My first trip on the spice, i was so happy with myself that i had managed to extract it that while scaping up i decided to load a (approx) 40mg dose. immediately after taking the hit i felt a surge of fear washing over me. i called out to my brother who came into my room and turned off the music and closed the blind (bright sunlight was shining into my room). what i can remember of the actual trip is being shown all sorts of geometric shapes that expanded the way my mind thinks, then at the end 3 beings leant towards me the same way those childrens books open up with the 3d cutout that emerges from the book. they whispered some secret to me that i cannot recall, but maybe it effected my subconscious?
the second trip's (30mg one-two doses) was basically me being in a conference with these 3 spikey beings then being shown a geometrical infinity similar to this:
http://fc03.deviantart.n...lash_by_SalviaAntics.gif but zoomed right into the spiral then zooming out. This caused me to roll around in laughter and sexual energy.
Then this last trip. this last trip. well. wtf happened. i took 30mg, without herbs at the bottom so i probably got around 15mg effective dose, i saw just one geometric shape which reminded me of set/setting and how to prepare correctly for dmt. upon coming out of this i meditated for a bit, calmed myself then loaded 60mg and smoked it properly this time, instantly the electricity generated this diamond shape that was pink-yellow and blue and vibrating. it caused an eruption of thought that went through everthing in my life, from my affection towards bong smoking, work mates, and to my current level of social integration. after coming out of this trip i wanted to put some more music on, then i got out of of my bed and everything seemed blurry but sober, i could understand everything that was going on. thats when my hands turned completely blurry and i felt as though i had an amazing object in my hands and started to fumble it as my hands and arms melted and disappeared into blurry everythingness. i looked around my room and immediately collapsed back onto my bed, breathing the electricity in again and going through another trip without another dose.... afterwards, I sat up in my bed then concentrated on my breathing pattern and the sounds everything in my body produced. This induced another mental trip about what i have done what im doing and what im going to do [with my life]. during all of this i felt such an urge to get naked and feel free and be loose. after the tripping was done i played some good hip hop and felt in such a good vibe that i wanted to go out to where a mate of mine was partying. as i left my house it was like i was being taught something. The mate i was going to go see was right out the front of my house, he was racing off to break up a fight which involved another good mate, then everything went crazy and more violence started. it was like i was being shown how much better it is to be positive! how easy is it to just think positive and be positive, manifest positive things. my whole life and environment. it depended on myself, my experience is only what i want it to be. my existence is what i want it to be.
EDIT: i remembered more about my 60mg trip. As i was being blasted with this diamond pattern it kind of went transparent and next thing i know im standing in this room (which was just like a big living room in a house with a breakfast bar) with loud music, flashing lights, and a couple of entities who came walking in from other parts of the house.. as i sort of realised what was going on i didn't know what to do i was taken away.. everything was just too good to be true.. i had so much to live for it was a feeling that i can only equate to "Fwwwwwaaaaah". as i said before the amount of life issues that i was presented with as the electricity of the trip was coming is just unfathomable. it was like a whole "way of life" was explained to me in a split second. even now im still blown away by this experience im so much more positive now and i feel really sociable.
Sir Terrence McKenna: "and what is real: is you, and your friends, and your associations, your highs, your orgasms your hopes your plans your fears... and were told. no. we're unimportant, we're peripherial. get a degree, get a job, get a this, get a that. and then your a player, (but) you dont even want to play that game? (well) you want to re-claim your mind and get it out of the hands of the cultural engineers: who want to turn you into a half-baked moron consuming all this trash thats being manufactured out of the bones of a dying world. ¿where is that at?"
"But now technology throws a curve. and the curve is that we live so long, that we figure out what a scam this is. we figure out that what your supposed to work for isn't worth having, we figure out that our politicians are buffoons, we figure out that professional scientists are reputation building gravitating weasels. we discover that all organizations are corrupted by ambition. we figure. it. out... and as you come to see that you are alienated you realise that culture is not your friend."