lunar-context,
Welcome to the Nexus. I am so glad you found us and decided to sign up. You sound like you are in a decent place to explore the DMT realms. You have gained some years, experience and maturity of perspective.
Though you mention mental anguish. I would counsel caution. DMT is very powerful medicine and if you are not ready to face that head on and in an amped up, in your face kind of way, DMT may not be the answer.
There are no guarantees, just surprises and more questions.
I would recommend getting a good mg scale, starting with a low dose and if you like it slowly titrating up, a few mgs at a time.
I look forward to hearing more from you and again offer you a warm welcome.
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