Drank a strong cup of tea last night and woke up comfortably around noon (I <3 days off), still considerably stoned and with flying tracers everywhere (oh, the MAOI...). I had cleaned The Vase of Souls and packed the bowl in preparation the night before, knowing that I would be far too incapacitated until precisely this time on the morning after to attempt to smoke.

What is there to say? I felt love. Intense love blooming everywhere through me. I saw neurons, synapses, veins and guts reaching out to touch each other, love the force that spurns their growth and binds my cells together. Love is what makes my body grow, at the most microscopic level, and I am the result, the gift. I saw how love generated all the forces and electricity in my mind.

I was enveloped completely. Visions of birth, sex, and gyrating pelvises emanated a boundless and nurturing love.

I am made of love.

I felt reborn. I felt so blessed to simply be. I felt like I had approached the sacrament, half-wondering about the possibilities of being annihilated by the unknown, and I was greeted with the warmest and most loving hug.

Bah! My words are still somewhat lacking.

It also makes me wonder: why don't we feel like this all the time? I always have such a sense of, "Yes! AHA! This is it! Everything is WORKING!" ...

I also wonder the same thing, I wish I could feel like that all the time...

You can't enjoy a beautiful sunny day if thats all you've ever known. Rainy days make the good ones even better. If we were always like that, it would be nothing like that, it would just be normal. All we can do is remember that states like that exist, and hold on to the memory until it comes again.

This mirrors a long standing philosophy of mine.
(well not mine but ive been on a though train for years with this one)

I will try to explain...

As above so below.
In Buddhism there is a philosophy that everything is contained in one thing, and that one thing is everything. I forget the term for this.

During a strong lsd experience i became aware of this in a clear moment of realization.
To experience something in is pure form, you must first see or have it, and then take it away.

It is also experienced in certain forms of music. Minimal techno or minimal repetitive music that introduces and removes layers withing a timing structure.

I would be happy if anyone understood what i just said.
Love love love!!!!

you are truly a blessing to the nexus...thank you for sharing as much and as well as you do...

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That is exactly it! That glow of simply being. Thank you for an inspiring read

Steve Reich perhaps? I think I know what you mean; I have been studying his music for the past year or so and it amazes me how the same musical phrase can take on such different aspects depending on where it is introduced in the timing scheme of the piece and how it is juxtaposed against other phrases. In that sense, then, the 'meaning' (i.e., feel) of any particular musical phrase is exquisitely dependent on what is going on around it, so while it is always repeating over and over -- always there -- it is nevertheless always changing.

I can see the tie in with the OP in that perhaps the essence of that love is always there, but its expression depends on its juxtaposition to everything else going on?

Yes .. !? what dose of Capii does that ...?! how long did you sleep - did you miss the peak ..?

But .. back to LOVE ..! Jesus is a good reminder how to make it last !

Make it last by recognizing where it comes from in our body - the Heart .. ! Laughing from the stomach ... moves energy up, frees it to turn the heart on ... But if you can't laugh all teh time, how to keep feeling it .. !?

The heart is a machine .. ! Like a hyperspace toy maker .. ! Churn Love from the Heart .. like a mana-moving washing-machine - gyrate a luminous fluid - gas or liquid - beltch it up ... make a mess of it in your imagination, then watch what happens out in reality .. ! A mess of Love can't hurt anyone - so give it away !

We are luminous, light-radiating beings ... LOVE is in that light .. ! From the root charka on up ... Get it going ..!>

I have a few 'favorite' images to feel 'More Love". There's a surge of belly-derived Love - I feel it like a belly full first - like a reservoir. Then my heart's desires make this move up. My heart spins this belly-reserve like a wondrous loom. The imagination runs that loom ! Spin your heart fast !

The laws of attraction - for me it feels like I weave my intent through my heart, with all that LOVE I got in my gut.

Love is sex ... in hyperspace it's a non physical thing, but down here for loving, we have these bodies, all geared up to induce an orgasm ... An orgasm is the BEST thing we are able to experience derived from the body .

Sex = the uniting of two separate universes =~ the bumping together and 'banging' together of two love-soaked beings leads to the Big-bang creation of another universe !

The white-out of an orgasm, or the multiple white-outs even, are the closest I know to the dmt-orgasm ... the Beingasm. These two experiences reach a similar place, although in sex it's 'convulsive' extasy with just instants of peaking - a rock skipping across a pond that sinks again. A well dosed Beingasm lasts, and is a navigable experience ... whether you reach the white light or not - you'll be drenched in LOVE !

... There are entities that always gyrate their crotches at me ! Waving so so speak - they'll wiggle their crotch in a hoola-hoop way and then laughing at me they all do a humpa-humpa move to remind me "Go do more of this." These gumby-family entities most often appear as a circle of dancing light-beings - but sex is the message - Go Do More Sex !

So spin, gyrate, weave and wonder anything from your heart - that just pulls up more LOVE for you to share !

I love you El Ka Bong

I think you can feel that way all the time... I did for many years... still working on clearing things out from some serious wounds... but even today I can turn the love light on when I need it or more often then not when some one else needs it the most. I think it takes living a way of life that is very contrary to the way of life that is encouraged in western society, which is why it feels so hard to walk around with your heart open all day long. I think the real work is the transformation of our society so that we can heal the social blocks that prevent us from feeling that love alllll the TIME.
I noticed as soon as I started playing into the rat race... trying to feel more security thats when that feeling of love and that feeling of guidance from the whole became much less strong.
You can see why leary said, "tune in, turn on, drop out!"

That which is void is precisely form. That which is form is precisely void.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dLrMVous0Ac

I wish i'd read this thread before.
It brings back nice feelings.

Beautiful post Ms. Minxx. You are made of love and even if you don't feel it, I am sure that you are always projecting it.

Interesting post!



A superb insight - I think this is one of the lessons that DMT eventually brings to everyone who partakes in it!

The general tone of this thread reminds me of the k-hole. In my experience of it, I dissolved into unity and then the thought came, that every single last unit of energy in the universe is a conception of the divine love. From the perspective of the divine, I thought/felt that this love shall be preserved irrespective of the wishes of the individual units, and if the individual units do anything to oppose this motion of preservation, they are then denied love, so they then disintegrate, perhaps into a form more appreciative of divine love.

If you wish to feel loving perpetually, then BE loving and then feel the love that is thrown back at you tenfold from all directions. The more love that goes around, the more love that comes around. We as humans are bestowed with the ability to choose to give love or withold it but also, the love is what keeps us powered (after all, the love from the divine is what gives us the meals on our plate). Consider that irrespective of what you do, you are expending energy. Now if you are a loving person, your expenditure of energy is directed towards amplifying the presence of love on a daily basis.

Persons that withhold the love expend their energy in an unfavourable direction. Regardless, the energy is going to be expended, so it may as well be directed lovingly because the latter path eventually causes more energy to be expended than is put in, it is an inefficient system. On the other hand, loving vibes lead directly to more efficient expenditure of energy because everyone involved is more willing to work within time to give others their due measure, safe in the knowledge that they will get their due measure when it comes to their time.

Love reminds me of negentropy.

embracethevoid: you speak as if love/hate would be our choice...

I seriously doubt there is a human being who would choose hate when love is a viable option.

I find that seeing and believing the viability of love - under all circumstances - is a very difficult thing.

Are you having a laugh? Look at the destruction around you, do you really think that this is a consequence of everyone choosing love each and every time?

Now you are correct in saying, what human being would choose hate when love is a viable option? And the answer is thus, a psychopath. Naturally inhibited from knowing what love is, they blaze a trail of destruction wherever they go. In their world, there is no such thing as people, just objects. Which would be a good way to view the world (as it would inevitably lead to empathy) but one cannot see objective reality fully with human limitations.

As for actual human beings with empathy, let me give you an example. You are in a fight with someone over hard drugs. You have them cornered and at their weakest, already bloodied and battered, sprawled in a heap on the floor, they cannot fend for themselves. Now you have a gun in your hand, and you have a choice between hate and love. To shoot the fucker in the head or not to shoot the fucker in the head. What happens the overwhelming majority of the time? That nigga gets a cap in his ass, that's what. And thus, yet another subject of the human experiment is lost, and decades of work in bringing that person up come to no fruitition.

Love is possible no matter what. It's just that when there is the presence of hate, one has to make an unreasonable sacrifice to carry on loving, so it tends to be counteracted with hate.

The way I think of it, complete unconditional love requires eternity, or at least a very long time as one can then take their time to give someone else what they want and get in return. However, this world is fleeting, we only have however many years on Earth and then we die. So we all struggle to get to the top of the food chain and live the nicest life possible, and in doing so, we trample over others. However if it was loving all the way through then there would be no need to trample. Of course, we learn lessons in love through the destruction caused by hatred.

What religions try to do is to kill off the hatred and promote the love. Hatred only really comes from the idea that there is a scarcity of resources. Hatred arises when people are blind to reason, to objective reality. A shining example are islamic terrorists - the chant of "God is the greatest" and then thousands of innocent lives are lost/damaged. The people that execute these things have been conditioned such that they are blind to what they are saying, if they stopped for a second and thought about why "God is the greatest" then surely they wouldn't push the damn button.

I think that in extreme situations - like that fight over hard drugs you mentioned or religious fundamentalism - it's quite easy to go for the good and choose love. But those extreme situations - where the decision between good and bad is so clearly cut, when it is so "in your face" - are relatively rare, at least in my life.

What I have problems with are the everyday things: sharing love with my family, my children, my wife, my co-workers... I find that much harder. And when love comes, it comes unconditionally, in waves. It comes, then it goes. I cannot sustain it. (If I try, then I create a substitute, a "pseudo-love", which is the greatest bad I know of.)