sorry to jump into this one so late. Im very curious about the more intimate details surrounding the part where you questioned the security of your life. I hope im understanding and communicating this appropriately.

I have recently had a breakthrough that I experienced my death, chose to live, and I have so many questions about it..

Thank you!
I haven't written anything yet. So far, what has interested me most is that feel of making coexist this world and The Other. I guess that with low doses, I get the feeling of a peaceful harmony between the two worlds (whereas high doses make me completely lose sight of the ordinary world). For instance, I tried leaving some music on (something I never do on high doses) and the sound of the music felt "necessary", like, as necessary as any physical law. Like it was a part of reality the same way a fondamental wall is part of a building you know ? I should try to write right after next time.

Also: huge body high. Super sensual, borderline orgasmic at times.

(by the way, it's a band I adore and I'm pretty sure they design their music for aya trips: Bitchin Bajas.)

hey there! No worries!

woaw, that must have been SUPER intense!

As for your question: I'm not sure I understand it properly : ) You mean the feeling of my body "being in trouble" ?