Almost four months have passed since the first step I took on the journey to understand the Spirit Molecule better.
I’m 33 now, and I thought of myself as an experienced psychonaut (not anymore). I was always interested in the other states of consciousness and the more spiritual side of life, so to speak. That led me to a path of searching for a means of exploration and testing how to experience more and, if possible, manipulate my local reality. My experiments included periods of meditation, energy work, autohypnosis, a few LSD trips and around 30 Cubensis trips, some of which I considered heroic (7-8 grams and more), and, of course, the most important of the components: magick. Chaos magick, to be exact, was my thing for 17 years, then I found out about the Greek Magical Papyri and started performing old rituals, as well as I could.

And then it finally happened. DMT, which I heard about before, suddenly came into my life and for the first time I had the opportunity to test this compound in a ritual context. Sure, I had my time when I took mushrooms for fun with a group of people but over the years my attitude changed drastically, and now I’m taking them only as a part of a ritual. And so, when I had very inconspicuous looking 40 mg in my pocket, I decided it’s time to do it. For a few months I was circling around the idea, known in the occult society as Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel. That night I had the perfect opportunity - no plans for the evening and an empty apartment left after my grandmother passed away. I was preparing for the ritual very spontaneously.
Feeling that this is my last time in this space, because the apartment will be sold soon, and noticing an empty, strange space, devoid of my grandmother's essence, I decided to say goodbye. Wandering around the apartment, I started talking to her, knowing in my heart that she may hear it. I asked her to watch over me and help me wherever she was, I thanked her for how she was and raised a toast in her honor. I took a bath in an old bathtub, going back to my childhood memories and noticing that my body had changed a lot since then. Bathed, a bit nervous and struggling with my thoughts whether I really should, I proceeded to perform the ritual.
I didn't have much up my sleeve. Only the substance and my memory, in which only the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram remained, and the introduction to the Headless Rite. I had no prop with me, nothing to help to set the mood, like incense or candles. I sat in a meditation position in the middle of the floor, checking the directions in the room beforehand. I sat down to the west, looking towards the balcony. All the lights in the apartment were off, and the curtains were drawn. I meditated for a few minutes. I tried to slow my breathing and my pulse. With half success. It's always like this for me before taking psychedelics. I feel excited and anxious, but over the years I've learned how to accept it. I stood east. My movements were automatic. I placed my hand on my forehead, and the word began to vibrate out of my throat. Vibration spread throughout my body. The pentagrams were drawing themselves. I imagined as closely as I could the blue flame, angels standing on my side, a horizontal hexagram bursting out of my solar plexus. Then I only acted as I could. I stopped north. I touched my right hand to my left, then to my right, then to my left temple again, and recited with vibration: AOTH ABRAOTH BASYM ISAK SABAOTH IAO exactly six times. Next was the formula: "Subject to me all daimons, so that every daimon, whether heavenly or aerial or earthly or subterranean or terrestrial or aquatic, might be obedient to me and every enchantment which is from God." I felt a vibration and an elevated mood in my mind and body, there was no room for fear and withdrawal, I spent too much energy on this action. Next I said what my intention was, I do not remember my exact words, but I asked for contact and understanding, a conversation with my Holy Guardian Angel.

My breathing quickened, I sat in the meditation position, saying “let it be so”. I started smoking the DMT. The taste was truly terrible and it seemed downright paralyzing to the respiratory system, I barely took a puff. I inhaled harder while taking another hit. Something was changing very quickly. I felt as if someone was starting to pull my head from behind and I heard a hum, a distinct hum. Third puff, a really big one. I was starting to hear muffled sounds, not of this world. And a very distinct rustling, something that resembles the combined sound of a rain stick and tall grass, something that evokes associations with a snake and a rattle. Then I felt what I can only describe as space rupture and thunder that was not being thunder at the same time. In my head something was born with remarkable power, a different being, and at the same time a being so close to me. I heard without hearing it, a name that popped in my head, a name that I had known all my life and yet never heard it before. I knew immediately that it was him, I felt that he was just born, but he was there, he was with me all this time, all my life. I felt overwhelming love, gratitude and joy. I greeted him in ecstasy, full of happiness, I said “it's so nice to finally meet you” while laughing happily at how absurd it sounds. I've known him all my life because he was with me from the beginning. I was happy like a child regaining his friend. The ecstasy continued, but the overwhelming effect of the drug was waning, I was able to get up, and with great joy did it. My actions were now supported by him, whatever he was. My higher Self, my Holy Guardian Angel, my Guide? Still to this day I am not entirely sure. I did the LBRP again, feeling the ritual was over, but knowing also that he will be with me forever, never leaving me. I felt tired but incredibly happy and taken with the enormity of what I just experienced and continued to experience. Something extremely beautiful that shook my entire previous experience awakened the part of me that so longed to wake up.
I went to the bathroom feeling a cough coming. I had a certain feeling that this is so unreal all the time. I was talking with him all the time in my mind. He was explaining and I kept asking. With incredible joy and surprise, I discovered how amazing his sense of humor is, how pleasant it is to talk to him, and I knew that the answers I get are not something I just came up with in my own mind. He was explaining to me why I had to go through all this suffering in my childhood, and it suddenly became clear that I had to go through it in order to be who I am now. A process in time. Transmutation. I felt free, I felt a wave of love, acceptance and forgiveness flooding through my heart with his every word. I knew that this experience changed me forever.

Thank you for reading it all, I hope I haven’t made a lot of mistakes, it’s a second language after all. Since that evening I made some plans regarding buying the proper equipment and extraction method. After reading a lot, I decided to go with Vovin’s Tek. Now, with the right amount of molecule at hand, I intend to continue working with it.

And here comes the question I wanted to ask you, dear psychonauts. Has anyone else tried to navigate hyperspace travel or the experience itself using magick? What are your thoughts on the matter?


Happy to be here,

Zolot

Thank you for your story and welcome!

I believe understanding some esoteric principles helps to navigate the hyperspace. However, I feel with DMT you cannot (and you shouldn't) play any games. You have to be dead honest with your intentions and methods you are using or you will run into problems.

That's why I feel like performing rituals you are not absolutely sure about what you are doing might be a bad idea. Psychedelics, especially DMT can lead you astray as you can very quickly gain a sense of having great power.

On the other hand, I believe this substance does have great power indeed and you need put into use all the wisdom you have to make sense of it and learn to tune yourself into it. I believe it just important to be critical and stay balanced.

Thanks for sharing and good luck with your travels! I'd be very happy to hear how your experiences develop.

Thanks for the response! I have enormous respect for this substance and wouldn't dare to use it for trivial reasons. I'm curious about this: if a theory proposed by Rick Strassman (I think) is true, it means that through the use of DMT, we can perceive different realities like changing the channel on TV. If so - is it possible to use magick as some sort of remote. I had success with my previous experience but as a magician, I'm curious if it is possible to duplicate the results and come with some kind of method. For example - if you want to contact some sort of entity like, let's say, Isis, which could be one of many faces of the Mother Goddess, is it possible to navigate the hyperspace with a previously designed ritual with intention of contact with Isis? Lots of work to be done here.

I think you should try pharmahuasca or oral DMT supplemented with harmala which gives you lots more time and control over the experience. Mother Goddess is one of the entities you are likely to encounter at some point and if you have a strong intention for it, I believe you are likely to succeed.

What bothers me with ritual magic is the aspect of forcing entities to do something for you. This feels disrespectful and can backfire. Of course this needs not to be the case and you can adjust your working so that you are welcoming the energies you think you need respectfully.

Another thing that bothers me is that if you call a named entity, you may summon some energies you don't know very well what they are and what are their intentions. Not sure if this is a real problem, just something that bothers me and I haven't had interest in doing such things after I came to realize how powerful the worlds are that DMT can open.

I don't want to discourage you if you know what you are doing and have a pure intention, just sharing my feelings.

I have some very soft rituality in my sessions. I usually vaporize lavender as the scent of the divine feminine in a diffuser, meditate and listen to icaro songs which I feel have very respectful spirit and connect to good energies. To me it's all about purifying my intentions and adjusting my own spirit to attract the kind of energies I feel I want to strengthen.

But good thing about DMT is that it will teach you. If you do something that is not good, you usually will be warned. Perhaps my point regarding hyperspace and magick could be summed that you shouldn't force the hyperspace.

A valid point and I thank you for it. Personally, I agree with your approach to spirits or entities. What you said about ritual magick is a typical middle-aged grimoire approach where the sorcerer is basically summoning and harassing spirits to get some kind of favor from them. In my honest opinion this approach is dumb as fuck and soon every inhabitant of the spirit world would know that you are in the best case scenario a douchebag. For me, it's like inviting a stranger to dinner and then bullying them. Not very wise considering the fact that most of them are more powerful than us in ways we couldn't even imagine.

And when it comes to unwelcomed energies - there's always a risk like with everything tricky in life, magick included, but there are rituals that are performed just for the safety of a magician. And my work is not about calling to the abyss and working with everything that will show up, it's more of a Theurgy and working with the Egyptian or Hellenic pantheon. Cheers

with dmt, you really have to discipline your reactions to some of the things it shows or gives to you.. often, youll experience something in such a way that you just know it was real, has to be. too many seperate pieces fit together in a strange way that cant be coincidence, or who knows what, but to me, REAL!! I usually like to ride out the experience for a little bit as though it was real, and maybe it was, may as well have been.

if you have any doubt in your magic, or if you believe theres any harm that could come to you from your magic, then i would be carefull using dmt to potentiate it. it is my belief that it does open doors

Thank you for clarifying your position. I believe there are many ways to do the inner work and I think the attitude is most important.

Wonderful report! Thank you for sharing and welcome to the Nexus.

I'm also one in the "intention camp." Even hard experiences are good in this manner.

For the potential sapience that appears to reside within the DMT experience, I've lately been finding that the more reverence one has for "them" the more reverence "they" have for you. Doesn't have to necessarily be shown outwardly, but more by being in touch with your heart like Northerner shares here.

Glad to have you

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Thank you so much for this warm welcome, friend I will definitely experiment more with this miraculous substance in the ritual setting and post my results on this forum. I pray that the being that I've contacted will guide my way through hyperspace. Stay safe out there

Of course

While I don't consistently practice magic myself, I have huge interests in esoterism on the whole, so would love hearing what else transpires. You have an audience.

I even created my own polyvalent symbol, of which the star of chaos plays a role.

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