Last night i sat in silent darkness with my VG full of changa and said.. this time im goin for it, no holding back... and i blazed hoot after hoot, wanting to see how far i could take it.

the same image came back into my head as when i freaked out on pharma.. a strange collage of hands, eyeballs, striped posts and other wierd transforming objects... this image is in ultra high definition, ultra detailed and when im viewing it as it twists and turns im overwhelemed by fear , i open my eyes and everything is distorted and super crazy looking and im still freaking out , thinking im dieing.

when i close my eyes i see this thing again bight wite and blue in color and the fear is incredible....

what is this thing and why is it soo scary to me.... im left with more questions than answers.

Can't say I know what it is. When hyperspace gets scary, sometimes it helps to just accept it as "strange" and see what it's all about. Sometimes it's not an option to take it any other way than you already are and you are supposed to be scared, so accept it for what it is and smile.

Antrocles' words, "Love and Gratitude" have helped me in some seriously fucked up times in hyperspace. Just repeating the words in my mind as calmly as I could helped quite a lot.

So: smile and receive with love and gratitude, an excellent formula

I've encountered something like this when the fear and doubt takes over and it was quite an annoying block for a few trips. Calming the adrenaline before going in helps. It basically manifests occasionally once any hint of doubt, fear, and anxiety about what is going to happen while in the come up is allowed to grow and take over my mind, then im stuck in a loop staring at this thing until i let go. During one breakthrough a jester was going about showing me some machinery at that film-fast-forward speed of hyperspace when I suddenly thought of that weird object while simultaneously questioning this beings intentions. In the instant the thought occurred the being came at me with this "collage of hands"- as you said, which i think describes it pretty well since it appeared to simply be moving its hands around at light speed in front of itself so fast it looked as though he had an actual object in his hands. So it came at me doing this and then went back to what it was doing in the blink of an eye and the overall vibe was that it was a joke to say "calm down you paranoid monkey. Relax, I'm not out to get you. There is no reason for fear here"


"what is this thing and why is it soo scary to me.... im left with more questions than answers."

Thats normal! There is usually more questions acquired than answers from a dmt trip
As for the fear, try thoroughly relaxing before hand..focus on letting go of it and giving into the experience. You can't remain in fear of the unknown, just gotta let go the need to know. Pump love through your cells! It works!

It may be worth reflecting on why you find this frightening. What is it in particular that brings on the fear? If you can get a handle on that within yourself, I'd say you'll be able to work through it. I had fear on one occasion where They explained exactly what fear was, and why we have it. So they really helped me through it; but I had to spend a lot of time beforehand thinking about what it was I was afraid of.