wonder if I was going to be able to make it back here to commune this with people. Then started hoping someone didnt find my body and say, "Oh my god, wake up", and then wonder if I was dead. Every thought I had became another reality that I was creating. I was missing allison and zolei and wanted them back with me. I kept seperating everything, then correcting myself and knowing everything is always connected. There is no division of anything cause everything is everything. A thought, idea, personality, you, me, that, there, distance, time, its all a part of the everything that is never divided.
Everything faded from the real to the unrestricted real over and over. I thoguht I was going to be sick a few times but wasnt. There was so much more, im going to take a break from dmt for a while to try and remember. Coming out of it, I wanted and was ready to come back (shocked and amazed, I never fully understood what I forgot, that I already knew). Lots of remembering (not learning). Manipulated reality when I was coming back and jumped to bathroom (did not feel as though I had went a distance). Fully understood what chronokinesis, telepathy, and everything else really was and how it was used. I spent maybe years, thousands of years where I was at.
Fully understand what it means to be a shaman and connect and interact with the 2 states at the same time. I believe now it would be hard to be a shaman in this society with all its rules and suppression. In this society a shaman would be "cast out", he/she would be imprisoned and suppressed to make him/her believe they are crazy or they have lost their mind. The tools of the shaman are of natural origins but in society these are illegal, propaganda is made against them so people will stay away from these natural tools, and artifical distractions are the main goal in this society. Science, religon, and mass media are killing humanity. But the viel has been pulled over everyones eyes so slowly that they havent even noticed that there thoughts and ideas are being influenced by these mechanisms of control. But to what end is what I truely dont understand. Why, what is the point of control and suppression? Why is it that when you bring this up to people they get so defensive? Perhaps because they have been taught (better way of saying controlled) to be and remain close and suppressed, and also fear change.
Text messages I sent to allison that day (which I think I knew what was to come by these messages) - Im trying to open up more I really am but at the same time trying to control the ego and keep what I think is sane so I can commune this to the world. But I want you to be able to tell me everything and talk to me, dont run away from mejust talk to me please, and dont keep things to yourself. I will try my best to listen to you and not shut out your ideas and thoughts. Im very sorry for that too. (Just remembered, I was apologizing and saying I was sorry a lot and I wanted someone there with me. My memories were being played over and over and I couldnt tell what was real at one point of this. I realized that I have a lot of layers to break through which is going to be hard to get through but I know I can do it, dmt is the key to awakening from the false reality (feels like being reborn, awake, and alive, full of love and innocense). I wonder if the world can really accept the truth of everything.) Back to text messages - Im really stubborn sometimes too, dont try to be I just am. But just to let you know will you be able to put up with me with whatever happens while im trying to control my ego? This is going to be a hard processand at times could seemlike its never going to end, but it takes a while to do and I may need a lot of support but it will come to an end eventually. (The process was exactly that also as it was happening. It was very hard to get through and seemed like it was endless but it did end in physical state as well as hyperdimensional state. (everything is everything state)) Back to texts - Its already started. With my first pharmayhuasca dose it started. I dont know how longit will take or last though. Its my experiment and I will finish, even if I have to shove the pharmayhuasca down my throat, im going to finish what I started one way or another (I knew that whole day what was going to happen and what I was going to expierence, I just didnt know that I knew that yet, thats why I am writing down my texts that I sent that day. (All texts that im writing are just from that day only.)) Thats end of text messages I sent that day.
It is now 7:05am of that same dayof the trip, and feel very good and releived. If I remember anything else I will write down again.
When I came back and was having strong effects still, things that seemed natural and normal to do (navigating, eating, time, distance, and reality) seemed to feel alien. Like I had never done or expierence these things before. Also things like ideas, thoughts, and emotions and feelings, and using the senses felt alien also. I finally feel like I remembered to understand everything.
(12.19.17.6.2 15Uo 8Ik)
I believe i connected with the higher consciousness and 2012 will be like an opening to reconnect with the higher consciousness. (The "higher consciousness" was a being that i connected with, that had cables coming from its head and in these cables was everything, literally EVERYTHING. This beings body was just like an outline in some place i cant seem to describe even though I can see it very clearly. If I started to look where the beings skin would be I would start getting sucked backwards into the void again. There were other higher conscious's too. It was not only one, but many. Not sure how many though.) Why do people fear so much what they dont understand? I feel like I have so much to tell the world and I want to help people understand this transition that we are about to go through. I wish wish everyone would at least try dmt once to understand a true psychedelic expierence. I cant stand people that dont or dont want to understand what a psychedelic expierence is. People think that that dmt is a hallucigen, this is entirely wrong. A hallucination is something you see that is not real, psychedelic literally means mind manifesting (creating with your mind). The psychedelic expierence is something that everyone can expierence. It may differ a little or be percieved in different ways but ultimately the same expierence. I completely understand the psychedelic expierence now and there is nothing that will ever compare to it. The change is coming, getting closer, and everyone is still living in there same patterns, afraid to divert from the path they walk, which will ultimately result in nothing. I really want to help wake people upand prepare them for what is to come, but I can only do so much for people. It takes a big step on there part to get through this change too. I can only give them the key and show them the door, tey have to choose to use it and go through the door. I feel as though my purpose here has changed and I want to be a shaman and want to help all those in need if help and offer truth to those that seek the truth. There needs to be more shaman, scientists, psychonauts, and people in general that must expierence and remember all about ayahuasca/pharmayahuacsa the sacred brew/pill.
The night after I remembered all of this, I had the most vivid/real dream like expierence ive ever had (almost dont even feel like I can call it a dream). I was in the forest, like a tropical rain forest, and there were a bunch of african looking shaman (very very dark skin), they all wore huge headdresses and were all sitting looking at me. Then they push a cup of ayahuasca in front of me and without a thought I just drank it. Then all the shaman that were there drank after me. And I had a what seems like an ayahuasca expierence and the shaman were guiding and helping me with everything. Cant even begin to describe the expierence I had.
DMT Expierence (12.19.17.6.8 1Zip 1Lamat)
Dose: 50mg
Had flight anxiety really bad, but knew I had to get over it. Went outside and layed under the stars. Hit 3 times before I had to put pipe down, forgot how fast it cameon smoked. It was really fast and rushing, dont remember what happened except that a being, like a friend was there and we were just talking as if we talk all the time. The being was orange and was maybe 3-4ft tall, maybe. It was a rememberance of what dmt could do though, it is endless it cant come to an end cause it is limitless posibities.
I came back and felt really good and relieved. So, I hit the pipe really hard again and instantly closed my eyes and became part of a pattern with really complex geometric forms, shapes, and a lot of other stuff. It also looked like vines and then the jungle. During both trips I was able to interact with this realityor go in an instant in either direction. Trips over now smoked a bowl of chronic that I couldnt finish and closed my eyes and tried to connect with the higher conscious and drifted away from my body and then remembered when I was in this state I see it now as a weird mist but I know theres something there but I cant remember what. May have to revisit soon.
Changa Expierence (12.19.17.6.18 11Zip 11Etznab)
Dose: Leftover maoi was in pipe from person before me, he had 100mg maoi 10:1, 50mg dmt only hit once.
Hit once and had to get rid of pipe (thought I was going to drop it). Dont remember much except a little being (maybe about 2ft tall, bluish colored skin, smooth looking skin, antenna type things with eyes on top) and the little being opened my box mind (my head unfolded like how you would unfold a cube after going through a tunnel of eyes) and unfolded it, and then I was in some kind of forest. Dont remember much else. Intense and almost scary feeling.
I hit about 25mg an hour later or 30min and I literally explored my brainand passages and tunnels in my brain. Strong feeling pattern also.
Well that is all I have about my expierences. I will keep writing and keeping track of certain things I noticed while writing this I should have kept better track of.
Just read about THH and B. Caapi also, so I will be trying that soon too. For pharmayhuasca doses ive been using harmine extract from syrian rue 100mg per dose. I would like to make pharmayhuasca with B. Caapi extract now instead and have something closer to ayahuacsa (without the taste).
DMT Expierence (12.19.17.7.9 2Zotz 9Muluc)
Dose: 60mg dmt (my friend did 60mg then I did 60mg after him).
Had flight anxiety really bad. Me and my friend decided to go together, and I told him I could try and take him farther when we went. I meditated for a few min and felt a lot better, like a lot of stress and flight anxiety was lifted from me. As soon as we started we bothhad trouble smoking dmt (found out after dmt cloged the pipe so we didnt get good hits). We were outside under some trees that surrounded us like a dome around us. Right after my friend hit it 4 times he passed to me and I lost track of how many times I hit it (I thought I should hit it more than usual to try and catch up). As soon as I sat the pipe down the patterns formed over everything perfectly and I saw my friends energy resonating and remembered I wanted to take him farther, I jumped to a tunnel connecting to the direction, if you can call it a direction, of where my friend went. I started seeing flowers and flower patterns everywhere, flowing, shifting, growing, shrinking, then out of this grew a window (the entire time this was happening, I was calling out to my friend with my thoughts) and saw my friend but he was distracted and could not reach me. As we came back, just had nice feeling after effects for 15-20min. Duration of trip: 5min.
Dose: Leftover 120mg from earlier that night (was 60mg each put in for me and friend, smoking leftover from that).
Sat down outside under the moon and stars. Dark and quiet out, very nice time. I got really comfortable, hit it maybe 6 times, really good hits. I saw pattern form over everything perfectly and realized I am in total control, I can stay at this point or jump to other points (by jump i mean like teleport, move without moving). After I was done with that I closed my eyes and saw flowers everywhere blooming and growing and flowing. Cant remember much else, but the flowers were just beautiful. Came out of it and sunwas barley coming up, got up looked around and everything was just so beautiful around me. The world is such a beautiful place. People destroy lots of nature, but at least we keep nature around us.
Just remembered something, before I saw the flowers but after the patterns, I was telling myself, "I am a Shaman" over and overbut I felt the only reason I was saying this was because I didnt believe myself so I had to physically repeat it to know I am a Shaman. I had just forgotten what I am suppose to know.
DMT Expierence (12.19.17.7.10 3Zotz 10Oc)
Dose: 60mg dmt, took 6 hits.
Hit the pipe 6 times, sitting in my room. After that I felt as though I had become enlightened and felt empowered and in control. I then decided to close my eyes and meditate and I appeared as a hindu goddess then a lot of stuff happened, cant remember much of it except for there being mountains. Then I opened my eyes. In front of me, I was still here in physical reality, I saw a little pure white light shaped like a cube and I wondered what that was and wanted to see. Then all these translesent gold crystal looking things formed all around me and I was able to physically feel the (without actually touching them). After seeing this for a while, something hit me (like 2 fists hitting me at the same time, one in my heart the other in my stomach) and I fell backwards from sitting to laying in my bed. As I was laying there my eyes were still open and everything was like love, giving and recieving love to all things. Then I thought, "Wait, im still tripping, I need to close my eyes and had an awkward feeling and my arms came up and held my head. When I saw my arm, still eyes closed, it had spiders all over it. Thousands of tiny little spiders. Made me kinda scared at first but then realized it was the trip and went into a tunnel. In the tunnel I looked out to the side and instantly a 9-10ft tall dragon, with wingspan maybe 20ft was on me and I was fighting it. But then I realized I wasnt through...