It is nice to be able to "share" an experience with someone. When I feel awe and euphoria, love, and laughter, I quickly find myself looking around to see who else I can share this experience with. Even if it involves just describing it to someone.
This is probably why most recreational users will dose in groups, with a friend or a couple of them. It's a nice way of getting everyone in, on the same "wavelength." The shame is, it is impossible for someone to sit in your shoes, to see what you see and feel what you feel. I say shame, because we have this need to share an experience that is practically impossible to literally share. I wish I could remove my "eyes" like binoculars and hand them to the guy next to me, so he could see what I'm "seeing." Get it
Reading other peoples experiences, adopting grading scales, reading scientific literature regarding the psychedelic or religious experience, taking notes during an experience, describing the experience to others, etc. will build your vocabulary and strengthen your skills of observation and description, and thus make your experience much more enjoyable. The experience is so much more enjoyable, when you can enjoy it with others.
p.s. I'm babbling, but I hope this
helps. I just wanted to know you aren't alone. As I post this, I hope it comes across positively, and I understood you correctly.
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