Deltah wrote:I ate and smoked ganja for 25 years every day..that day came and I cheated on her, and we never meet again..I microdose 4aco dmt, LSD and amanita and understand very well what makes people look for a good mood every day. but it's like .running with crutches .. for those who are not capable of anything without them. only big water will teach you to swim .. and those who burn should not drown.
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I know what you mean, but hey, can't beat life, can we ?
what's wrong with wanting to increase our daily qualia.
I've been on nothing for months, life wasn't better, neither bad, but it just what it is.
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downwardsfromzero wrote:Hello and welcome.
That's an interesting experiment you've done.
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What other experience with psychedelics have you had?
Hey !
I've posted a video above ( not sure it can help ) I don't know what kind of cacti have been extract, will ask soon and get you back if I had an answer
-> I'll look into the psychosomatic effect, I know placebo can be hard, any advices on getting into a ritual to break my thought about believing I'll get some side effects ? ( if there is any way to makes a counter psychosomatic effect )
-> my experience has been : ( on 5 years )
- ' week trip ' : LSD 3 trip in water ( probably 400µ distilled on 10 days : and microdosed mixed with shroom with 7g of them precisely. ( so I had someday very trippy, and had a full blown trip this week, I use to do art at the same time, didn't wanted to be unconscious, it was mainly alone at home, so I wanted to not abuse . . . )
- I did shroom 2g x 2 days on a festival aswell
- mdma 6 times ( very hard roll )
- 2 CB : once 2 batman pills at home
- LSD : 2 times a roll alone at home
- lot of weed everyday for 6 years
// I did a year using ritalin 75 mg everyday. ( 4 years ago )
aswell I didn't precise, but I never do any kind of alcohol ( I use to get drunk only for a year at my 20, but put alcohol out for more weed instead, I don't like being drunk. )
I m not really into exercice as a person ( that's my cons. . I can be disciplined on mental affair )
( I use to be more sport when younger / martial art mostly ) , I do some push up, every 3 days, and some squat with it to not loose all my body and still look fit ( as I m quite fit, but being 5'7 and 57 kg )
aswell I try to takes long walk when I can, but didn't do much with month of lockdowns. ( I'll go more outside now that the sun is coming back aswell and lockdown over )
if by ritual you mean intention, not really, I have a "strict fluid discipline", between learning a langage ( korean atm ) and aswell doing music, drawing, and listening podcast / meditation ( but not so much recently )
my goal was just to see how my mood would be sort of different, aswell I feel I needed something, cause working all days in my home since 7 months now made me kinda "introverted".
I'll probably do more walks in the center of my city and met people soon ( that's the goal I want to have with my mescaline days for this summer ) socialize more again before I turn iper weirdo.
mostly the side effect I feel are "tiredness" but I can sleep on it, it's not as dramatic as a mdma roll after day.
maybe that's me, I know a cup of coffee for instance trigger withdrawal symptoms in me, and it's not psychosomatic at all, because I never thought I had crash from coffee when I used to do it years ago ( for several month of physical work ) ( but I had weird symptoms every night before sleep , and after all I started to inquiry on why, did I get a cold or something ? )
it was mainly from the coffee. ( a low quality one, but still ) and I didn't know anything about physical withdrawal from coffee, so weird. I heard others people having those symptoms with it too.
Maybe I have a body wired differently aswell, maybe I m super sensitive to drugs, that's possible aswell. I've heard people could have x5 sensitivity. ( maybe I m a lucky one ? )
LSD put me in total shamanic trance where I almost can't control anything in me without a strong strong strong will. ( but drawing canalise it when I use to become really overly insane ) with just 150µ I feel I had the 500µ ( maybe I m deluded, but I had full ego death on 100µ / while meditating tho )
( I didn't use mdma for the last 2 years, and didn't think I'll do again in the futur, unless very special occasion. )