Hi,
so my intro essay did not get a single comment which kinda really hurts, a bummer so i just added a post below to kind of tickle the issue but there is a huge wall of text there.

But i grabbed control of things like i was designed and built to do and solved all of my problems as i moved on from college life into adult life. there i found a great home, and getting my life set just so. But what i did not know is that i never solved the problems, no what i did was bring in some new circumstances that were much more tolerable. So as my adult life has completely fallen apart those underlying issues were there waiting for me! THEY are reliable, they show up for me, they are always around me...

So let me stop right here and not create a wall of text but just simply state that:
i have tons of experience living as a high functioning drug addict, perhaps i can help someone.
i am an engineer so i am good at solving problems, and i love helping people, perhaps i can help design something or solve a problem, i have a bunch of ideas for this group
i have done just that for my entire career and have a good reputation for solving difficult problems that teams of others could not - no exaggeration this has happened a couple dozen times over my career.

I would like to start posting in the forums as i have some questions that i would love to ask
i am currently um, uh, "brewing" up some soups lately and i have questions about some things regarding cactus, ACRB and the associated teks, etc... so it would be awesome if i could get that status of "a person that has posting rights"

I have been a reader of this forum's content since 2012, maybe even earlier - i started with Erowid and after i read ALL of Erowid i set out to find some new resources such as the Shroomery, BlueLight, and others.

I can solve problems, for example i also posted in a "hobby" forum just a week ago but in the very first day people were pinging the heck out of me to ask ME questions! Somehow it came through that i knew what i was talking about and it was all on my first day with no status, no reputation, no one knew my name,.. that felt great for a change! Has not happened in a while.

Heck, this is my biggest issue: if anyone is HIRING FOR WORK and you are lookin' for someone that has TRUE expert expertise in TPS/lean manufacturing I am your #1 choice for sure! I can help entire sites/divisions to go through a lean transformation, every step, every detail i will get you there. I will make you a boatload of money all the while making your company the best place to work according to your employees. I am going to be one of your BEST choices!!! (Shameless??? no DESPERATE!)

So, any thoughts? I just would be nice to hear from people that can understand what i have been and/or am going through? i Have a specific question on a simple ISO cactus extraction with unexpected results and i want to know what i got? CHEERS!

Hello to you, and welcome to the nexus.

I don't want you to feel abandoned, though I don't have much to offer, to speak directly.

One thing that stands out to me, for many folks whom the forum has just discovered, is that feeling/desire/need to get the promotion to full membership.
I just suggest maybe there's not such a big need to emphasize that.
Please post any comments and questions, there are plenty of moderators that will put your posts in the appropriate places.
Try to be patient. Ask good/educated/researched/fresh/interesting questions, make the same kind of comments and suggestions.

It sounds like you have lots to offer and lots to question, you'll likely fit in fine.
But sometimes it takes a minute to get to know a body.

I can't help you in a job search. I'm still in recovery after a 40 year career. I think I'm going to be fine, but it's still a day at a time. (Smile).

You are probably right about the wall of text.
Sometimes less is more.

Again, welcome, it's nice to have you.

Hi Abandoned! I hope you feel welcome in this community. Please participate in the topics you find interesting and contribute with your thoughts.

It seems like you have had a rough ride in life. As someone whose difficulties have been much more modest and ordinary I lack the words and it feels more adequate to just be still and listen. Of course that's difficult to convey on a platform that's based on textual communication. Don't take that as a sign of neglect!

This is a beautiful community and a plenty of growth, with people from many backgrounds. I'm we have a place for you too!

Oh! Well hey there again

I find it beautiful how much you want to help others. But I think it's important to impart the idea of truly valuing yourself for yourself and not relying on others to value and validate you and your work to feel your own inner worth. This is easier said than done, but it can help you still find solace even when you're away from the things that positively impacted your self worth.

Feel free to ask any questions you like. If I'm not mistaken, you should be able to post in any specific thread in any specific subforum, you just can't start new threads in most of them until you are promoted. If a thread related to a question is not presently extant, start a new thread where you can and shoot me a PM and I'll move it for you.

Take your time here. Finding your way of positively impacting this community takes time and familiarity with the goings-on. People tend to need help with teks, so familiarizing yourself with them in a well versed manner may be fitting for you.

And to alleviate some of the pain you feel from not having many responses to your initial post, something similar happened to me as well. It's really okay and nothing to read into.

It may be helpful for you to curtail your sense of desperation. I find it usually tends to dig us into deeper ruts by muddying and clouding our thinking, precipating hurriedness and unrealistic expectations. Again, another one that's easier said than done.

You have support here. Just be open, receptive, and patient.



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