Good to hear from you BD! Thank you for your feedback.
Relative to finding direction in my meditations, I've noticed the same confidence issue where I simply feel that I cannot do what I'd like, like sitting in focused meditation, so in turn sometimes just stay in the space. That has been changing recently however.
While I still enjoy rue with cannabis for meditation on occasion, I've become more partial to smoking a full spectrum rue extract with cannabis that has only produced beneficial and preferred benefits and experience. I don't do this all the time however, as I find it important to be able to meditate raw without any external sources to influence the ritual.
My friend and I are definitely still in touch and perhaps closer as a result of having lost contact for a time. Among the things that I took for granted were the ways in which my mind work, like the automatic remembrance of information. I am now training my memory and working towards old good habits.
I thank you for the links. Will be sure to check them out
One love
Edit: Another thing that I feel has added to this experience is an increasing sense of being overwhelmed. It tends to be constant and extends to cognitive dissonance. I'm not sure how to mitigate and regulate this yet. But I'm working on it, along with confidence, inner value, and self trust. We all want our minds to work well right?
What if the "truth" is: the "truth" is indescernible/unknowable/nonexistent? Then the closest we get is through being true to and with ourselves.
Know thyself, nothing in excess, certainty brings insanity- Delphic Maxims
DMT always has something new to show you
Question everything... including questioning everything... There's so much I could be wrong about and have no idea...
All posts and supposed experiences are from an imaginary interdimensional being. This being has the proclivity and compulsion for delving in depths it shouldn't. Posts should be taken with a grain of salt. 👽