here is a little blurb i pulled out of my book i'm working on. i've been wanting to post up something on the evolution of my relationship with "the carrier wave". this is probably longer than anything i've ever posted, but it's an interesting concept that i hope you will all enjoy...
for those who are willing to plug away and read it all, i thank you from the bottom of my heart and would love to hear anything you'd like to say. this book has been a wonderful experience for me....i've got almost 30,000 words so far and i'd estimate that my first rough draft is about 80% done!!
thank you, ALL of you for the support and inspiration to even try to do this...
WITH THE DEEPEST LOVE AND GRATITUDE!!
‘THE CARRIER WAVE’ AND A THEORY ON CONSCIOUSNESS….The universe was once a whole. Everything complete. Nothing separate.
Some would even say it was nothing…and they might be just as correct.
Everything. Nothing. When all that exists is one, with no separation, there is no way to tell the difference.
For a reason our minds are hard-wired to never know, this wholeness decided to do something that, looking at it from a theoretical vantage, looked a lot like a game.
It exploded itself into an impossible infinity of tiny shards. The smallest detectible aspects of itself sent in all possible directions. An expansion would need to simultaneously take place to accommodate such an event. Perhaps this is very reason for the expansion of the universe that scientists have recently proven to be fact. Perhaps in order for a “whole” to be destroyed and reformed, a greater space must be concurrently rent from the very fabric from which that whole was woven.
For some reason, I am reminded of a doctor preparing a needle for injection. With the bottle of solution in one hand, the doctor pulls back the plunger on the syringe to create an empty space in the chamber. He then plunges the needle into the rubber top of the bottle and first injects the tiny bubble of air into the solution. This causes a pressure within the bottle, which in turn facilitates the rapid vacuum suction of the solution into the syringe as the plunger is once again pulled out. Creating an extra amount of “space” within the bottle that was already seemingly full sets into motion the ability for the liquid contents to actively migrate from one “container” into another.
Maybe we are simply doing this. Maybe, as all energy MUST move and never be static, we are simply a universe that must migrate into another universe. This parallel universe that is being simultaneously formed to maintain a “vacuum” that provides a gentle “suction” that keeps us moving. When we have effectively become whole in this next universe, our old one will at that exact moment die. This will cause an implosion that will create- you guessed it- more space and more vacuum.
And away we go again. Big Bang. The game continues. Like an expensive watch on an automatic winder, we are gently succussed back and forth between ever-dying and re-born universes.
Ebb and flow. Yin and Yang. Night and Day. The duality that begets all that is.
This game is simple. From so many splintered shards of self, we must recognize our oneness. We must start small, form tiny chains of similar selves we easily recognize. But eventually we must begin to take risks and join with larger groups rather than individuals, all the while with an eye on wholeness. Like a tray full of bubbles we migrate into one another forming an ever-enlarging single bubble.
Envision a simple amoeba. It’s few, simple components are all comprised of atoms linked together. The food vacuole, the nucleus, the cell membrane, the mitochondria, ribosomes and endoplasmic reticulum….each of these components are a case study in teamwork by the very atoms that have grouped to the task of “being” that component. What is impressive is not only their ability to align, get along and agree to work together to be that component, but their awareness of the other groups that have joined to form the other components. Not only is there a conscious directive that makes their immediate task relevant, but this very same directive has the ability to ensure that the totality of ALL groups will eventually all link up to create a “living” molecular machine that can now convey this conscious directive more efficiently.
At this point in our evolution (and by “our” I do mean THE UNIVERSE), we have come this far: the tiny little atoms have figured out that buy joining in groups, it is possible to create molecular machines (humans) much more able to efficiently convey their great desire to return to wholeness. Through language and rapidly growing means of communicating with EVERYONE (the internet), we can now unite with other machines in a way that is far faster and more efficient than simply trying to come together one atom at a time.
So- assuming that we as humans are nothing more than giant groups of atoms aligned to a single purpose of getting back to the whole, how then does this explain our individual personalities and our frustrating ability to go AGAINST that prime directive? How does it make space for what we perceive to be our individuality?
It is my belief that our egos are a part of this “game” I referred to earlier. If all atoms were completely self-aware from the very instant they were separated, they would simply come back together in the next instant. No- there has to be a caveat. There has to be something that makes this process matter. Perhaps, even, in the name of perpetuating and increasing this 'snowball effect' vacuum…
Consider- atoms are like the most single-minded person you ever met. You know-, the guy who can only do ONE thing at a time. Complete focus. Now, when an atom aligns itself to a purpose, it is no longer able to do anything other than radiate it’s oneness vibration through that which it has aligned to create. It is my feeling that the “inner voice” or the “conscience” we often discuss in philosophy is this low-level hum of desire produced by our very building blocks. However now, as was the case when those very first atoms were waking up to their true nature, we are required to “turn on” these vehicles we are driving around in. We must attain self-awareness before we can fully operate these machines in the way they are capable of operating.
We are now like a single atom ourselves. The planet is the greater entity. We must, like components of an amoeba, align ourselves into groups that can harmonize and optimize our unique frequency while keeping an eye on finding other groups that we can join with towards greater, broader transformation.
Bubbles migrating into one another, like a giant puzzle that must be put together in a certain order. When a great enough momentum is produced, a conscious shift will take place. The planetary consciousness will awaken like a child being born. We will be a beautiful part of something much greater. Something that will be charged with the collective consciousness of all life upon it that has, is and will be contributing to it’s very ‘language’. We, as one, will now be a greater sum of our individual components and will be able to communicate with other consciousness that has reached this level. Other civilizations, other worlds that have woken up… ‘alien contact’, as we seek so desperately to make it, could be eagerly standing by, hopefully awaiting interactions with us.
But until we can speak the planetary language of a consciousness that has united and seen it’s oneness, we can neither speak nor understand what is there to be learned.
This is how I have come to see the CARRIER WAVE. It is a communication from an intelligence that has evolved beyond individual thought. It is a form of information download that is the amalgam of all thought and consciousness of an entire world(s). How can anyone, as an individual, understand such a transmission? It is beyond one person’s ability to simply learn it. It is the responsibility of all earthlings to first learn to communicate as a whole if we are to be able to share with an intelligence that has reached this point in it’s ability to convey information. And believe me: beyond emotion, beyond theory, beyond desire, and beyond all rational assessment…Hyperspace is simply a linking with pure information on a level that we are hungry to share but unable to actualize from where we currently stand as a planetary being.
Why continue to expose yourself to it then? Well….this is one of those “you have to experience it to understand” situations…
When I first began to work with DMT, the carrier wave was as alien to me as a fax transmission. Extremely powerful but in truth, nothing more than absolute chaotic noise in which my mind could make no purchase. Like driving on a highway at 20mph, any car that blows by you at 100 is nothing more than a blur. However, through steady, consistent work with the molecule my speed has increased a little. The car blows by me a little slower now. I am actually able to see that there are people in the car…
I know in my heart that I will one day be able to, at the very least, make a moment’s eye-contact and wave…
As my journeys grow, I have found myself less and less distracted by the amazing visual spectacle and more desirous of the carrier wave that seems to be the origin of all that I see. The sound that is beyond sound. The sound that creates thought and things…THIS is what the truest communication is. Every time I hear it, it is slowed down and more deliberate. For me, it is beyond a theory that this intelligence WANTS to communicate. It WANTS to help those who would be willing to go beyond such a limited, crude form of existence. I have never felt that something was in my corner so potently as I do with DMT. It feels kind of like the Universe gave you it's own personal phone number and now all you have to do is figure out how to understand the answering machine. Before I die, I would love to, at the very least, be able to figure out...
“….leave a message after the beep.”
BEEEEEEEEEEEEP……..What would YOU say?
"Rise above the illusion of time and you will have tomorrow's
wisdom today."