First of all i would like to say, that i did use a few curse words in my questionnaire, i hope its not a problem. When i was reading the "attitude", i took it as "dont insult anyone", but if NO curse words are allowed, then im sorry.
So, i come from shroomery. I love mushrooms, and not only the magic ones, but all mushrooms. Im a mycophile. I have a lot of love for other living things too - bugs, vegetables, fermenting bacteria and so on. So that is the kind of person i am. English is also my second language, so im sorry for my awkward wording and such. Im not very into drugs anymore, i take mushrooms maybe 1-2 a year and thats pretty much it. Buut...
Recently i managed to extract some spice (with the help of some amazing people on shroomery) and had my first few experiences with it, which fascinated me a lot. I didnt manage to break through, so i made a second thread on shroomery. I regret doing it, because it turned into a... um... poo-show? Egos clashed. A few members on there recommended this site (Fridge being one of them, hi dude!), so here i am.
I think i will chronologically summarize my dmt experiences now. I welcome ANY feedback, since im very new to this and im still trying to make sense of dmt. I already posted all these reports (except the last one, which happened today) on shroomery, so if you already read it by chance, then skip it (although i did rewrite this for it to feel more coherent)
1. wetting my toes (about 3 weeks ago)
I made some enhanced leaf and aimed for about 15-25mg. I loaded it into my old little bubbler bong (i stopped smoking weed like 4 years ago). My hands were shaking and heart was beating fast. I tried to hold it as long as possible, but i couldnt, because i felt like i was drowning and had to gasp for air. I was having a small panic attack. After i exhaled, i laid down and observed what was happening to me. There was spacial distortion and everything was vibrating. My thoughts were introspective and pleasant. There was a very strange feeling in my body, but i could not focus on that very well, because of the panic attack going on. I remember listening to interlude by my sleeping karma, which was extremely trippy, for a lack of a better word. After i fully came back, i felt quite silly for panicking so much, but it was a great first experience
2. all eating darkness (about 2 weeks ago)
2a.
I loaded equivalent of 30mg of enhanced leaf into my old bong. After i took the hit, i felt sharp spike in blood pressure and like i was about to faint. My vision started vibrating and i felt like drowning again. My whole body was "tingling" and i had this vertigo-like feeling. I genuinely felt like i was about to pass out, so i set my bong aside and laid down. I watched this purple mandala above my bed shifting and morphing. I was saying to myself "oh shit, here we go", but the effects only declined from there. At first, i was glad it wasnt more intense, but then the worm of dissatisfaction started gnawing at me.
2b.
I loaded the rest of my enhanced leaf, which along with the unsmoked remnants of my first attempt could have been between 50-60mg. I stretched a bit and took some deep breaths to quell the anxiety. I took the first hit and held it, looking around for visuals. Then i felt the blood pressure starting to spike again. I took a second hit and watched my hands holding the bong and the smoking cherry. Vision was starting to vibrate and i found myself taking panicked, sharp breaths, because i again felt like drowning. Then i looked into the room and locked eyes with this guy, who used to belong to my father.
Everything around him started warping, vibrating and turned green/yellow (its always these colors for me). Then i could no longer make out objects. Im not sure if i then took another hit. The next thing i remember was me half sitting-half laying on my bed. Im not sure if i opened my eyes or projected myself in my mind, but everything around me was black and my body was barely visible, and glowing a soft blue glow. I moved myself into a more comfortable position somehow.
At this point, i was not really comprehending where i am or what is happening to me. I was scared and i remember wishing this would end. There was a thought "what if this will last forever", but then i remembered im on dmt and it has a glorious duration of only a couple of minutes, which calmed me down. I heard my music from a distance and there were other sounds, a bit like humming voices. During all this i was watching this closed eye visual, which looked a bit like this, but more symmetric and not as shitty. See those grooves on the outer edges? I drew 3, but there was like 10, so it was more of a grid pattern. The background was black, and the pattern was flowing in soft colors.
The thing that surprised me about this experience was the darkness. I was expecting colorful kaleidoscopic imagery, not a black void. I dont regret this experience at all, im glad i did it.
3. Vaporizing session (a week ago)
I made the machine, with the purpose of vaporizing dmt. I was called out for making a crack pipe on shroomery, but it still provided a very interesting experience. On this day i smoked dmt 4-5 times in a row. First i aimed for 30mg, later for 50mg, tho i must say i was probably burning it a bit. I dont remember much from this experience, because it was this long, psychedelic meditation and i was loosing the track of my thoughts. I wanted to break through on this day, but that wasnt happening. I made a thread on shroomery about this experience and my trouble breaking through, and that turned into a big poo-show. Its still going if you want to take a peek. The keyword would be "clueless". I can provide a link if you want, but you should be able to find it pretty easily. Anyway, some people recommended i try layering, saying they have the best results with it, which brings us to:
4. The encrypted pile of puke (an hour ago, lol)
So, as the name suggests, this was not the best of experiences, but i have no regrets, haha. I loaded a bit of tagetes lucida into my bong, sprinkled in some dmt (maybe 30mg?) and added a bit more tagetes lucida on top. I set everything up, took some deep breaths to calm myself down and took the hit. I cleared the whole bowl in one hit. I immediately started to feel the spice kicking in. I was thinking to myself "and here we go"... but then i exhaled. The smoke irritated my throat and i half exhaled, half coughed. Just as everything was turning blurry and patterns started emerging, i felt a ball in my throat. I dont know if i imagined it, or i actually coughed up something vile. I tried to swallow it, but that was not happening. I tried to cough it out completely, but that only made things worse. I started panicking about the possibility that i will choke and die, haha. I stood up, everything extremely was blurry, and i leaned forward. I knew what was about to happen only a split second before i projectile vomited all over my floor. It got onto my pants, socks, under the table... it was actually impressive how big the puddle was. I immediately felt better and watched the pile of puke in awe, because it was swirling around and turning into this elaborate mandala. I could almost make out some unreadable, encrypted letters in there. It felt like it was trying to tell me something, haha. Then i puked again, making the already large and impressive puddle even larger and more impressive. The shape completely changed and that amazed me.
I then sat down on my bed, contemplating my life choices and realized, that im not going anywhere right now. So i got up and started cleaning up the puke. What was very strange was that as soon as i told myself im not going to continue, i felt myself becoming sober very quickly. After about 5 minutes from taking the hit, i was pretty much all back, only the tiniest amount of visuals remained. That seems bizzare to me.
Anyway, thats that, my experiences with dmt so far. Im glad i joined this community, because from what i see so far, it is a good one. I have to say that the homepage impressed me a lot. Whoever made it did a great job! So, if anyone has anything to say, dont be a stranger, i would love to hear some feed back and get to know some of you.
Everyone have a great day! Or night, depending on where you are from.
