Here's what I wrote in the chat earlier.
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20:39:53 * TrustLoveMan joins Hyperspace Chat
20:39:54 ‹Lusense› does that sound right?
20:40:12 ‹TrustLoveMan› I just broke through soo far
20:40:16 ‹TrustLoveMan› holy shit
20:40:16 ‹Lusense› it is right i might just not be explaining prob
20:40:22 ‹Lusense› haha what did you see?
20:40:37 ‹Lusense› but yo ya I used to take like 6 gs
20:40:43 ‹Lusense› and couldn't see it this way
20:40:45 ‹TrustLoveMan› I don't remember a olot but I was crying in the end
20:40:50 ‹TrustLoveMan› I was soo happy
20:40:54 ‹Lusense› thats probably a good thing
20:40:57 ‹TrustLoveMan› to finally connect
20:41:01 ‹Lusense› yessss
20:41:02 ‹Lusense› me too
20:41:21 ‹TrustLoveMan› I tried like 1000 times before always in the wrong mindset
20:41:28 ‹Lusense› ya you get it no
20:41:30 ‹Lusense› w
20:41:40 ‹Lusense› you just need to believe in everything
20:41:43 ‹Lusense› yourself moreso
20:41:44 ‹TrustLoveMan› I meditated and tried to respect and take my time
20:41:52 ‹TrustLoveMan› I only weighted out 35mg
20:41:53 ‹Lusense› you cant expect anything just ask
20:42:35 ‹TrustLoveMan› I meditated with all 35mg in one bong load(I vaped it good), I held it in and locked in on my frequency
20:43:07 ‹TrustLoveMan› It got load and i felt the top of my head start to remove itself like it's still warm
20:43:37 ‹TrustLoveMan› I am crawling up there with all my might and I can peak into the other side
20:43:59 ‹TrustLoveMan› It was soo beautiful and I couldn't stay very long.
20:44:19 ‹TrustLoveMan› I was crying but they were gentle because I prayed and asked them to be
20:44:32 ‹TrustLoveMan› they held me and I cried while smiling
20:45:00 ‹TrustLoveMan› On the comedown I saw a lot of visuals but they were not as sharp as previous ones.
20:45:37 ‹HungryLion› man
20:45:41 ‹HungryLion› that sounds so awesome!
20:45:41 ‹TrustLoveMan› They were almost dull but still very real. I have been looking for a connection to get through the chrysanthemum for a while now.
20:45:42 ‹HungryLion› congrats!
20:46:21 ‹TrustLoveMan› I finally know that there is more to this, And I was/am so happy
20:46:49 ‹TrustLoveMan› I found more in 35mg and searching within myself than smoking over 100mg at once.
20:47:05 ‹HungryLion› definitely
20:47:06 ‹Over› I went in on pharma with the wront intent and way too much DMT
20:47:17 ‹Over› felt like i was going to die for real
20:47:26 ‹TrustLoveMan› me 2
20:47:29 ‹HungryLion› smoothie time, peace yall!
20:47:41 ‹Over› touched god and pulled back in terror
20:48:06 ‹TrustLoveMan› I was very scared of dmt and before I actually looked inside myself and told myself to calm down, my heart was instantly calm
20:48:36 * HungryLion quit (timeout)
20:48:45 ‹TrustLoveMan› That let me connect to the carrier wave and I got a peak
20:49:29 ‹TrustLoveMan› I am back, it was only like 2 minutes but that was more than i've gotten in 2 hours of dmt use.
20:50:23 ‹TrustLoveMan› I'm going to post this text if that's cool with all of you.
20:50:25 ‹Over› yeah, i was at near death for a good 30 mins
20:52:15 ‹Over› after that I felt amazing, in the bed holding my girl for hours
20:52:34 ‹TrustLoveMan› Me only 15 minutes, but I thought it would be 6 hours and I was thinking this must be why people commit suicide
20:52:44 ‹TrustLoveMan› I felt glad to be alive
20:52:45 ‹Over› yeah
20:52:54 ‹Over› I told her i wanted to die
20:53:13 ‹Over› seemed like a good choice at the time, LOL
20:53:23 ‹TrustLoveMan› I am so blown away, this really fuels my spiritual beliefs.

"20:53:23 ‹TrustLoveMan› I am so blown away, this really fuels my spiritual beliefs."

Good for you, bro. You prayed, quieted the heart and the holy angels held you so lovingly. Beautiful.

Basically after burning many doses of DMT and not respecting it's sacrament I was denied any access past the chrysanthemum. I thought people were exaggerating.
I finally decided to treat DMT like diamond. I carefully weighed out 35 mg and put it into a gel cap. I saved it for a good time and I felt the call today. I mixed some very dry weed and a bit of mulleen and packed a very small bowl. At this point I prayed to DMT and asked for mercy and guidence and I told my heart to calm down, and it did. I got about 30mg unto the leaf and used a very weak flame to vape it into the leaf. Then I burned it with another lighter and pulled it through. I held it in for about 10 second and I was seeing blobs of light turn 3d (exactly like an endogenous experience I had. I was able to peak into the other side and It was the best thing that ever happened to me. I will never doubt or disrespect again!
Also, I could have held it in but I was apprehensive. I am 100% sure that when I try again, I will have a full breakthrough on 35mg.

I'm also a bit apprehensive to breakthrough. It's great to hear that you showed much respect to the spice and it treated you well. Last night I was on the verge but I just wasn't in the right environment to go all the way, but I do feel ready. Can't wait to read your report of your breakthrough

I have two doses of 35mg weighed out and ready for next time I hear the call. I think if I hold it in longer I can breakthrough, at least for a second. I didn't bring very much back with me except that the normal ringing in my ears can take me places.