SWIM felt the call this evening, and as it came stronger and stronger, her body began to quiver with fear of the ego-death. She decided to acclimate herself by finishing off any residues remaining in her Machine. The first draw, though full, brought nothing but body load. She communicated her thanks to the DMT intelligence, and thought tonight she wouldn't go for a breakthrough. After about 5 minutes of laying there, she felt the call to try the Machine again. This time, breakthrough. But a breakthrough so gentle, so touching like a caress.

Entering the space, she realized how much of what we all bring back from there only reflects metaphor for something completely unspeakable. An entity performed surgery on her head and spine, with amazingly complicated instruments. Yet at the same time, no entity, no surgery, something completely unknown.

SWIM has seen many times the mention of starting with a low dose and then moving on to a breakthrough level, and felt it did not accord with her spirit. With this new experience, she can only thank the wisdom and love provided here at the Nexus. Even if not intelligent enough to try these things right away, she happily admits her ignorance in the aftermath. All love, light and gratitude to each of you.