I feel the need to share this even if only for myself. Tonight I smoked some weak changa that was made using Mullein, a high percentage of passion flower and some damiana. The DMT content was a mix of various yields. One addition had been 300mg from a good pull. Also I had been cleaning out all the pyrex dishes and drying plates with alcohol and then adding that to the changa pot for quite a while. Even a few times adding some dissolved oily residues.
In the end I have no idea the ratio in the blend other than it was a great mix over a long period, not anywhere near 1:1, finally dried and ready to smoke.
I smoked in a pipe probably 8-9 times over an hour and a half. The onset was so gentle and loving. It felt like a constant flirting rather than a straight dive in. Everything was subtle. I never felt I was being taken for the ride like other experiences. More like I was the driver. Managing to keep in DMT world permanently for the duration. But never so far gone that I couldn't load the pipe or call in to reality if needed.
I will spare most of the detailed descriptions as I am a rookie still and I know many of us will understand before I even need to start explaining.
At one time there were forces reaching out and touching me. Pulling me towards them,some gently caressing me, others frantically grasping at me. There were loving emotions and darkness at different times. But I managed to smile everytime the darkness reached out for me, even laugh, and they subsided everytime with a sort of dejected acceptance that I was not to be controlled this time.
Towards the end I was learning to manipulate the visuals, play with focus in my eyes. Closed eyes fun, then open eyes fun.
I think it must have been the high percentage of passion flower that made each smoke come on so slowly and last for a good long time.
Every other DMT experience before this had always been geometric and fractal and bright. But this time was earthy and beautiful and soft around the edges. Hard to explain. So many distinct chapters to the journey. A wonderful moment of staring at my hand bursting with soft, yellow stars and changing dramatically in sizes.
Not even close to explaining myself here really. But what a wonderful molecule. Totally different experience than ever before. The hardest part was forcing myself to say 'last one' and stick to it, finally allowing myself to come down.
When I was back I went and ate a whole bowl of delicious food.
I don't know much, but I do know this. With a golden heart comes a rebel fist.