PRE-CONDITIONS(mind)Set:ready for whatever I was meant to experience
(physical condition) Set:not 100% but overall ok, a little tired 5 hours sleep previous night
Setting (location):at home upstairs on my bed in the loft
time of day: 04:15 GMT(24H, starlight)
recent drug use: recent nicotine vape (minimal) and abstained from mj for last month+, no kratom for 1 week after being on it for 2 years, and <60mg caffeine per day for last two days. Been consuming Silene capensis (African Dream Root) tea the previous several days.
last meal: Cup of Greek Yogurt with blueberries and few raisins (@16:00 - 12 hour fast)
PARTICIPANTGender: M
body weight: 75kg
known sensitivities: none
history of use: novice - previously one experience with GVG that lasted just few minutes with OEV only, plenty of previous mushroom experience
BIOASSAYSubstance(s): Syrian Rue seed roasted + full spectrum harmala extract + DMT
Dose(s): 5.1g + 98mg + 27mg (loaded - minimal amount leftover, probably 1/4-1/3 inhale just air before vape introduced to lungs)
Method of administration: Rue seed and harmala extract into one tea, DMT vaped on e-mesh (one toke)
EFFECTSAdministration time: T=0:00-1:15 (tea - sipped on it over course of 75 minutes, while attempting to mitigate stomach gas/burping) | T=3:15 (DMT)
Duration: 1 hour
First effects: vape felt clean and had no taste, but there was a "flavor" (not chemical or mothball or anything) and/or feeling in mouth that came along with a vibration/sound and CEV that looked like snapshot from first DMT experience, and I associated it with being put face to face with ineffable alien presence, was scary for but a moment. This happened within 10 seconds of exhaling the toke which I held for maybe 20 seconds (was already lying on my back, eyes closed)
Peak: 0:01-0:45
Come down:0:45-1:05
Baseline: ? I'll never be back to "baseline" where I started..... DMT effects came to a close at T1:05 and the effects of harmalas seem to still be lingering at T9:00
Intensity (overall): 4
Evaluation / notes: Powerful, Spiritual, Awakened a part of me that's always been there but was locked up.
Metamorphosis Now understand why DMT is dubbed the "Spirit Molecule"
OPTIONALPleasantness: 4
Implesantness: 0 (maybe a 2 in first 10 seconds)
Visual Intensity: 3
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AFTER-EFFECTSHangover: 1 ; mild headache / strain around temples
Afterglow: 4 ; not much like mushroom afterglow, it's more of the afterglow of immense appreciation of being shown what I was shown, this was extremely personal, spiritual, like doorways in mind were permanently opened up, the afterglow with this experience still continues, without feeling so much like it was drug induced
REPORTTerence McKenna was right about "It will hit you as hard as it hit me". I did not get any STEMs nor was this a bunch of colorful playful entities, I did not see any dome or chrysanthamum; but this was a immensely profound event.
I made sure I was relaxed before vaping, heart rate nominal. I do not have any formal training in meditation but I sat indian style with hoodie and worked on breath and relaxed muscles, made sure I got my mind to a point where I wasn't expecting anything in particular, and established that I want to embark on this experience so it's time to go into it.
I'm not sure if visual intensity is a 3 or a 4; there wasn't anything like artwork by Alex Grey, but there was a journey, and there was plenty of bright energy throughout but I think I was so overwhelmed by the spiritual power that the visual stuff just didn't matter so much.
The journey was like downloading an energy stream, vision filled with ... things being revealed to me, about how fragile my health is (I have good genetics and don't do a lot to appear like I work out, stay in shape, and in this experience I was compelled to think it's time to put more effort in), emphasizing not to take things for granted; I was riding along network of this energy (love?), with the occasional hint that this one entity (appeared alien like but more of an energy itself) was facilitating these opened doorways and pathways.
Just before opening my eyes around T0:45, I literally felt like a butterfly coming out of a cocoon, felt immense burdens lifted that I didn't even know I had. I don't know how else to put it besides "Awakened". Made me think of Neo being freed after taking the red pill.
I don't know what else to write, I'm sure you all know how it gets tricky to describe it in English. But this was extremely profound, and I feel renewed. It stayed mostly clear and the memories of it didn't feel too fleeting, there's a lot I'll never be able to write here as it was very personal.
In a strange way I feel like who I've been my whole life has been missing something, maybe even part of my ego, and where I keep hearing/reading about ego death, the prior 4g+ mushroom trips I've had seemed to be more about getting in touch with my ego, and it's like this DMT experience made it happen.
Thank you DMT-Nexus for enabling me to experience this.
An affinity to entheogens that bring me to full submission,
A thriving esoteric greenhouse, I do envision