iv been having these re-occuring expiriences with a hyper-spacial mantis like character.
the first encounter was over a year ago during the strongest aya voyage iv yet taken....
"im finding myself once again in the tunnel, that geometric vortex spiraling in both directions towards the light. the sound...the buzzing sound, the sound of a crowd gathered on the other side. of many i sence, its the mantis who captures my attention. i dont feel any ill intent from him, his presence is sterile and strange. still... i trust him"

i find myself both attracted to and repulsed by this particular presence, and by the image of the praying mantis in general.
about him...i dont feel much from him, i guess thats what i mean by sterile. he seems sterile and at the same time i feel like his presence embodies some kind of healing force. he seems like a machine or program of sorts that does simply what he is designed to do.

anyway, this re-occuring character has made a handful of appearances, generally in subtler ways, but my psyche has come to adopt the mantis as a symbol of my hyperspace.
last nights changa journey i felt this character in a different way. i didnt see him, but i felt him/it in my body...the musculature in my neck "melted" in a way that allowed my head to move and tilt freely in ways that felt very mantoid, and i became a mantis for a time. "I" didnt feel alone.
strange to hear myself say, but im begining to feel like some part of me has merged with this energy/being on some level. its making me feel uncertain about my expireinces. "is this just a temparary phase reflecting my own confusion? is this real? is this somthing im projecting? is this a good thing? a not good thing? what of my sanity?"

i guess im wondering if anyone else has expireinced and integrated or transmuted this sort of thing in their own journey with spice. i also wonder if this is somthing that is commonly expirienced in this community. at times iv gotten the sence that this is precisely the sort of thing ayahuasca/dmt does to a person, other times i just feel crazy.

...talk to me

During my first and only breakthrough experience I entered hyperspace with my friend and I got the impression that we were melting into each other, then the whole next day I was acting like him and kind of felt like him as well (of course I can't know this for sure). Very strange.

Open'nheart - you are not alone. I know exactly what you're talking about - your report sent shivers up my spine. If it helps, I don't think you're crazy. I've met and become mantoid too ...



I often experienced 'transposition of the soul' - being another being; hearing their thoughts, tasting their essence from within ... sometimes I think its the mentality of a plant consciousness - if you are in their orbit, you must be an insect, and actually the plant controls the insect chemically. I don't know; just a thought.

much love

I have not met the mantids you speak of or many clearly defined characters for that matter.

I have however experienced a feeling of becoming merged with hyperspace.
Its very abstract in one sense because I was not merged with an entity. I became merged with the geometry of hyperspace. Becoming merged to an alien reality frame work is apparently very terrifying to myself.

I think when that happens it can definitely mess with your sanity for a while . Your not alone, hang in there if your feeling a little wacky give it some time.