Hello. I’ve been a member since 2018 but I seldom post. A few years ago I took an interest in psychedelics because I heard some podcast about microdosing. In the same year I had the first experience, which was a large dose of jungle spice vaporized and facilitated by an acquaintance of mine. I don’t know why this person decided that it was appropriate for me to take such a large dose (I don’t know the size because he didn’t weigh it, he just put a large pinch on the pipe) but the result was…I guess you would call it a level 5 trip. I inhaled and boom, in a few seconds I was shot out of a canon. I don’t remember much at all about the experience. Just sort of tumbling, and time wasn’t a thing anymore, and I didn’t have a body. The strangest part of the experience was coming back into my body and remembering that I had a body and that I was a person. I was also speechless for several minutes. After that experience I made a few subsequent feeble and unsuccessful attempts over the following couple of years. Once I took 2 g dried shrooms with no effect at all. Another time I took 3 g of the same batch and it made me confused for a while, an unpleasant experience. I also once tried pharmahuasca, 200 mg of rue freebase alkaloids and 40 mg of freebase DMT in a shot of cocacola. That created some strange thoughts and sleepiness but no psychedelic effects.

I am now coming to a point where I have to admit to myself that if I want to be a psychonaut (and I do) I need to start jumping in the pool, so to speak. I don’t have any interest in partying or using these materials for fun. My intention is to explore consciousness and learn about what’s behind the veil that is our normal waking state. I am currently reading the book LSD and the Mind of the Universe by Chris Bache. It is amazing to read about the commitment he put into it. Seventy-something high-dose sessions over the course of like twenty years, all meticulously documented, and with great attention to intention and setting. That’s how I would like to approach this, with reverence and dedication. I just need to find to courage to do it. Thanks.

Best of luck igorcarajo.

If you appreciate this approach, you may want to start by developing a daily journaling practice, and perhaps a mindfulness practice like yoga or meditation.

Good luck! Hope to see you post your progress over time.

Long overdue welcome. Welcome!

I've had some similar experiences.

Not remembering can usually be a result of doing too much. Been my personal experience a few times.

You have support here. Jump on in! A lot of us (even some veterans) deal with regular worries and hangups about doing psychedelics. It's a normal mental function and you will get through it.

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