i journeyed 2 days ago for the first time in months, clearing out the genie becuase i felt bad for having it so long. sure enough, a clean solid hit and i hold it till i feel like im going to pass out....then instead of a giant exhale....a simple breath.
i am in a dreamworld. a cosmic safari. i was moving underneath dr. seuss legs while a cat waited for its children...i was one of them. i remember feeling the connection between here and sleep. i remembered it. i heard a voice that said you know this you come here all the time.
i cuold hear music. such layered music that ive heard before, but cant mimic here, but i knew all of it. it was beautiful. i could hear rythms...not associated to the music...but they were like the pulse of the cosmos...pounding and waving in and out...very electrical and bassy.
i would go upon these spaceships. they wuold look at me...talk to me. i remember feeling pushed off a ship at one point. i could hear, "you chose this" "you decided to do this"
i have been sitting with what "this" is, and i keep thinking that i left where i was to come to earth. i have had multiple experiences where i have felt left behind, like i was on a mission here on earth. maybe...just maybe im an alien...and if i am, we all are.
these beings talk to me. they move me. i feel them. i dont know why, i think maybe because it is my beliefs that i have been opened up to....i accept the unknown. i truly do. i accept that i am light slowed down to a density of flesh and bone. i accept. i accept the power of thought and thoughtlessness. we are all a concsiousness. we are all thoguht. i am an image of some divine master's thought. in our years, its taken thousands of centuries....in the time of the universe...well, there is no time. we've been around for a split second.
i felt like a channel...like these things would go through me to get to this dimension...they werent evil, just REALLY straightforward. i felt like i would see a face in my leg...they would become my bedsheets and burst into laughter. faces. eyes. everywhere in my room.
at one point i was sitting up, mouth wide open, and felt like this things would come into my room and shove something down my mouth...once i realized what was going on i immediately got up and broke out of it...maybe by that point i wasnt totally gone and kind of dreaming i guess.
i definately didnt feel the love that i felt when i used to journey, but i think becauase maybe i am getting "older" with it, they arent treating me like a baby....i guess.
i felt there was a little more in there and i wanted to scour the depths of the universe. almost like "testing" the spice. i felt it come on stonger and i left my eyes open...my floor became a jaguar looking right at me and my body felt turned up. electric flow. i sat right there with and didnt go anywhere. i stayed in my body feeling electricity.
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"wherever you go...there you are"