Setup:
THH + enough DMT,
not really in a positive mood,
bad stomach, i think the fast-food pizza wasn't good
+ watched a bad movie.

My mind was still busy with the movie and i think i had a little food posioning to deal with.

It started like that:
I felt centered, really warm feeling in the stomach.
I saw, that I'm not in control of my mind, so I regained control. Once I did that, I left my past behind me.
I decided to be herenow, without the influence of my past.

Then some weird dream began, where I escaped from one "thing" to get to another. Hard to describe that part, but it was a very terrible mindgame which made me crazy.

At some point I was sure, that this made me mentally sick and I have to go to the madhouse in reallife.
Because I'm so fked up in my illusion, and have no sense for reality anymore.


My stomach hurt even more and I spent a few minuites leaving the lights on and concentrating on reality.

After about 1 hour, things got better. My stomach didn't hurt anymore and I finally came down of that unpleasent experience.
I got some sleep.

Today, I still think, this experience had something good! This regaining control of my mind and be free of my suffering in the past released something.

I just can't say what exactly, but I feel more centered and more aware.

Maybe it was just because of my bad stomach.

Osho had at least a dozen Rolls Royces, and you are what you eat.

WTF


what do you mean?

I know I'm not supposed to eat such bad food. I mostly don't. I eat healthy whenever i can. But sometimes I'm just too lazy.

That's an interesting statement tough.

I saw your signature and just had to say it.
http://www.google.com/se...ial&client=firefox-a

get to watch This
There he explains the rolls royces

It was just a marketing gag, these rolls royces.

He didn't need that many, 1 would have been enough.

Nobody would have been that interested in him, if he didn't have these cars.
Some insider knowledge: The cars didn't even belong to him. A car holding was the owner and he was just lending them from this holding.

Osho himself never possesed a thing.

Hi Mr_DMT,

Sorry to hear about your difficult experience. Sounds like you learned/took a lot from it though. Watch those oral psychedelics and food in general, I usually say - fasting can yield very positive results. Also, I am positive that people (myself included) have trying experiences if we journey in too much pain/discomfort.

I am glad you emerged with good feelings and ideas on what went wrong . . .

Peace & Love,
Pandora

What? That was your first and only bad trip? Out of how many?



Out of curiosity - how much?



I can relate to that. That's a VERY familiar feeling. Maybe because most of SWIM's trips were bad and a some were horrible . Seems to be quite common theme in bad trips.



At the end (at +3h) SWIM was overwhelmed by a feeling of wonder of how infinitely flexible her brain is. How strange, deep and complex idea it can produce. Unfortunately there is no recollection of the ideas themselves.

I never use the term bad trip.

It's more a difficult learning experience but the outcome is so much greater than that of my "great experiences" for one reason or another, mainly because it forces you to live through your own idea of a Hell and once you return you are glad to be here, now.

It's a forced appreciation, as I like to think of it, yet it is quite meaningful.

Good vibes.

Of course, you're right. These difficult experiences are by far much more memorable, thought-provoking and conducive to self-analysis. They definitely point to some serious inner problems. It is just SWIM would like to have a really good one for a change.

@Trickster
I took about 1.5 ml of THH + ~120-150 mg of DMT which is still gooey wet.

Wise words are wise words no matter how many cars the person who said them owned.